Wanna commit suicide?

[1983rophi]

3 days ago, i cried from 0000 to 0500. at 0510 i took a stool to the 2nd floor, wtd to jump down, the point i am making here is:

 

 

 

10pple liked my post & 5 guys replied to my FB post at 0510.

 

 

 

sadly, i wished they chatted with me on Messenger while i was mentally-unstable but i thank each one for enc me =O) 

[Marriedclub]

At night our lithium generally lower.. so is normal to be depress..u not alone. 

[Samuel Lim]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling like this, but posting about suicide online can be seen as attention-seeking behavior. If you are truly struggling and contemplating suicide, please seek help from a mental health professional or call a crisis hotline. Ending your life is not the solution and it takes great courage to seek help and face your struggles head-on. 

[yoyQ]

Depression can affect anyone, regardless of gender.

 

Men, however, often face unique challenges in seeking help due to societal expectations around masculinity. It's important for men experiencing depression to know that it's okay to seek support, whether through therapy, support groups, or talking to friends and loved ones.

 

Opening up about struggles with mental health can be difficult but can also lead to healing and growth.

 

[TigerYam]

On 5/25/2024 at 9:26 PM, 1983rophi said:

3 days ago, i cried from 0000 to 0500. at 0510 i took a stool to the 2nd floor, wtd to jump down, the point i am making here is:

 

 

 

10pple liked my post & 5 guys replied to my FB post at 0510.

 

 

 

sadly, i wished they chatted with me on Messenger while i was mentally-unstable but i thank each one for enc me =O) 

 

You should look for a boy friend. 

[TigerYam]

On 5/25/2024 at 9:29 PM, Marriedclub said:

At night our lithium generally lower.. so is normal to be depress..u not alone. 

 

At night, testosterone are very high, that why a lot of horny people are very active at night.

 

Low lithium people should eat more cereal, potatoes, tomatoes. Anyway, lithium high is harmful. 

 

Depress....can be solve.

[1983rophi]

19 hours ago, TigerYam said:

 

You should look for a boy friend. 

Thx for your suggestion. I am trying to find a Guy on Grindr. 

 

Tried bumble, 

Tried coffee m b, 

Tried tinder, 

Tried b wind Forum, 

No response from any guy. 

 

Will take me months to find a Guy, 

 

& mite take 6 months for me coz i have renal failure & am doing dialysis. 

 

=0)

[wanton_mee]

You should take good care of yourself first. Invest time and effort for yourself! Anyhow find a boy friend wait you more want to die.

 

All the best. 

[shyc]

Nothing in life is permanent. Life is a roller coaster it goes up and down but no matter what, when it’s down, eventually will go up and when it’s up, eventually will come down. First and foremost, if u are aware u have issues, don’t coop up by yourself at home. Go for short walks, window shopping, food break etc to distract your mind from spiralling downwards which doesn’t improve conditions. (Yes I noted it was in the wee hours, u will be surprise at the amount of people that walk at those times.)

There are help lines to call if you need a listening ear. Speaking to someone will help untangle what may seems complex at times. Maybe the listener may not be able to come up with a relevant solution but having speak it out will help u ease off tension that might have built up within yourself. A close friend or online chat mates who is willing to listen is also helpful. Also if you are facing medical issues, speak to your attending doctors and tell them u need help to cope. They will be in a better position to set you on a right direction. 
 

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We all face issues of different degrees and we all cope differently. So you are never alone on this. Hopefully you find some relevant direction soon. Good luck and all the best to your health both mentally and physically. 

[1983rophi]

1 hour ago, shyc said:

Nothing in life is permanent. Life is a roller coaster it goes up and down but no matter what, when it’s down, eventually will go up and when it’s up, eventually will come down. First and foremost, if u are aware u have issues, don’t coop up by yourself at home. Go for short walks, window shopping, food break etc to distract your mind from spiralling downwards which doesn’t improve conditions. (Yes I noted it was in the wee hours, u will be surprise at the amount of people that walk at those times.)

There are help lines to call if you need a listening ear. Speaking to someone will help untangle what may seems complex at times. Maybe the listener may not be able to come up with a relevant solution but having speak it out will help u ease off tension that might have built up within yourself. A close friend or online chat mates who is willing to listen is also helpful. Also if you are facing medical issues, speak to your attending doctors and tell them u need help to cope. They will be in a better position to set you on a right direction. 
 

We all face issues of different degrees and we all cope differently. So you are never alone on this. Hopefully you find some relevant direction soon. Good luck and all the best to your health both mentally and physically. 

Thx Bro

😍😘

[1983rophi]

6 hours ago, wanton_mee said:

You should take good care of yourself first. Invest time and effort for yourself! Anyhow find a boy friend wait you more want to die.

 

All the best. 

I will

🤩😍😘

[JusteMoi]

On 5/25/2024 at 9:26 PM, 1983rophi said:

3 days ago, i cried from 0000 to 0500. at 0510 i took a stool to the 2nd floor, wtd to jump down, the point i am making here is:

 

 

 

10pple liked my post & 5 guys replied to my FB post at 0510.

 

 

 

sadly, i wished they chatted with me on Messenger while i was mentally-unstable but i thank each one for enc me =O) 

 When you feel down, call your closest friend(s) instead ... Few people stay up late to browse their FB ... Do take care ...

[1983rophi]

2 hours ago, JusteMoi said:

 When you feel down, call your closest friend(s) instead ... Few people stay up late to browse their FB ... Do take care ...

Thanks, please read the post below, i have taken your advice seriously. Thx for reading this thread, 

Jem ❤️😍😘

[1983rophi]

Morning, Thx to all who read & replied & to the 4 kind souls that P/messaged me. 

 

I need help. 

I need 1 volunteer. 

My problem is: From 3rd to 11th June, 

 

My Parents are in Japan & i am home alone. 

 

Doctor Jayne Ho at IMH told me y'day:

 

"If u are suicidal, go to IMH A&E, wait 2hours & pay $130."

 

i did that on 16th January 2024, went to A&E IMH but the doctors couldn't help me =0(

 

So i need 1 volunteer, 

In case from 0000 to 5am i am depressed & at 5.10am i intend to act on my suicidal intentions to "act on it & jump" 

 

 

I hope from 3rd to 12th,

 

At 0000 daily, 

 

A kind soul from here, 

 

Will spend 10 minutes on Telegram with me, 

 

Just checking in on me, 

 

I am not asking for a chaperone but just a guy who can spend 10 minutes with me over Telegram from 3rd to 12th with me so> my mental health is stable. 

 

Thx for reading this, 

Right now, 

There are 4 nice guys who have volunteered, 

I only can choose one, 

So i will use this FORUM THREAD & POST

 

before 11.59pm

30th May, 

The username of the person i have chosen & thank the rest who volunteered. 

 

(my background, For ur Info)

My name is Jem, 

i am a famous openly Gay man, 

Having been interviewed by MotherShip in 2022.

 

Being Gay, 

I have inspired many gay men through my:

 

facing brain cancer in 2004 & 

finishing chemotherapy in 2005 & 

gtg healed from a Leukemia-Like-Blood-Disorder, 

All that medical trauma happened to me from age 20 to 22yo.

 

Now at 40yo

I have a new set of problems. 

 

From 2015 to 12-12-2023 

I have not had employment 

 

I depend on the $5000 monthly income of my Dad

 

So, the next 6 months, my goal is to find a job that pays $1200 to $1500 so i can pay off the $550 needed to pay for my weekly dialysis. 

 

Thanks for reading my sharing/thread. 

 

I am deeply TOUCHED by the 3 who p/messaged me & 4 guys who did a quick-chat with me. 

 

 

Never in my life, 

Did i expect getting replies from concerned readers over this forum, i always thought this thread was used to share all the times i had anal sex & what it felt like Cumming-in-his-hole, LOL, 

From Jem 😍❤️😘

 

[1983rophi]

3 hours ago, JusteMoi said:

 When you feel down, call your closest friend(s) instead ... Few people stay up late to browse their FB ... Do take care ...

i will take better care of myself, Thx for the reminder ❤️🤩😘

[1983rophi]

***THIS POST was duplicated@ post(1):

 

"A Newer Narrative-- Mental Health and Wellness". 

 

                            

 

Update on my mental health:

                                                                            

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on 28th May 1am,

a hospital in hougang classified me as a threat/risk to self & i was detained-without-consent & served 10 nights>as a result i lost 1kg😥😞😢

                                                                                                          

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TBH,

this wasn't a normal hospital ward, but a concentration camp for me for 11days.

                                                                                    

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my Mobile & Laptop was confiscated so i finished 30 books to survive 11days.

                                                                                                                                                                          

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TBH,

they wtd me to stay warded for 16 more nites, but because i have renal failure & 3 pre-existing-conditions, they uninamously decided: THIS WARD IS NOT SUITABLE/sustainable for my patient profile & it is best i stay home & i have full compliance to my medication🎉🎊.

                                                                                                            

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what lessons i learnt?

(1) if the patient is a millionaire> MONEY CANNOT BE USED TO BAIL U OUT OF THE WARD ADMISSION, coz the doctors> classify u under the mental-health-act

                                                                               

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that means by law u have to ward, if u don't, u will be charged in C & sent to jail👮

                                                                                                                           

(2nd) i don't mind 7 more mites coz Miss SS & Miss H, female patients in my ward, have a 18yo daughter & (H) a 5yo son & 4mth old baby & H told me:

                                                                                      

"I can't wait to get out & hug my baby girl!!! i was warded on 5th May, a month has past & i am still here." after she shared i went to my bed & cried & prayed for her husband taking care of 2 kids.

                                                                                                                     

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(3) H & SS HAVE ALOT AT STAKE AS MOTHERs> BUT i on the other hand, don't have a job & commitments & i made a promise> when i get out> i will fast & pray so 2 of them can be discharged & reunite with their family.

                                                                                                                        

(4) throughout the 11nites how i survived/thrived? seeing 30 patients, & ALL OF US HAVE TO WARD BY LAW & i felt> we are all in the same boat, & who are these pple? The youngest patient is 18yo,the oldest is 75yo =0(

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(5) i end here> the 1st 3 nites i couldn't sleep so i went to the Library & read this 300page book 3 times, COVER TO COVER, i thank God for letting me read this book & it made the 1st week more bearable:

                                                                                          

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Tall Order: the Goh Chok Tong Story Volume 1.

[wanton_mee]

Building up your mental health. He wants you to go thru this to become stronger and better.  Dun give up hor! 

[1983rophi]

F.Y.I.

the 18yo became my gd friend, 

But i told him:"i cannot stand 1 metre from u, just in case u sue me for assault of a minor & then i'll be given a 7year sentence like deeKosh."

                                                            

i shared with him: "i am openly gay. in your 18years, i wonder have u seen gay men & know how they usually behave..."

                                                        

I.M.H. detained him from 20th May to 7th June. Why? according to the Law/mental-health-act, I.M.H. is not allowed to keep minors, so he signed the A.O.R. & i asked him:   "Fabian, what's the first thing U gonna do when u are home?" 

                                       

"MASTURBATE."

                  

i laughed, this 18yo is like me, i am 40yo & the past 11days i was deprived of porn & Grindr, LOL

         

[auscent]

One of the best anti dote against suicide is channeling the energy outwards. A good friend started to volunteer for social causes, frequently. Miraculously, her deep unhappiness just like evaporated overnight.

[wanton_mee]

10 hours ago, auscent said:

One of the best anti dote against suicide is channeling the energy outwards. A good friend started to volunteer for social causes, frequently. Miraculously, her deep unhappiness just like evaporated overnight.

Start with light exercises example walk, fast walk,breeze walk, then slow jog and then running.

[MasterFitMalaySG4U]

Pls never ever think of that! Life need to be cherish. 

 

Just rant it out if u need too. Connect yaself with nature. When u want to know someone don't put full cup of coffee ☕ just half of it. 

 

Don't let ya mind control u. U control it. Rest well. 

[TelAvivStation]

What's something you would do, to give yourself a little treat? Something that's not a permanent fix, but serves as a quick acting distraction? Do you have one? If not, try look for one. 

[Atwork]

I dunno what to advise for someone whom gone through episodes of illness and I can understand how you are feeling. I think first thing is to get employed to pay for your dialysis which you said you are now. It will also distract you from overthinking.

You might want join some religious group to get some faith in yourself too. Nvr give up and keep on fighting.

[Steve5380]

On 5/25/2024 at 8:26 AM, 1983rophi said:

3 days ago, i cried from 0000 to 0500. at 0510 i took a stool to the 2nd floor, wtd to jump down, the point i am making here is:

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Rophi, reading your story made me emotional.  My late bf, who lived with me for 21 years,  had kidney problems from an untreated infection when we became friends, and he thereafter lost his job, and since I was divorced, my family had left and I was living by myself in a big home, I offered him to stay in my house until he could recover.  A few years later he lost the use of his kidneys and became what the US government recognizes as disabled:  with end-stage renal failure.  We chose the peritoneal dialysis, and he did it at home for the following 15 years, after which he received a transplant he had applied for.  Due to complications from his long peritoneal dialysis, he passed away three years later.  I had fallen in love with him due to his extraordinary character,  and I became his caregiver during the many years.  I thank Destiny for the gift I received from him coming into my life.   Therefore I can give the following advice:

 

You have and will have people who, given your condition, will be inclined to provide you with assistance and care.  NEVER allow yourself any negative feelings of being a burden to them.  You are reciprocating with something very valuable.  Those who are in need of assistance and care provide other people with the opportunity of a tremendous personal growth, which would not exist if everyone is self-sufficient.   It is a fact of life:  to be in a situation where one can help another person, and doing it,  is one of the best sources of positive karma.  In this complex Universe we live in,  a person with needs fulfills a necessity of society.

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Edited July 1, 2024 by Steve5380

[wanton_mee]

https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc?si=V35ayRlE-Z1swhWJ

[1983rophi]

On 7/1/2024 at 1:01 PM, wanton_mee said:

https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc?si=V35ayRlE-Z1swhWJ

Thx, this was helpful for me =0)

[wanton_mee]

Dun let the black dog bully you leh. You are the master! You control the bitch! Hahaha

[PlayersGroup]

I think moderators can help pin the resources on threads where mental health resources are needed: 

 

For a list of mental heath support avenues such as hotlines, text-based chats: 

 

https://www.imh.com.sg/CHAT/Get-Help/Pages/Other-Mental-Health-Resources.aspx

 

One of the organisations is of course Oogachaga that supports LGBT. For those who didn't know:

 

Oogachaga: Provides Whatsapp counselling for individuals who would like to share about issues troubling them, such as sexuality, identity, relationships, mental health, and sexual health. Whatsapp: 8592 0609 (text only). Operating hours: Tues, Wed, Thurs: 7pm – 10pm; Saturdays: 2pm – 5pm.

 

Edited July 2, 2024 by PlayersGroup

[Kentazmania]

What is the reason and purpose of u commiting suicide in the first place. 

1. GF issues 

2. BF issues

3. Work issues 

4. Family issues

5 Financial issues 

 

Remember this even if u commit suicide. The problem won't be solved. Sit down take a breather and rethink what can u do to resolved the problem u are facing. There is always a solutions for all problems. There is nothing that is not possible resolved. Yes it make take lots of time and pain to deal with but nevertheless u will be stronger and able to pull through in life. I have experienced suicidal depression before it took me about 1 year and support from friends and family to pull through but now I've became stronger and help people who suffers the same thoughts. So please don't do stupid things such as committing suicide. There are people u can find support from and never give up hope in finding a solution and a better future.