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hey i hope this doesn't come out as being attention seeking because i am not. it's just that i have been feeling weird lately and i think i might need help. and i guess i chose this platform because people here are more genuine and less judgemental? i would describe myself as someone who is happy go lucky and not let anything bother me. but for the past few weeks, i feel horrible. it's almost hard to describe but one moment i am perfectly normal, and in the other i feel horrible and stressed and sad. these moodswings are affecting me and i am aware of how it affects others. i started to hate on people (colleagues mostly) and being very hypocritical. i used to blog happy things, but all i write now are like sad things. actually, i don't even write now; i don't even have the feel. i have become really sensitive. sometimes i starve myself, sometimes i don't but there are times i binge eat. i am laughing lesser and i have become really two-faced. i feel bad. and i feel bad for feeling bad. i am aware of these changes. and i am more than aware that i am not suicidal. i tried making myself feel better by doing something i like, like reading and gaming and watch more movies. and i swear nothing i working. i tried reading motivational quotes and also to no avail. nothing is wrong in my family. i have a small family, pa, ma and i. we are ok. and nothing happened at work. i refused to tell anyone verbally. and i refuse to think i have depression. but i just dk what is happening. i have heard (from anna akana on her video confession on how she is on anti-depressants) that anti-depressants work, but i worry it's a temporary thing. any thoughts? p.s i have been doing tarot reading for ppl. does it like affect me?