Now there there, *sayang* Its painful that a relationship of 6 years comes to an end. But hope you have slowly reflected upon your own error if any. After all it takes two hand to clap, or even if it was a slap, it needs one face and one palm. Experienced it a few times now, even if it was a short one compared to yours. But the fault normally is found on both parties. One thing I learnt was that, if I tried my best to patch things, but it still falls apart, then let it go. Its better to let it go than cling on to a sinking ship. Don't be the captain of "titanic" unless you are in your 90s. You are still young even if you are near 50s. There are many other Ajs out there.. Good or bad ones.. Slowly pick yourself up along with the help of friends, slowly but surely you will be able to walk again, and soon build your courage to run again! Believe in yourself that you can do it! Believe that you are not alone! Believing will help you in a long long way. If you think you have lose everything, then you definitely will. Don't be afraid to love again, as being afraid would only mean that you cant commit 100% into the relationship. Any relationship(love) without commitment is bound to fail(IMO). JIA YOU! FIGHTING! =D All the best in your recovery=D