Forbidden Attractions - Larry's Life Story

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

On second week, three weeks before the dinner & dance, I met Kong up for movie & he handed me the official invitation at the same time.

As printed, hosting the evening was Commander Fong, as chairman of the organizing committee. The card had no request for a response RSVP (Respondez, s'il vous plait) in the lower corner, indicating that recipient could not decline the invitation. It would be Kong’s responsibility to find a substitute if I failed to attend, I believed the RSVP omission was to ensure full attendance so desired by the organizer.

In its place of RSVP, dress formal was printed, “Dear, it stated the dress code is formal?”

“Yeah, usually male spouse wears black suit with tie or tuxedo, and evening dress or Cheongsam for female.”

“Evening dress or Cheongsam, ee…. so old fashion, can’t I have any other option?”

“I am not sure. Why don’t you consult your instructress Amy?”

“I will do that. So what’s about you?”

“Well, all military personnel including me are to deck up in our Number 2 dress.”

Spoke with Amy the next lesson came with similar answer, evening dress or Cheongsam. “Can’t I wear something example a polka dots flared skirt?”

“Definitely no, my dear girl, this is too casual. There is certain basic military etiquette you need to observe, your attire is to conform to this guideline, civilian guys wear dinner jackets & ladies long dress or Cheongsam.”

“But I don’t wish to dress like the majority, so boring.”

“Look, when your spouse project immaculately with his Number 3, it should be your desire to match & dress appropriately.”

“Ah-ha…..”

“Of course, I am not asking you to copy from the crowd blindly, you are young & you must dress young, so use your imagination & discuss with your tailor.” With that, she gave me the tips for choosing a formal dress, i.e. length knee to floor, color complements my escort’s attire (for this I used pink to match Kong’s white), comfortable for walking, sitting & dancing, and lastly, wear formal shoe but able to walk & dance.

She went further giving things to observe during the dinner & dance:

1. At reception, shake hand & exchange greetings with hosts & guests of honor, wait for the aide takes your name & do the introduction. Do not shake hands with the aide.

2. During reception, mingling around with the other guests. Conversations should be light & of short duration. To move on, a simple "Excuse me" will do & then leave.

3. Seating - The gentleman assists his partner by sliding her chair away from the table, allowing her to enter her seat from the left. When departing, rise from the right.

4. Do not show public displays of affection in particular kissing.

5. Departing: Considered polite to wait until the senior person or guest of honor leaves.

6. Stand up & participate in toasting by raising the glass to your lips even your drink is non alcoholic. All toasting is initiated by the host.

7. Seating Arrangement - a floor plan is usually placed near the entrance. Seating is arranged to reflect appointment & rank.

8. Eating - wait till all on same table have been served & when spouse of most senior officer has begun eating.

9. Engage in light conversation with guests close-by during the meal.

10. It is gracious, rather than presumptuous; to introduce your own self to a senior officer or his / her spouse.

During the lessons, Amy taught various technique on eye & face make-up which were not in the syllabus contents. Besided getting valuable inputs from her on the dress to be worn for the dinner & dance, on the last lesson; she graciously help trimmed my brows to arc shape. What a wonderful instructress, Amy, I will remember you for life.

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Edited July 17, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Unlike most others who did not get support during transitioning, I was fortunate to have it from Ling, Aunty Lily & my lovely Kong. Although mom did not visibly approve my behavior, she subtly fed me money through Aunty Lily very possibly without getting dad consent.

With saving from my army days, the five hundred dollars just received from mom, and the one thousand dollar hongbao from Kong’s grandma (I was stunned when I opened the red pocket, this showed that grandma was serious about my relationship with Kong, anyway, not to complicate the situation, I did not tell Kong & anyone else about this), I would not have much problem to pay for my second & even third years tuition fees.

I had two groups of tuition which took up four evenings weekly, it was good to have the three hundred bucks saving up for my forth & last year course fee.

Because of my long hair & effeminate outlook, I tasted failure on my first two assignments sent by the tuition centre when I turned out at the student places in guy mode; I was saddened & angry to realize my effeminate behavior evoked stereotypical impressions of homosexuality in the students’ parents. The tuition staff told me not to continue for the next lessons after just beginning with one.

I ought to give my best shot in coaching the two groups of tuition, I was aware it would not be easy to get new one except through mouth of recommendation due to the society prejudice. For this, my plan to go full-time immediately after my graduation before going on job searching seemed to be realistic & practical.

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Concerning the evening dress for the dinner & dance party, with enthusiastic inputs from Aunty Lily, Ling & Amy, and the onslaught ravage on the evening & cocktail dresses from the fashion & female magazines I collected, I was flooded with too many cut-out pictures to decide.

My requirement was simple; it got to be not too expensive not burning hole on Kong’s pocket, next length not too short causing cheap looking, but neither too long affecting moving around. With much tossing, I finally decided on a dress per the following description as time was running short. The tailoring would probably take at least ten days that left with little time for alteration should there be any shortcoming.

1. Colour: Pink

2. General description: Chinese Cheongsam

3. Details: 100% Taffeta silk; exquisite embroideries of roses & butterflies on both the front & back of the dress; tear drop neck line (not too low as I had no cleavage to show yet, he-he); handmade butterfly buttons under the neck & on top of the side slits; the slits were about 300 mm from my waist showing the legs but not too fleshy.

The dress was tailored by a middle age Shanghainess lady next to Auntie Lily’ hair saloon. The price was negotiated at $180 & I used the supplementary card given by Kong to pay off, this was the second time card was used beside the hormone injections.

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[Larry]

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Each time when I recalled that day, it remained fresh in my memory, especially for that evening, I refer it as THE night.

As told by Aunty Lily, I went & test fitted the stitched-up dress ten days after taking the measurement. The cutting was fine but I relented to the insistence from the tailoring lady to bring the hemlines for both slits one inch higher reflecting the youthful age of the wearer. The sewed-up dress was collected one day before THE night.

The day started with a DIY face mask job in the morning. Ling was equally excited before heading off for his industrial attachment, “Hey, small sister, I will be home early this evening.”

I was touched with his concern, “Rain or shine, I will wait for you, big sister. I need your blessing; it is going to be a big night for me & Kong.”

The actual makeover was at Aunty Lily’s saloon in the afternoon. Prior to the setting off, I ate a hearty lunch as full as my tummy could take, I was prepared to have no food once the lip color was applied, not till the first dish was served in the evening function. To quench my thirst, I kept a straw around to be used for drinking water, well; this was the sacrifice to take in order to have a beautiful turn-out.

Similar to the previous make-over at the beauty shop in Katong Shopping Centre, it would be make up first followed by hair styling. However, as I was using my own hair this time instead of hair wig all previously, there was a slight moderation, i.e. first to have my hair shampooed & conditioned followed by trimming on the hair ends by a junior hair stylist.

It was such a relief to do away with the hair wig, no longer to endure the heat & uncomfortable due to abundant used of hair pins; I was able to scratch my head if needed.

I have to admit that makeup is an incredible way of quickly transforming one’s appearance from featureless to fabulous. The make-up artist whispered to my ear on the steps she would be taking.

“Miss, your skin is perfect with very few blemishes & black heads (he-he, I slept early for the past week skipping all favorite TV programs, looked like these sacrifices were worth it), so I will apply the foundation directly without using the concealer.” She blended the foundation onto my face & neck using fingertips & a makeup sponge.

“Your brows are okay, nicely shaded.” Well, that was done by Amy, the instructress. “What is the colour of your dress for the evening?”

“Pink, it is a Chinese cheongsam.”

“Great, then I will give light pink & blue colours for the eye shadow to complement your attire.” It was the longest for the whole make-up process as she painstakingly applied, removed, redo & refined. The final result was to my real satisfaction, a pair of smoky looking eyes, great & fantastic.

“Stop blinking.”, “Hold & wide open your eyes.”, “Close your eyes.”, “Look up.” Another dedicated process in applying the eyeliners, mascara & eye brow shading. She applied the red blush on the cheeks & completed with applying lip colour.

I was delighted that Auntie Lily came to the hair styling; instead of attending to other paying customers, she did me up for free, oh dear, what a great Auntie Lily I did have. I could see that she was putting in her best effort to give me the best styling.

She divided my hairs into two main sections by clipping the sides & top out of the way, then working on the hairs on the lower section & took one section at a time. She held the dryer in one hand & a styling brush in the other hand, placing the brush underneath the roots of the hairs, she curved the brush to achieve a slight bend & moved the brush slowly & carefully towards the ends, in-between she directed the hot air from the dryer to follow the downward movement. She released a section of hairs from the top & repeated the same manner till the full head was covered. She finished off the styling by spraying a layer of hairnet to flatten any flyaway ends. Jesus that was a great artistic work as I was so engrossed on her smooth & silky hand action that forgotten totally on the manicure & pedicure done simultaneously.

I took a taxi home at around 430 pm barely enough for shower & dress change.

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[Larry]

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

I had no idea how long anything took, figuring out how to uncap the bottle, how much shower cream to be used, how strong to on the spray & etc, all those what to do in order not to ruin my painted face, new hair-do so as the painted nails which might not be fully cured. Causing a mental ruckus, yeah, it was a long shower as water ran down my body carefully without wetting the great works done on my hair & face.

Drying the body, precaution was also taken to see that the manicured nails did not entangle with bath towel. The house was empty without the presence of Aunty Lily & Ling, so I was free to walk in-between the bedroom & shower room wearing only a bath towel.

Back to Ling’s room, I took out the newly bought 34A brassiere, tight girdle & full length stocking, all three items were in skin tone. 34A – a magic number obtained by the lingerie sales girl at Isetan Parkway Parade when she took my measurement. It was my maiden experience letting a female touched my upper torso (note: concerning how I managed to arrive at 34A, the formation of excess breast tissue & enlarged nipples, I will write separately on another chapter concerning the hormonal impact on my body).

Prior to putting on the brassiere, I spent sometime to do the cleavage enhancement. There are a range of techniques temporarily improving the appearance of a person's breast cleavage or to create the illusion of breast cleavage on a person who has no such cleavage. The method I employed was bra tape, again purchased from the same sales girl, an adhesive tape which placed under the nipples where chest skin was pulled towards the centre to generate cleavage. The first trial was screw-up; fortunately I got a second one which gave better result. Jesus, just two pieces of this non-recyclable tape made me poorer by ten bucks.

One by one, I put on the bra, girdle & stocking sequentially, all with extra care not to ruin the nail polish (I had many lousy encounters with smeary nail polish, even after 2 hours of application, might be the amount was too thick, the second or third layer was applied too soon before the previous layer or might be because of poor quality polish, anyway, I always have this fear).

Came the last was the tailored cheongsam dress, as the zip went high up at the back, I had to wait for Aunty Lily or Ling to assist, anyway, the dress was truly genteel & romantic. I looked at the mirror, wow, I did have a 34-28-32 figure, a less than perfect but might be okay, I thought.

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How bra size is calculated (if you wish to know):

1. First, determine the FRAME Size. The frame size is the circumference around the ribcage / chest JUST BELOW the breasts using the tape measurement.

2. The next measurement – bust measurement goes around the chest, over the nipples.

3. Next determine the band size. If the frame size is odd number, 5 inches is added and if it's even, 4 inches are added. My frame size was 30 inches, so my band size was 34.

4. To get cup size, subtract band size from bust measurement. If difference is plus 1 inch cup size is B. plus 2 inches C cup & so on. As my breast measurement was 34, the difference was 34 – 34 = 0, so my cup size was A, the smallest.

5. So overall, it was 34A.

Edited July 22, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

I am sorry if any one felt offensive / disgusting on this instalment.

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Ling was back earlier than Auntie Lily, “My my, you look so elegant & sweet.” he exclaimed.

“Not really, the buttock looks bit too flat; less than ideal curvature.”

“No la…, is perfect. Your expectation is way too high. Can I borrow the dress if opportunity arises?”

“Surely. Big sister, can you help to zip up my dress?”

“Is my pleasure, I’ll be your bridesmaid today.”

“Sis, just an ordinary dinner & dance, what bridesmaid you are talking about?” my face was reddened as I replied.

“No, no, no, with one month of preparation, this is definitely comparable to a wedding one.”

"Sis, I am thirsty, can you get me cup of ice water with a straw?"

"Yes, my princess."

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“Hey, mom asks you to go to her room.” said Ling as he handed me the water fetched from the kitchen.

“Huh?” go to her room, did I listen wrongly?

“Is already 6 pm, you better hurry, come on, move your butt.”

“Oh, okay.”

Accompanied by Ling & standing outside Aunty Lily’s room, I knocked on the door & asked hesitantly, “Aunty, are you looking for me?”

“Ya, saying, sila masuk, come & sit down.”

I walked in shyly & sat with my knee together next to the dressing table, it was my first time entering her room.

“Here, let me do a final touch-up on you,” paused Aunty Lily, “Ling, go get my jewelry box from the top drawer.”

From the jewelry box, she picked & secured to my hair a glitzy & sparkly hair clip which added a dramatic flair to my outfit. Next she picked a pair of pink cultured pearl ear studs & a necklace similarly to match my pink Cheongsam. I was touched with her good gesture when she put the studs through my lobes, “Aunty Lily, thank you so much, you are so good to me.”

“Ai-yo, don’t say that la, mom treats you as her daughter, don’t you know that?” said Ling.

“Yes, my dear, I always treat you as my own daughter.” She answered softly with her hands holding on my shoulder.

Completing the outfit, she handed me a pair of below-the-elbow white lacy gloves & asked me to put them on, obediently I took her instruction & found that it indeed made the look classy & elegant.

And last but not least, Aunty Lily gave me a fabric hand bag packed with relevant lipstick & compact powder, small & cute, a design sweet & handy for any high school girl attending her prom.

Returning back to Ling’s room, I put in my wallet which carried my identity card & some money to the hand bag. With it resting on my lap & putting on a pair of black open toes heeled shoes, showing off the pink pedicure toes under the stocking, I sat in the room waited patiently for Kong’s arrival.

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Hey, little princess, your white knight is here.” At about 630 pm, Ling came into the bedroom & announced Kong’s arrival, “Hey, damn outstanding stuff, can share or not?”

“Sorry, no sharing. You can have him if you want.”

“Ai-yo, I am just joking. Don’t be so serious. I will find one much better, okay.” Ling replied with a smile, such was the kind of sisterly rivalry between us, no hard feeling.

“Come, your bride is in the room, she is too shy to come out, do come in & fetch her.” Ling shouted out from the room. Oh my dear big sister, you were so dramatic, I thought, but I did enjoy his teasing.

“Oh my ……..” Kong was stunned with his mouth widely opened; he was a drama king too.

“What?” I shyly raised my head & asked.

“ Swe swe……..” he wolf whistled & continued, “Oh my god, you are fantastically beautiful.”

“What nonsense you are talking, I am still me nothing difference.” I blushed from head to toes.

“No, is true. You can ask them.” He paused & turned to Auntie Lily, “Auntie, how?”

“Yes, my dear child, you are indeed astonishingly beautiful, far beyond my imagination.”

“Ng…… Auntie, you are so bad, disturb me also just likes him.” My mouth spouted out liked a kid but was smiling.

“Okay, let not fooling around. Big fellow, I am now entrusting the bride to you, do take good care of her tonight, do you understand?”

“Yes madam.” Kong stood straight with a military salute, much to the delights from Auntie Lily & Ling.

“May I, my dear wife?” He bowed & extended his hand.

“Who is your wife now? Go get the spectacles from the desk please.”

“What? I do not know you need to use spectacles?” He passed me the spec & looked at me puzzlingly.

“No la, this is a non-degree spec. I bought it especially for tonight to deceive my outlook.” It was a black plastic frame round shape spectacles with one & a half inches diameter clear lenses.

“Ai-ya, see, all of us already told you that you look convincing, so why need to use a spec?” I saw that Ling & Auntie Lily nodded their heads profoundly.

“No, I insist.”

“Okay la, your wish.” At the moment I put on the spec. he exclaimed, “Wows, what a real beauty, this spec. changes the whole outlook completely. Darling, you are right & I am so proud of you.”

With one hand carrying the fabric floral printed wallet bag & another holding on his arm, we walked out of the room. Ling was standing from afar giving me a thumb up sign.

“Bye, sister. Bye Aunty Lily.”

“Bye, enjoy yourself tonight.” Ling waved back.

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I had many lousy encounters with smeary nail polish, even after 2 hours of application, might be the amount was too thick, the second or third layer was applied too soon before the previous layer or might be because of poor quality polish, anyway, I always have this fear).

Here is my input:

1. Never apply more than 4 layers, the base coat, 2nd layer, final coat & lastly the shine coat.

2. Each layer must be as thin as possible, this is to allow drying so as not to affect (melt) the base layer.

3. Allow time to dry before next coating.

4. Of course, buy quality polish, I believe 50 cents & $16 per bottle are not on par.

5. Lastly, don't mix balance paint to another bottle, many salons are doing that to cut cost but may not be wise.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

He was as mischievous as a monkey from the moment he started the engine, tickling my palm with his little finger & rubbing with his left hand on my stocking thigh repeatedly. Preventing his sudden attack on my painted face which might ruin my makeup just liked those morning ride back to the camp where he would steal a peck on my cheek; I shifted & sat closer to the door.

“Hey, hey, hey, behave yourself.”

“Cannot tahan la… you know, we didn’t meet for almost one week. Furthermore you look so appetizing this evening.”

“Rubbish, show some respect. What’s appetizing?” Anyway, I managed to tame him down by placing my hand on his lap; he was indeed a sex deprived animal similar to any ordinary man, even though in his ceremonial uniform.

It was a different kind of feeling altogether while heading back to the same old camp using the same route, the sky was bright awaiting for the sunset, the weather was hot & humid outside the air-conditioned car & the roads were crowded not as smooth as the morning drive, but the romantic atmosphere remained strong as we exchanged glimpses frequently with spontaneous smiles. I just wished the drive never end.

While approaching the Tuas end, I saw that the whole village was gone, leaving behind some isolated attap houses here & there.

“Dear, just one year only, the place has change.”

“Yeah, this is Singapore; old places give way for new developments everyday. As matter of fact, there is always a new road every single month.”

"Will our love change also?" My mood took a dive suddenly.

"Silly, our love will never change, that is my promise. I swear."

"Okay la, I trust you, you don't have to swear."

"Darling, you have gone this far for me, so how can I betray you?" He probably referred to my transformation & hormone injections.

“Hmm….,” there was a momentarily silent before I continued, “how about the camp, will it still be here?” I tried to change topic.

“I think it will remain stay put, but the surrounding will probably go to Jurong Industrial Corporation.” (Note: as a matter of fact, the camp still exists in the same location but somehow the little hill top was gone).

“I hope the hill top will be there forever, I have fond memory of the place.” Yes, it was the place nothing more romantic then sitting next to my loved one leaning on his broad shoulder.

“That right. I do remember clearly the beautiful sunset & the tranquil surrounding.”

“Not only these, you & your horrible singing.” I laughed softly.

“Hey, hey, hey, what’s horrible singing, I thought you liked my singing.” He started humming the song that we sung up there as I pretended to cover my ears.

The way that it should be

Baby, you’d love me to want you

The way that I want to

If you’d only let it be……………

"Eeeee....., still so awful." we were laughing.

Yes, I loved you, Kong. Honestly.

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Edited July 30, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Our car came to a halt as traffic congestion at the main gate. The regimental polices were busily directing cars to the vast car park next to the main gate, I became nervous & heart was pumping hard, looking down & fiddling on the bag handles, the atmosphere was tense.

“Darling, relax.” Kong sensed my uneasiness & said.

“Dear, I am thinking…. “

“Yes?”

“I am thinking…. “

“Yeah, I am listening. Go ahead.”

“I am thinking you make a U-turn & drop me off on the main road.” I spoke sheepishly & didn’t dare to look at him.

“And then?”

“I can take a taxi from there to return home. Please… don’t scold me.” I replied nervously & could feel his unhappiness.

“Are you telling you chicken-up at this last minute? Give me one good reason.”

“Yes, I’m bowing out of this, I am scared, and worried that slipping-up on my male identity would affect your job, your career. The army will never tolerate such bizarre relationship.”

“Damn! I don’t give two hoots about it.”

“But a sin as far as the army is concerned.”

“No, it just happens that you are a girl trapped in a man body. With my qualification army is not the only career option, okay! What’s concern me most are you, your happiness, your well being & your self esteem.”

“Thanks, please forgive me, I am still not able to overcome this anxiety & need time to reinforce self confidence. I appreciate your encouragement & tolerance.”

“So are we still going in?”

“Huh… you decide lo… “

“That’s my good girl.”

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Dear, you overshoot the car park entrance.” I reminded Kong while seeing couples coming out from the car park.

“No, no overshoot, we are going in straight.”

“Why’s so special?”

“Cars for senior staff of this camp which including me, the brigade commander & VIPs from the ministry are to park inside the camp.”

“That’s unfair, I do see senior officers walking out from the car park.”

“No choice, limited parking lots inside the camp. Moreover they are from other units but holding secondary appointments in the new brigade or reserve battalions.”

“What about checking in of civilian spouses? How’s about me, don’t I need to get registration at the guard room?” This would be my major concern, once my identity card which carries male status was shown, how not to pecha lobang?

“Not to worry, spouses of those parking inside were pre-registered & are exempted from checking-in.”

“Oh… is that so. Okay.” I heaved a sigh of relief upon hearing his reply.

“Darling, I already pre-registered you as Jennifer Koh & many colleagues knew you the twin sister of Lt. Larry Koh, is that okay?”

“Wow, like that also can.”

“I’m aware about your anxiety, so this arrangement will shield you better if someone found you resemble Larry, smart move right?”

“So with the add-on spectacles, how many percent is still resemblance?”

“I should say is about 50 / 50.”

“Alamak is still 50 / 50.”

“Ya la, that why the twin status is useful. So don’t worry, okay?”

Directly under his command, the two regimental polices were quick to recognize Kong & did the salute, “Good evening, sir.”

“Sir.” I noted that one of the RP gave the thumbs up while Kong reacted with an index finger placed on his lips. Were the thumbs up referring to me, honestly I didn’t like it at all, I rather wanted to be on low profile, damn….. Please, please, leave me alone, please……

“Darling, the RP is paying his compliment to you.”

“What? Huh… Oh, I am sorry.”

“Good evening, madam.”

Wow from Sir to Madam, first time in my life, the feeling was strange but nice.

“Thank you.” I wound down the car window & returned the compliment with a light smile. Kong drove past the guard post as the RP waved us on with much envies from other onlookers.

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Edited August 2, 2010 by Larry

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“Cannot tahan la… you know, we didn’t meet for almost one week. Furthermore you look so appetizing this evening.”

“Rubbish, show some respect. What’s appetizing?”

Yes, I loved you, Kong. Honestly.

So sweeeeeeet, I love this story.

[Guest another guest]

So sweeeeeeet, I love this story.

I agree, more from Larry please.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Hey, sit still okay, I will come over to open the door.” said Kong as he parked his car on the lot directed by the traffic marshal, apparently his usual lot was reserved for someone more senior.

“Okay….” I answered weakly but my mind wandered somewhere else. What was I doing, waiting for him to open my door? I recalled the debate started by us, the rebellious cadets with the instructor at social etiquette lesson during our officer cadet course; didn’t the girls have their own limbs to open the door by themselves? Wasn’t this contradicted sexual equality which we were preaching? I was anti-social, I was a non-conformist & I just could not believe I obliged to such hypocritical practice now, perhaps because I loved him, I was his woman or the hormonal effect……

My deep thought was interrupted by Kong as he was now standing beside the opened door with hand raising towards me, “Darling, are you ready?”

“Oh... yes.” I replied & showed him my left hand, on second thought it was a great treat for me as a lady & I could see that Kong enjoy doing this, illustrating his another facet as a gentleman besides being a career soldier.

I turned outwards & placed my left foot on the ground before bringing out my right foot, “Wow, red colour.”

“What’s red colour?” I asked

“Your underwear.” He whispered softly to my ear.

“Wa-lau, you then sex mania, you know. Like that how’s to strike 4D this evening, don’t think of that.” I spoke while I pinched him lightly.

“Ouch.”

“Serve you right, you’re better behaving yourself, people maybe watching us.” I knew for sure Kong’s subordinates from the HQ Company, the regimental polices, traffic marshals, the female aides & etc would be watching us from afar, they would be very much interested to find out & talk about the lady besides him right from this moment.

As told by Kong, he was being wooed by the few regular female staff after my run-out-date, in particular Susan from the General Staff office, as I was no longer exist on her radar screen (she probably would faint if she found that I was now her competitor). These female staff would definitely scrutinized me from head to toe for justification (they might faint too if they found that was me the Larry), the choice of Kong where he was deemed to be the most eligible bachelor in the camp.

The rest of the people who one way or another interacted with me previously as Larry would want to find who this Jennifer were whom pronounced to be twin sister of Larry. So from this minute onwards, I got to be careful in every move every step, I would have to put all etiquettes & social deportments learnt from Amy during the three weeks course into good use. Sigh, what a hypocrite & superficial society.

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Dear, can we walk around just for awhile? I …. I get cold feet. We still got time to spare, right?” My mind was in such a whirl that I could hardly compose my thoughts.

“Let’s see,” he checked on his watch & continued, “twenty minutes before 745, okay, let’s have a short walk.”

“Thanks, dear. Oh, wait.”

“Yes?”

Just to ensure no one mistook my handbag & checked on my identity card, I took out my wallet leaving only a pack of tissue, lipstick & compact powder in the handbag, “Dear, please keep my wallet in the glove compartment.”

Hooking our last fingers, we walked down the streets towards the hill at the far back. Kong returned smiles & waved to several officers & their spouses / girlfriends who were loitering around.

I had only been gone for a year, but felt like an eternity. It felt so right to have Kong there by my side. I was happy & proud to be able to call him my boyfriend. Just his presence warmed me up on this extraordinary evening, one year ago I was still wearing pant walking around, today I was donning a skirt, gosh, what’s a change.

At the end of the road leading towards the hill top, we stopped before the grassy meadow as I was wearing high heel. Clinging his arm I asked, “You still remember the hilltop?”

“Yes, we did have a beautiful moment up there.”

Just liked that evening at the hill top, I entranced at the beautiful sunset, wandering into the past…. about my love one who sat beside me…... his perspiration….., his light kiss upon my cheek…. his ‘I love you’….. and yeah that butterfly which fluttered beside me & landed on my finger……

“Darling, we can’t stay here for too long, as host camp, I need to go in now.” he said.

As we were walking back to the auditorium hall, I felt relief at myself for a question I had asked since three weeks ago, "Not all all ladies are wearing long dresses?" In the 5 minute walk, I spotted a few dressed at knee length just liked me. I was shaking from the freezing cold wind.

On my request, we went up to his office as I needed a final touch-up (his barrack was strictly forbidden for females).

Time had slipped away and it was now 1940 military time & it was time to enter the main venue. As the minutes ticked away, I became more and more panicked. “Okay, hold my hand tightly please.” I was still nervous as we stepped out of his office & needed his physical support.

“Sure, it is my pleasure.”

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[Guest i am clever]

only idiots read this story

[Larry]

only idiots read this story

You can scold me or discredit me, but pleaae don't condemn my readers.

[Guest Kettle]

only idiots read this story

Hi Pot.

You must be an idiot too for you must have read the story to come out with this conclusion.

Or you are a greater idiot if you came out with the conclusion without even reading the story.

Either way, you've self-pwned. Pity.

Regards,

Kettle

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Madam, Sir, this way please.” Hand holding hand & walking towards the auditorium hall, we were shown to its left by a road marshal. Apparently, two entrances were used of which one for the reception of NCO & civilian; and another for the commissioned officers who came in uniform.

“Good evening Sir.” A young female officer paid her respect to Kong in front of the entrance.

“Good evening, Lieutenant Tan.” Kong returned her salute & asked, “What are you doing here?”

“Sir, I am the usher for the arch of swords. Sir, you & your wife can choose to walk the arch of swords or bypassing it, please decide.” asked Lt. Tan.

“Excuse me, I am not his wife, I’m just his… ” Looking at her, my face was reddened & made a weak protest.

“fiancée.” said Kong.

“Hey, you…. ” Swatting his arm lightly, I was about to protest.

“Yes, I am listening, darling.”

“Oh…,” seeing his magnetic smile, my disagreement dissipated almost immediately, “Nothing, nothing.”

“Darling, let’s walk the arch of swords, okay?” Kong asked me softly.

“Hey, there will be other guests watching, you sure you want to do this?”

“Why’s not? Just be yourself & ignore these looks. So how, we can’t discuss for too long?”

“You decide.” Honestly I was eager to walk the arch but pretended to be hesitant.

Kong smiled broadly & gave an OK signal to Lt. Tan, “Okay, let’s do it.”

“Ma’am, your left hand on Sir’ right arm please.” As briefed by Lt. Tan.

With left hand clinging on Kong right arm & the other hand holding the handbag, we stood in front two rows of sword bearer, with six equal numbers wearing white gloves forming an aisle outside the hall entrance.

On the commands of “Attention” followed by “Draw swords” given out by the squad commander, the steels were raised with the right hand, cutting edges facing up & tips touched the opposite member, so forming an archway as we walked through.

Turning around, Kong saluted to the guard while I waved my hand as the guards sheathed the swords & returned to carry position.

The arch of swords was an elegant touch to the evening as I would love to have this during our wedding ceremony, I thought.

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[Patrick]

Dear Larry,

If you are Chinese educated, your English writing is very good.

I shed tears a few times while reading your story.

[Larry]

Dear Larry,

If you are Chinese educated, your English writing is very good.

I shed tears a few times while reading your story.

Not at all, there were rooms for improvement. It was quite tough to write thinking from Mandarin to English, which slowed the pace.

Thanks you so much for being my reader.

[Guest lucky]

i love to read yr story too. so touching n so cheeky at time.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

To my surprise, it was nicely comfortable in the now enclosed open-air auditorium hall, to accommodate the one thousand attendances; the hall was extended to the adjoining football field, complete with carpeted platform leveled with the hall.

Transparent plastic sheets & armour tank camouflage nets decorated with leaves of banana & wild plant, colour bird & butterfly stickers were used on all three facades (note: the front was the stage with closed end) effectively cut off the hot & humid air from the outside.

With rows of air curtains neatly aligned on top of the boundaries, military used portable air coolers where used in deep trenches for command posts & commercial ceiling air-conditioning units placed in various strategic locations making the whole hall pleasant & conducive. Pots of orchard plant probably taken from the nursery at the back of officer mess were hung randomly around & the whole hall was truly with full military colour, beautiful & classy. It ought to be the great work from the engineering unit from the Support Company, I thought.

This gigantic hall was now filled with people & they all look gorgeous in their formal dresses or uniforms! There were about one hundred over tables; an usher showed us the designated table # 6 which was quite near to the stage.

I clung on Kong arm tightly as I did feel rather out of place. I tacked along with him & he broke the ice by introducing me to his acquaintances along the way, some of them such as the senior medical officer “Patrick” & the “Babu” Singh whom I knew were introduced, I acted blur & avoided direct eye contact during the hand shaking (gloves should be kept on when shaking hands, in reception or when dancing).

“Hello, Patrick. Let me introduce my girl friend to you, she is Jennifer.”

“Jennifer, this is Patrick, he is the senior officer in the medical centre.” Kong was putting up a show too.

“Hey, it is nice to meet you. I am Patrick & this is my wife Jean.” There were criss-cross hand shakings between Patrick, Jean, Kong & myself.

“Kong told me that you are the twin sister of Lt. Larry Koh, so how is he?”

“Oh, he is fine. He is in the university study now.”

“Never know Larry have a twin sister. He is handsome & you are pretty indeed.”

“Oh, thank you for your compliment.” Such were the type of conversation repeated numerously throughout the evening when I was introduced, somehow the twin theory worked.

His wife Jean asked me a few questions, but it was so loud from all the conversations I couldn't hear a word she was saying. I just nodded, smiled & tried to be as polite as possible. After being introduced to several other people, that I couldn't seem to remember their names nor could I hear anything they were saying, we eventually made our way over to our assigned table.

I took my seat as Kong went around the tables to make acquaintances, I was probably a subject in their conversations as I saw them looking at my direction intermittently. As for me, I would want to walk around & talk to those I knew but could not do so; I sat there with four other ladies looking around aimlessly & occasionally blankly looking at each others & smile courteously. That sort of feeling is exactly same as the situation when you sit with strangers on friend’s wedding dinner, edgy & uncomfortable.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Sorry, sorry, can’t be held, got to say hello with so many old friends.” Holding my hand, Kong spoke apologetically; the boredom was much gone with his return.

“No, I’m okay, don’t worry.” I replied with a smile. Meanwhile I saw that all other senior officers from our table came back to their spouses, as there was an announcement urging people to get seated as the ceremony would start in five minutes time.

Waiters & waitress were busy serving drinks, I asked for orange juice & beer for Kong. He was surprised when I placed the order, “Thanks, darling.”

“Control & drink moderately, alright.” The beer curfew was temporary lifted for this evening, after all this was an official dinner with so many of his colleagues & friends around, he needed space.

The hall was called to ATTENTION by the master of ceremony as defence senior official, brigade & all battalion commanders went up to stage. It was followed by singing of National Anthem before the brigade commander took the podium & asked the room to be seated. The official from the defence ministry gave a short speech after that.

Immediately after the speech, there was a religious blessing ceremony on the brigade ceremonial flag by the four (may be five or six could not remember clearly) religion personnel, solemn & simple. It was the first time the flag was revealed in the public.

Lastly was Commander Fong as host to give a thank you speech,

“.................. Thank you for coming to the dinner & dance for the brigade hosted by Tuas Camp, as commander of the host camp, I welcome all to have an enjoyable evening ……………………….. Next, I like to thank a man, my second-in-command Major xx Kong. Kong, will you stand up please.” Kong stood up dutifully & all eyes zoomed onto this table. “With this man & the dedicated engineering team, we are having this function in this beautiful & comfortable set-up, will the rest of the members stand up too.” He paused, “Let give them a big round of applauses.”

“……………………….. And last but not least, something personal. At this happy occasion, I am glad to see that Major xx Kong our most eligible golden bachelor comes with his lovely partner. Thank you young lady, you sacrificed your precious private time with him allowing your man working long hours to make this happen.” I puzzlingly looked at Kong as this was not known to me at all, but anyway I stood up & took a small curtsy. I was red face with this sort of un-deserved attention.

“Hey, you told him about our dating, why?” I whispered to his ear.

“Yeah, otherwise his wife will come back with another round of blind date.”

“So embarrass, everybody was looking at me.”

Dinner was served after the closing remarks made by CO.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

I noticed I was only one wearing gloves for my & surrounding tables, so to blend with the rest I took it off & kept inside the handbag. Soon dinner was served with the first dish shark fin soup, my favorite. Not to smudge my lip gross, I passed my share to Kong. Kong was fortunate to have double serving for most dishes; well it was the sacrifice I took to preserve the master piece of beauty work. Kong was equally considerate, he sliced meat & fish balls into tiny pieces so that I was able to take them in without touching the lips. What a loving couple was as seemed by others from the same table.

“Wow, your husband is very attentive, cutting food into small pieces.”

“Oh, he did this ‘cause I have ulcer.” I was quick coming out a fictitious excuse.

“Hi, forget to introduce myself, I am Lillian, and you are …….”

“Jennifer. It’s nice to meet you. Sitting next is your husband?” I showed my hand & shook hers.

“Yes, he is a lawyer & company commander in the reservist. Heard that your husband is the battalion second-in-command?”

“Yes, he is the 2IC, but we are not married yet.”

“Oh, so sorry, he seemed to be a good catch, don’t let go him, okay.” I enjoyed such girl to girl talk; there was no suspicion from her on my true identity, which definitely enhanced my confidence.

During the eight courses dinner, there were performance by the Music & Drama Company, and dance demonstration by the kids of the regular officers. The cutely kids danced beautifully & earned thunderious applause from the floor.

“Hello, ladies & Gentlemen, while enjoying the good food, we are having a series of games with fantastic prizes for your participation. First, let welcome tonight DJ, Moses Lim.” As announced by the master of ceremony.

True to his profession as comedian, the formal atmosphere was gradually loosened with his jokes & wits. There was one event I remember clearly, briefly as following:

“Ladies & gentlemen, we will be playing a table game, first, go form groups of 5 tables. After forming the group, appoint a group leader.” Kong was unanimously appointed as he was the most senior amongst the group.

“Now, please can I have your attention? When I announce the first item, the group leader must get the item & pass to my beautiful assistant in front. The last group will be eliminated. So listen carefully, there is no second chance.”

“Group leaders listen carefully, first item, a pair of lady…… earrings.”

“No, no, no, this is not acceptable, earrings & not ear studs.” The hall came lively with laughing & clapping as some group leaders ran back to get the right one.

“See, you get elimination if you don’t listen carefully, next item ………” the chubby Moses Lim indeed was a good entertainer in stirring up the merry making atmosphere.

“Okay, here come the last two groups, listen carefully & very important, not the leader but one lady from the group must come up to the stage wearing a pair of lady hand groves, long or short does not matter, start…..now.”

We were in the last two groups & everyone was looking around for groves, some even ran to those eliminated group asking for one.

“Hey, leader, I saw your wife wore groves just now, quick, ask her to go up.” A guy called out from the next table.

“Darling,” Kong paused, “plays the game & helps the group, okay?”

“Be hurry, there is another lady coming from the back.” Someone shouted.

Without much hesitation, I took out the groves from the handbag, put on & went up to the stage hurriedly.

“So we have a clear winner, let give her a round of applause.”

“Hey, young lady, what is your name?”

“I…. ” I hesitated to give him my name.

“No name?” There was laughter.

“Jennifer.”

“Oh, Jennifer ha. Ai-yo, why’s so shy? You had won for the group five bottles of champagnes.”

“Can we have your hubby up the stage to help bring down the prize?” Kong was hesitated to go up.

“Not hubby la, just boy friend only.” I murmured softly to his ear.

“Oh, boy friend, right, so who is the lucky guy?” He continued while Kong stood up showing his hand, “Hey you, better come up now, before I ask her to be my girl friend.” Kong went up to stage with claps & much laughter.

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[Guest guest]

sexy writing, more please.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

As we walked down the stage with Kong carrying the five bottles of champagne, DJ Moses Lim announced that the coming event would be Karaoke singing competition, “… ten participants … volunteer or nominate someone … no sabotage okay … act fast, first come first serve till ten names are collected. Meanwhile enjoy your meal & back in fifteen minutes time.”

On way back to our table, Kong handed the bottles to a waiter & briefed him on something. Very soon the uncorked champagnes came on a bucket full of ice were brought to the five tables & were served at the tables with fresh glasses.

Holding a glass, Kong stood up while someone from the same table tapped his glass with a spoon to call for attention.

“Ladies & gentlemen, for good health & a wonderful evening, please drink with me a toast to our winning, cheers.” Kong proposed.

“Cheers… Thank you, Major.”

“Wait; wait, what’s about Miss Jennifer?” Someone from the next table called out.

“Yeah, I agree. Without her gloves & participation, we can never win the game.”

"Good heavens, I never thought of that!" replied Kong.

"Don't apologize; just give her a kiss. All agree?”

“Yeah, kiss…. ” There were applauses & echoes amongst the crowd, “kiss… “

“Darling…. ” Kong put his arm around my waist & drew me closer.

“Hey, are you crazy? People are watching.” Hmm, I understood, the spirit of mischief had just seized him.

"Sorry, by popular request you know," he replied with smiling defiance, “we better do it fast before more people walk to our table.”

Red face, I stuck my neck as he planted a kiss on my cheek, there were cheers came from the crowd. Oh heck, I really didn’t like to be on the limelight, gosh!

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Kong excused himself & walked to the Gents. He took a longer time to return probably mingling with people on his way back, I felt bore & insecure sitting alone with these strangers, who knows what would happen someone might come forward & talk to me?

“Hey, why take so long?”

“I was caught up with CO on the way back, darling, we need to go to the VIP table, his wife wants to meet you.”

“What?” My eyes widened & panicked, I held my breath & my mind went blank, there was great fear upon me.

“Hey, relax..." Kong said worriedly, “don’t make them wait for too long, come, bring along your drink.”

“Hmm…." so holding the glass on my left & the other clinging on Kong arm tightly, we approached VIP table tentatively, there was this dread that my real identity would be uncovered, which made me tremble. Relax, steady, there is nothing to worry, I told myself.

"Kong. Thanks for coming over with this pretty young lady," Startled, I whirled around & spotted the face behind the familiar voice – CO Fong, apparently he just returning from the next table, “Hey, you must be Jennifer. I am Fong, commander of this camp.” He said as he shook my hand.

“It’s nice to meet you, Sir.” Knowing him as a scrupulous person, I told myself I ought to make eye contact with him, evading him could arouse his suspicion. Indeed, I was not only so changed in the course of hormone injection & so differently dressed, that it was not at all likely he could have known me unless I badly conducted myself. For this reason, I resolved to move away from him & stood closer to Kong, as to put myself out of his range of scrutiny.

“Let walk to meet my wife.”

Over at the VIP table, CO made the introduction, “This is my wife, Siok (?) Hwee (?) & she is Jennifer.”

Wearing no high heel to match CO height, the stately graced Mrs. Fong looked weak & frail, “Good evening, madam.” I kissed her cheeks & greeted her.

“I am glad to meet you; Jennifer.” said Mrs. Fong & she turned to Kong, “You did tell me she is the twin sister of …?”

“Oh, twin sister of lieutenant Koh.” Kong was quick to answer.

“Lieutenant Koh, that young officer you met during the last IPPT, remember?” CO spoke with soft & caring tones.

"Oh yes, that young & shy officer.”

“How, does Jennifer resemblance lieutenant Koh?”

“Yes, except that she is wearing spectacles, just like his good looking brother, she is beautiful," she admitted with a smile, “Your parents get to have good genes.” I dropped my eyes, my face turned red as heat rose up in my cheeks.

“How’s your brother?”

“He is fine, he is in Singapore U doing Engineering, ma’am”

“What’s about you?”

“Just graduated with accountancy from SU also, still hunting for job.” Looking down, I spoke weakly as I knew I was lying, I daren’t look at her as I didn’t want her to spot my uneasiness.

“Where do you stay?”

“I live in Joo Chiat area.” .

"You do?"

"Actually, is not far from Kong’s house." I nodded.

“Now isn't that a coincidence," She said with a smile. "I actually grew up there near Koon Seng Road. Our house now is in Tanjong Katong which is near to Joo Chiat, come with Kong & pays us a visit, okay?”

"Yes, I will, Madam." Letting my breath out in a sudden whoosh, I nodded, gesturing helplessly at Kong standing next to me.

Our conversation was cut short as the new dish was served. Smiling, CO Fong handed his wife her drink & said, “Cheers, everybody.” He saluted us casually with his wine glass, “Thanks for coming over. New dish is serving now, please carry on before it gets cold.”

“Thank you Sir.”

Taking a careful sip, I turned to Mrs. Fong, “See you around, madam.”

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[Guest GUEST]

PLEASE CONTINUE

[Larry]

PLEASE CONTINUE

Sorry I help up at my relative wake for the last week thus caused the delay.

Next to a Dee Dee who wrote to me recently, whichever way you want to address me as kor kor or jie jie, is fine with me. I hope you will like this segment.

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Returning from VIP table while starting to consume the next dish, a female aide walked to our table & whispered to Kong.

“What…” said Kong, “right, just let him know I will go over shortly.” Upon that the female aide returned to the stage.

“What’s happening, dear?” Squeezing his fingers I asked softly.

“Someone submitted my name for the Karaoke competition. DJ Moses Lim wants me to go & confirm my song choice.”

“You sing? Oh my god. He-he…”

“Hey, hey, hey, don’t laugh like that, okay. I am damn good; otherwise there won’t be this nomination.”

“Oh, really, we shall see. Anyway you better go see the DJ.”

Soon he came back & pulled a wryly face, “So how?” I asked.

“I’d confirm the song choice.”

“What’s the song title?” I asked curiously.

“Secret, be patient okay,” he paused for continuation, “Darling, can I have another beer? I need that before going on stage.”

“Ha, I thought you said that you are damn good.”

“Of course .., But there is bit of stage fright. I only sang in the mess lounge before, never in such big hall.”

So here it went as I asked the waiter to top up his beer. The Karaoke competition commenced, they were good & hopefully my Kong able to match them.

“Ladies & gentlemen, love songs are a romantic idea you want to impress your loved one. The next contestant Major X X Kong will sing - Can't Help Falling in Love with You originated by Elvis Presley. Let’s welcome him.”

Kong went up the stage, holding the mike & said, “I am singing this song to you, Jennifer.”

His words got the crowd pumped up as there were loud cheers & clapping, in front of hundreds of people, I was completely shocked & red faced while he started singing.

Note: Andrea Bocelli's version is used instead of Elvis's version as it is banned due to copyright.

Wise men say

only fools rush in

But I can't help falling in love with

you

Shall I stay

Would it be a sin

If I can't help falling in love with

you

Like a river flows

surely to the sea

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with

you

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Listening to the lyrics belting out by him, I went into deep thought……. Huh…. Would it be a sin, as we could not help falling in love with each other…..? Making love with each other…..? Oh god my lord, please help me……

The sound of the glass tapping jolted me back to reality. There, before my eyes, a long stem of red rose, with leaves of green and tiny yellow ribbon, “For you, darling.” said Kong.

"Huh.....?" Could this be true?

What’s happening? Why wasn’t he staying on stage? Who gave him the rose? When? …

I looked at the beautiful flower; I could see why girls liked flowers.

And when he placed the stem into my hands, I knew it was true.

Disregarded no public displays of affection in all military functions as taught by Amy, I stood up & kissed his left. I could see that the crowd went crazy with loud cheers & whistling.

“Hello contestant # 8 Major X X Kong, hurry, returns to stage & complete your song.” announced Moses Lim.

Shall I stay

Would it be a sin

If I can't help falling in love with

you

Like a river flows

surely to the sea

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with

you

For I can't help falling in love with

you

As it turned out, his singing was not as awful as I thought it would be, suited him well who didn’t have a particularly high singing vocal. Although he was not amongst the top three, he was a vision in his smart appearance, making him the desire of all women present.

Of course, the fact that Kong couldn't take his eyes off me throughout his singing, just made me felt wonderful for days to come.

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Edited September 19, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

“Ladies, ladies, listen, there is this best dress competition for the evening,” announced DJ Moses Lim, “the brigade & battalion commanders had short listed nine young beautiful ladies & the 10th is my choice.”

There was a fair bit of excitement on the floor but I listened nonchalantly. Instead clasping both my hands around Kong, I said, "Thank you." I held his eyes, hoping that he understood what I was trying to say.

“Thanks for what?”

“The song you had sung, I quite liked it.” I was grateful he had shown me a piece of his heart in front of the audience.

Our conversation was interrupted as Moses Lim made the announcement, “……… first, lady from table …, let give her round of applause.” The girl smiled & walked up the stage proudly.

“Second …………………..” “Third ……………..” “Fourth ........” “………….” “…………..” “………….” “……………” “………….” “And lastly, ladies & gentlemen, the lady of my choice is from? "

“She is from?” Moses was pointing the mike to invite answer, 17, 4, 8 …….etc was shouted here & there.

“She is from table # 6, the pink cheongsam lady from table # 6.” He spoke loudly over the microphone.

I was not listening to the announcements but rather enjoy assessing the walk each candidate going up to stage. All were amateurish, I thought, and I would beat them easily.

“Table # 6 the pink cheongsam lady will you come up.”

“Table # 6 the pink cheongsam lady will you come up.” Suddenly I noticed that there were eyes zooming on me, what? Me? Oh shit, shit, shit……. I was a bundle of nerves & felt like running out of the exit. I looked at Kong for help but look like I had no choice but to go up.

After what seemed like forever, I walked up to the stage applying the one-third rule taught by Amy, swinging my hip hopefully to appear elegant. Kong should be proud that his money was well spent. There were thunderous applauses when I went up.

My legs were shaking & felt a bit dizzy. I looked out into the audience, which now looked much smaller & the stage lights were almost blinding me. Moses Lim gave me the thumbs up as I proceeded to line up with the other nine participants.

Each girl was introduced & asked to do a catwalk across the stage & pose. Though most of the dresses were very nice, unfortunately many walked floppily & posed badly.

When came to my turn, I shut my eyes pretending to be in Amy’s deportment class, trying to keep poised & elegant ignoring the crowd’s reaction, and walked along the stage while waving my right palm. I could see camera flashes & heard applauses from the audience, which gave a bit more confidence.

Next came the question & answer session, many contestants struggled to understand the DJ’ questions, which covered a wide range of fashion related issues.

I did not really recall how I answered the question but only knew that the audience burst into laughter; whooping & yelling “Major X X Kong!!!”

I immediately realized that my answer was probably not the best & I looked over with embarrassment to the DJ, obviously having a hard time controlling his laughter.

Anyway I won a return air ticket to Phuket Island for two persons. It would be use for us during next year school vacation, I thought.

And once I had returned to my seat, Kong whispered to me “Me & my big tummy, suitable to be a chimpanzee, huh?”

“Ai-ya, sorry la, just anyhow answer what’s suit you for the fancy dress party.”

“Wait till tonight you will get to know the power of chimpanzee, big, strong &…., unfriendly. Whoo…. Whoo…. Whoo… ” He spoke with hands thumping his chest lightly.

“Naughty boy, people may be watching. Stop...” I was red face, pretending not to know what’s he meant, gosh, it was going to be a long night with much anticipation.

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[Guest guest]

wows, big, strong & unfriendly, well, awaiting for that.

[Guest Derrick]

Enjoy the reading very much... Eager to know what coming next... Good work

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Shortly after the meal & some games that we stayed as spectators, I had to go to the wash room, “Dear, can you escort me to the Ladies?”

Kong obliged & walked me to the wash room; it was located next to the officer mess & would be my first intrinsic visit as a lady, “Thanks. You don’t have to wait for me; I know the way back.”

It was not crowded & I went straight to the cubicle available. Tell you what, girls are girls; it was so much cleaner than the guy one. There was no inconsiderate pee on the seat. Regardless of what it was, I grabbed handful of toilet paper, wiped the seat & tossed the paper onto the bowl.

It took me a while lifting up the cheongsam, pulling down the pantyhose & tight panties. Phew! Now I was ready. I sat down & mentally prepare for my first public urination when I heard the door open & a few girls walked in.

“Hey, found any nice cute guy?” I heard people came in & were talking outside at the wash basin.

“Ai-yo, mostly come in pair, how to know they are couple or not, although some may come with own sister.”

“Susan, how do you find about the girl accompanying 2IC?” Oh yeah, the three musketeers, probably doing powdering out there & were now talking about me.

“Oh, that cheongsam girl, there is nothing special la... so, so only.” She answered in an annoyed fashion.

“Alamak, soured grape, I think she is pretty.”

“Hey, I heard that she is twin sister of Lt. Larry Koh, remember that previous young QM?”

“Of course, that’s handsome good-looking young officer that ROD sometime last year.”

“No wonder 2IC was so closed to him, trying to tackle his sister.”

“First I thought 2IC & Larry were gay couple, came to camp & went home together.”

“You crazy……. How could 2IC be a gay, he is so macho?”

“Yeah, 2IC is macho, but Larry looked damn sissy.”

“That right, Larry has nice complexion & slender body, with little make-up, can pass off easily as a girl.”

“Ai-ya, you people are too imaginative. Our macho 2IC can never go after a man.”

“One thing you all notice or not, this Jennifer has small backside.” While eavesdropping on their conversation, they started to make fun of me.

“What so big deal about small backside?”

“Small backside is not easy to get birth, ma. Like that also don’t. Know.” They’re giggly loudly ignoring the occupied cubicles.

“Hey, no more nonsense here, we better get going before people start looking for us.” Yeah, there were the female aides attending to the brigade & battalion commanders.

I almost piped up when they commented on my small backside; anyhow I contemplated sitting silently until they left.

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I felt more like Cinderella after the ball when the coach turned back into a pumpkin as I went back to my seat, my mind lingering on the remarks that I was not able to conceive baby for Kong, which would be my biggest regret.

At the same time, I felt a slow burn building up inside. “Damn it! Enough is enough; mind your own business, three of you."

“Darling, something bothering you?”

“Yeah, some bad comments when I was in the rest room.”

“Who are they?”

“Never mind. It’s okay. Let not spoil the evening.” I hold his hands fondly; he reciprocated by feeding me the orange juice with the straw. The more you three musketeers discrediting me the more I would make you all felt jealous.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Including us, tables where laid on the semi-circle vinyl tile on top of the original cement floor fronting the stage would be cleared for disco dancing, holding our glass, we moved to another table of our choice. Meantime DJ with his assistants busily arranged the disco lights & etc, while waiters & waitresses replaced the soiled table cloths with new ones, completed with portable candle lights.

Front section hall lights were off & the globe disco light was turned on. Upon spinning of loud disco music, strobe lights & repeated callings from the DJ, the dance floor was fill-up fast & was real packed.

Sitting quietly hand holding hand & watching on the sideline, I was waiting for the right moment to go down as to demonstrate those dance steps learnt from Amy.

With the thinning of crowd & playing of cha-cha music, Kong looked at me, “How?”

“Sure, let’s go.” I held Kong hand & went down to the floor; I knew people would be watching.

It was a modern cha-cha & needed bigger space for style showing. Forwards, backwards, side step to the left, side step to the right, forwards with turning, backwards with turning, scissor hand crossing, wow, we enjoyed the envies as there were not many couples able to match us with so many fanciful variation.

He was smiling, I was smiling, and he naughtily patted my buttock as I swung towards him. I saw the three musketeers watching at the edge of the dance floor; ha… let them envied all the way to the heaven.

Later, while other women looked on enviously as he led me expertly around the dance floor, ignoring all attempts by the other men to cut in, Kong had eyes only for me.

Mightbe just for tonight, I Jennifer could pretend I was a swan... a swan... a swan...

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Edited September 22, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

I looked up sharply & saw a familiar figure on the dance floor; it was CO & his wife. Believing that he probably had observed me all this while, he readily nodded his head & smiled.

"Dear," Taken aback by his glaring, I said desperately, tugging Kong arm, "can we have a rest?"

Not waiting for Kong reply, I hold his hand & dragged my legs towards the side of the dance floor. Excusing past people, we made it to our table & took a deep sip to calm my nerve as my eyes surveyed the couples on the dance floor, they were still there.

Then came was the slow waltz segment, crowd was much lesser & we stayed watching.

“Kong, may I have the honour to dance with this beautiful lady?”

“Yes Sir, please, it is our honour.” Kong stood up while replying to CO request.

“Ah, Jennifer,” I was red faced, the worst had come finally, “may I have this honour?”

Infuriating, he was without doubt the last person I wanted to interact for the evening; instinctively I felt worry, frighten & insecure that he had hidden agenda. I forced a smile on my face & said, “Sir, I am not familiar with the slow steps.”

“Don’t worry, it is simple. I saw that you are doing so well in cha-cha & rock & roll, so you have the talent.” CO raised his hand with a bow, my goodness, there was no way to run. I put on the gloves & took his hand & went to the dance floor.

CO gave me a friendly wink, smiled & smoothly led me away on the dance floor. His gaze made me felt awkward.

“Girl steps oppose guys, when I go forwards; you move backward, when I use my left foot, you use your right, okay?” His left hand was holding my right hand as his right hand placed on my small as my left hand rested on his shoulder, “Come, let’s start, one two three, two two three…. ” we started swinging around the dance floor. Gosh, that long missed unique odour came so close & I was drowning.

"You know... your dress brings out the blue in your eyes." he said softly in my ear. His arms tightened just so around my waist, making me felt so vulnerable.

I kept mum, letting his comment hang in the air, hoping he would soon get bored & walked away from me & send me back.

Hearing no response from me, he continued, "Did I ever tell you how breathtakingly gorgeous you looked tonight?" As we danced, I knew he was looking straight into me as I avoided eye contact fearing that he might recognise me.

I looked sideways & replied, "Not at all, sir." making my voice as bored as possible.

Out of sudden of nowhere in the middle of the dance, he said, “Hey, you know this sunny boy that I missed him ……………”

“Hmm… the photo & your kiss on the cheek.”

“Ah, you had seen it!”

“Seen what?”

“The photo. Yeah, the photo that just mentioned. Can I say is you, Larry?”

I looked up, eyes widely opened & making direct eye contact. Gone, His question sent a chill down my spine; it caught me off-guard. It was a cheap shot, a throw-away line, but it lodged there anyway.

”I ……………,” my head went blank & miss-stepped his foot, “sorry… ” I closed my eyes miserably & groaned inwardly, I was an idiot, I could spend time with big sister Ling at East Coast Park, but instead, I was stuck here in the middle of a dance floor.

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

Stiffened at this revelation, my heart was beating & speechless, there was a cold silence before he broke the deadlock, "Jennifer… so you’re Larry actually."

“Sir… forgives us.”

"That’s okay, Jennifer, really. You don't have to fear. Shih… I wouldn’t hurt you, honestly,” he paused for continuation, “secret between us, not for my wife too.”

“Sir, I am shy to face you.” I inwardly closed my eyes & begged for it to end. Please don’t get worse, please… I inhaled sharply. I wanted to cry in despair. I suddenly found myself pinned against the wall.

“Don’t say this, there is no crime. I will do everything in my ability to help you," he said with determination, his eyes burning into mine, "you're . . . you're not like other girls."

Wide eyed, I looked up at him, "What?" I asked slowly, unsure if I heard correctly.

"Really," he said, his voice curt, "I'm not lying,"

I struggled to stay composed. "That you..."

“Are you happy with Kong?”

“Yes, I love him,” I muttered slowly, trying to hide my hot blush as I looked down, looking up, I saw him staring at me intensely, "it's just inevitable."

"I can sense the love you share with Kong. Really, I’m glad to hear this. Go for it & fulfill your dream…. You see, I’m just a failure…"

“Sir…?”

“Yeah, thirty years…. A long lost friend….” he sighed as he murmured.

“Sir, are you okay?”

“Never mind, call me if you do need my help. Tell you honestly, I have this special liking on you for long long while.”

“Oh, thank you Sir, I am so touch.” I let him help on my body tightly, oh gosh, that wonderful odour struck & flooded me.

As music stop, CO sent me back to Kong & said, “Take good care of her. Remember to invite me on your wedding day, understand?”

“Yes Sir.”

He kissed my cheek lightly before walking away, "You're breathtakingly gorgeous." His voice was sweet, sincere & genuine.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 27: The Last Waltz

I sipped my champagne & sat quietly beside Kong, watching blankly the very few swirling couples on the dance floor, as something seemed to be preoccupying me at the moment…. the lingering sense of guilt on my cross-dressing known to the commander…. his drowning body odour…. his failure (????)…. his long lost friend (???)……

"Amazing, isn't it?"

"What's that?" I asked as I faced towards Kong.

"These women come with long evening dresses."

"And what’s about me? Do I look indecent?"

“Well, though short but sexy & appropriate.” He spoke as his fingers slipped under the hemline covered by the table cloth, I let his lingered for a moment & the heat of his palm seeped into me.

I looked over my shoulder at him & saw him smile, "Che-ko-pak."

As we flirted with each other, DJ Moses Lim made the announcement, “Ladies & gentlemen, while waiting for grand draw of the top three prizes, we have three more nice music for those loving couples, this is last chance for the evening, please come to the dance floor.”

We sat there, silent for a while as the floor light was slowly dimmed further down & music played away in the background. I looked around & found no one on the floor, after psyching myself for a while; I finally picked up the courage, leaned over & dragged Kong down to the dance floor.

I put my head on his shoulder & we danced through the songs. Meanwhile few more couples came to join us, & yes, one of them was the CO & his wife. I exchanged glimpsed with him & he smiled in return.

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I wondered should I go or should I stay,

The band had only one more song to play.

And then I saw you out the corner of my eye,

A little girl, alone & so shy.

I had the last waltz with you,

Two lonely people together.

I fell in love with you;

The last waltz should last forever.

But the love we had was going strong,

Through the good & bad we get along,

And then the flame of love died in your eye,

My heart was broke in two when you said goodbye.

I had the last waltz with you ……

It’s all over now, nothing left to say,

Just my tears & the orchestra playing,

La la la la la la la la la,

La la la la la la la la la.

“One more time, ladies & gentlemen, kiss your love one if you want,” said DJ Moses Lim as he sang along.

I had the last waltz with you,

Two lonely people together.

It was a beautiful song by Engel Bert Humperdinck. My hands were around Kong neck & his hands were around my small, we kissed fondly in the dance floor…. Whoever were watching, I couldn’t care less, what I wanted were kiss, kiss & more kisses.

I fell in love with you….

The last waltz should last forever.

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Edited September 26, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 28: The Longest Night

“Is still early, 11.30 before midnight. Are you hungry?” he asked as we travelled home towards Katong after the dinner & dance.

“Why, you’re hungry already?” I acted innocent.

“Erm…”

“Ai-yo, fatty, you got my entire share & you’re still not full?”

“Uh… You know… the night is still young…” He was sizing me up, I knew what he wants, & I knew what I want too.

“So?” I was pretending.

“Do you want to do that?”

“Do what?”

“Alamak, you know one la…”

“What?” I pretended.

“Make love…”

“Don’t want.”

“Why?”

“I’m scared.”

“Why?”

“Erm…, you & your big, strong but unfriendly.”

“Alamak, darling, I was kidding. I’ll be nice & caring, okay?”

He stopped the car abruptly along Tanjong Katong road; I puzzled for the sudden stop while he went to the booth & took out a polo-T. Ah ha, this guy was well planned, back inside the car; he replaced his military top with the polo T, what a wily fox.

"So...are we still on for tonight?" Kong's hot breath tickled my ear. I nodded, melting into him & raising my chin, so he could kiss my neck just below & behind my ear. The rough feel of his five o'clock shadow against my delicate skin caused me to suddenly shiver.

“I don’t know. You call the shot la.”

"Good. I can hardly wait for the dessert." His raspy whisper shot a bolt of electricity through me in anticipation.

It was a history replay, just liked the night we celebrated his grandma birthday, we checked into Sea View Hotel.

Heading towards the lift & walking passed the coffee house, I said, “Dear, I’m hungry.”

“Oh, sure, you ate very little early on.”

"What do I get to eat?"

"What’s about sandwiches?"

Sitting side by side in the coffee house, he turned off the loop of my arm & moved his caress to the small of my back. I took a sip, keeping my eyes on him, I asked, "You’re not eating?"

“No, I'm not hungry. I’m waiting to eat you, so apetising.” he said. Moving his glass away, he turned & brushed the tip of his tongue over my bottom lip. I blushed and glanced towards the crowded dance floor performed by a live band.

I brushed his hand, with a tilt of my head; I stood up & said, “I’m ready.”

My heels clicked on the tile, I heard his footsteps in determined pursuit. I smiled and turned. He ran into me, fully on purpose, and kissed my lips without preamble.

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A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 28: The Longest Night

As soon as the seventh floor button was pressed & the lift door clicked shut behind us, he was on me. I felt the wall against my back; his hands went immediately under the slits of my cheongsam smoothing my buttock as his tongue swirled across mine.

He unbuttoned the side slits & snaked his hands further up. I hitched up my skirt to give him room & immediately felt his leg & his hard on insinuate between my thighs. He cupped my buttock & drew me forward, we were kissing; ignoring the lift door opened & closed at seventh floor & went further up to top floor.

The lift went back down & stayed open at ground floor, we were still kissing; fortunately it was already 1 am in the morning, anyway the lady receptionist saw & grinned from afar.

I broke the kiss, licking his upper lip & smiled, "Hey, people are watching. Go to the room."

“Dear, will you carry me to the room?” I asked as the door opened at seventh floor.

Entered the room, he kicked close the door with his heel & placed me hastily on the bed. He was on fire, I was on fire, we were on fire.

Squatting & grinning, he lifted up my cheongsam & brushed my crotch with his fingers, “Wows, red colour, really.” All he did was to smell the smooth red panties below the stocking.

I groaned & closed shut my eyes.

He was hyperactive, just two weeks not seeing each other; he was now a hungry wolf. Climbing up to the bed, he turned my face towards him, softly he tongued me from the neck, shoulder to below my ear, sending tingles & pulses up & down my spine, in no time I was breathing heavily, "Oh, God, I love that," I gasped.

Climbing down, he unzipped his trouser, I went up to him & pulled his polo T upwards, with hands raising up., I took it off & swung to the arm chair. He was now semi nude left with underwear & an obvious hard on.

I turned around letting him unbuttoned & unzipped my cheongsam. Dropping to the floor, I ducked out from beneath my dress & stood before him.

We kissed, as our hands roaming each other's bodies lazily. He bit my bottom lip, pulled it & released it while his hands were busy searching behind & unhooking my brassiere. Forcefully he pulled down my stocking halfway; his hands slid across my panties, pushed it out of the way, found his way inside & began to caress my buttock. I liked that, yeah, I liked that a lot. Moaning softly, I opened my mouth as my tongue began to do a passionate dancing with his. We were getting hotter by the second.

Playfully tweaking my not so pink nipples, my wewe got excited but was painfully confined under the stocking & tight panties. “Hmm…. Arh… Arh….” I moaned out loud as he began to lick & suck on my hypersensitive nipples.

“Pain…. Pain…. Don’t bite, just lick, okay.”

He was such a monster stimulating my nipples with his slimy tongue as my nipples became hard & stood up right, “Nice... Hmm …… Nice… Hmm ………”

“What hmm, say yes?”

“Yes, yes & yes.” My wewe oozed out pre-cum, while he worked on my nipples. Moving downwards, he had me stripped down to nothings. My little wewe sprang out of its confinement once the panties was lowered, it was wet & dripping.

Without resistance, he kissed the curve of my wewe & suddenly he took my wewe onto his mouth & sucked contentedly, “Hmm… nice lollipop.”

I gasped & my legs trembled, pushing his head away, I cried out, “Stop, stop, I don’t want to come so soon.”

I grabbed his head & help it into my tummy. Mama Mia …….. I loved that feeling, to be naked, it make me feel vulnerable & wanting. I looked over at him & could see that he was rubbing his crotch.

“Dear, take out your underwear.”

“Sure. Let’s take this to the bed.”

Gently laid me on the bed, sword against sword, he continued to kiss & caress me throughout. He sure knew what he was doing.

He got the hint as I removed the pearl ear studs, as his sucking on my ear lobes sending me up to next level of heaven. Oh, Jesus, it was so good with his close facial contact & sweet whispers “I loved you” in my ear.

“I love you, love you, love you too” I hastily replied to him.

Soon he found my rosebud & gently caressed it. With KY jelly his finger entered me; I gasped, bit my bottom lip & began to move on his finger, rising & falling, guiding his strokes to where I needed it, I didn't care how wanton it seemed, I just wanted his fingers inside, I felt stabs of pleasure coursing through my body.

“Oh… oh… hmm…” Grabbing handfuls of his hair, I moaned low in my throat as he brought me to higher & higher levels of ecstasy.

“Darling, you want to suck me?”

Obliging, I licked & sucked his big tool for a while. To my amazement it got even bigger!

“Hmm… enter me...” I moaned. I needed to taste it for sure, but I really wanted to feel it deep inside me.

Face to face, he placed a pillow below my buttock. Two legs resting on his shoulder, kneeling, he got between my legs & slowly, but insistently pushed the whole thing inside me.

I closed my eyes; it felt so wonderful to feel this big tool filling me all the way up, deep inside of me.

“Oh, nice… nice…..” I cried out as I was thoroughly enjoying the ride I was getting. I wrapped my legs around his torso as he moved hard & deep, just continued to deeper & deeper.

He began to move harder and faster. He brought his hand down to my wewe & began to stroke me. Within minutes I began writhing in ecstasy & clawing at the pillow.

“Oh God,” I cried out, “I’m going to come!”

“Yeah,” he replied breathlessly, “so am I.” He began to thrust into me faster & faster, his finger playing a symphony on my wewe.

“Oh yes!” We cried out as we both came together.

Quick, get some sleep; needless to say, there would be second round and probably third round too. The rest I leave it to you for your wild imagination.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 29: Jennifer Grew Stronger

Caution: this installment is extremely feminine; please leave if it causes uneasiness.

Transitioning, I knew that this was probably the road I would end up on once Jennifer busted out of the closet, but liked most istersays in transition; I had similar concerns about study, future job, family & etc..... It was Kong’s commitment which I had acquired that he would marry me ultimately help me moving along this path.

My thoughts for hormones were for both mindset & appearance, to become a beautiful woman. Of course things would not be an overnight change but changes would be eminent once started.

I started seeing therapists that I wanted hormones, after the first guy doctor who I didn’t feel comfortable, I switched to a female doctor at Towner Road & my weekly visits continued ever since.

Yeah, on hormone jab, it was amazing to see me had it done under the needle. That’s right; I had this fear whenever a sharp & pointed needle was shown. I still remember I ran away from the queue for an unknown injection during recruit time, luckily not been found out probably the medics did not do the head counting or they didn’t expect to have such gu-niang behavior in the army.

That strictly no injection stood still for all other illness, high fever, flu & etc.

“You’re sure not wanting the injection?”

“Yes, doctor.”

“Hey, the jab will help to have a speedy recovery.”

“Never mind, I insist no injection.”

“Still like kids, so scare of needle.” Uttering a sigh, said the doctor.

No pain no gain - perhaps that was the want I got overriding that fear, but each time I had it done on my silky bun instead on the arm as desired, anyway my body would get tense up, I would bite my lip, close my eyes & turned my head away.

Besides the routine hormone jabs at the clinic, I found a cheap source of supply on the much required daily consumed hormone pills – premarin (estrogen based to supplement the jab), it is still located on the same building currently near to Merlin Plaza across the Johor causeway.

Notes on location:

The pill: Bloody red, 21 per plate, 1 daily, after 1 plate, stop for 7 days before on new plate.

The building: Abdul Razak Complex

The shop: Interfarm Pharmacy

Location: Last building next to open air car park & flyover leading to Singapore, 1st floor on left hand side by escalator.

Environment: istersay friendly.

Notes on Premarin:

Premarin is not recommended for people over 40 is that it only works when swallowed & as it's metabolized through the liver, it raises certain liver byproducts, one of which can possibly contribute to deep vein clotting & possible strokes. Medical studies show that this tendency increases with age. With the estrogen patch, the estrogen absorbs directly into blood stream, bypassing liver on entry, so it doesn't raise those liver byproducts. That's what makes the patch safer.

I felt no particular bodily change for the first three over months except mentally the satisfaction of having kick-started on the administration. It was about the fourth months, I started to notice problems.

First, I felt extremely uncomfortable when I went jogging, I felt something bounce on my flat chest, anyway I sought to use sport bra to overcome this issue.

Next was the sensitivity & physical change of my nipples. As I did not wear bra at all times, I felt itchiness on the nipples whenever rubbed against the clothing fabric. Sitting on the last row in the lecture theatre, frequently & discreetly, I put my fingers under my sleeve & tickled for relief. Also walking slightly humpbacked, so that less chances the physical contact between them, such was the method improvised.

There was also redness surrounding the bean tip of the nipples, so much so that it felt painful & tearful when my chest got hit by any object, such as hit by someone opening the door on the other side or accidentally elbowed by someone during the bus journeys, canteen breaks & etc, such things which posed no issue previously but were now required me to take extra precaution in my daily routine either at home, during the bus journeys or in the crowded campus. What a suffering experience.

I was greatly concerned on the redness shown as suspected on some sort of cancer, so on one of the visits during the weekly hormone jab, I shyly requested for a physical check. Well, it was a happy consequence, the redness showed that the female hormone was working on my body, causing the formation of so-called bloated “areola” (the pigmented area) around the nipples, in no time the nipples would also be enlarged & no longer as a bean size.

As explained by the female doctor, the fat tissue & milk glands would develop under the skin around the nipples, as my breasts developed, they might feel somewhat tender or sore when accidentally hit by something. For a genetic female, the breasts become fully develop around four years but as for my case, it was limited to the extent that implant would be required to meet the full size.

After about eight months, my breasts developed & became almost cone-shaped as the areola formed a secondary bump as the nipples sunk into the areola & would only stand out under sexual stimulation. On some nights in the midst of the sleep, I was awakened by the continuous pounding on the breast tissue, such was the kind of uneasiness but happy feeling that I went through.

For the most time I was still presenting as male in the campus though I looked quite femme with soft skin & long hairs. As for what I could see happening was, it would become more difficult as time went on to continue to stay in that male mode. I was twenty three years old & I didn't dream I'd have this kind of positive response in such a short time span that my breasts developed that I could no longer wear just a tee shirt when out in public without odd looks, ha-ha…..

Kong took notice & was excited on the physical aspect. Each time when we make love, he would lie on my laps & sucked tenderly on the nipples, sending me wave after wave of moaning. “Mummy, I am hungry, I want milk.” He was cheeky & naughty, just liked a kid.

To date, I still go for the jab – Unijab - once every two months in Tampines. I had stopped taking Premarin for the last 15 years, my breasts do not shrink & maintain as 36A+, where the visually small boobs refraining me from going for swimming.

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[Guest Ironrod]

Wow! Larry thanks for the story.

Your Kong is so perfect makes me feel guilty towards my "wife" ahaha

Thanks for providing the "female" side of the story which makes me understand my "wife" better.

[Guest enquiry]

Transitioning, I knew that this was probably the road I would end up on once Jennifer busted out of the closet, but liked most istersays in transition; I had similar concerns about study, future job, family & etc..... It was Kong’s commitment which I had acquired that he would marry me ultimately help me moving along this path.

Larry, what is istersays?

[Larry]

Your Kong is so perfect makes me feel guilty towards my "wife" ahaha

Thanks for providing the "female" side of the story which makes me understand my "wife" better.

You're sure Kong was so perfect? Wait till you read the next chapter.

[Larry]

Larry, what is istersays?

Oh, is a generic term used for people like us. We usually address each other as sister, but to keep low profile on our sexual identity, the character "s" is moved to the back & becomes ister+s.

There is additional "ay" added to the back, may be for easier speaking, thus istersay.

Hope my answer gives you a clear picture.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 29: Jennifer Grew Stronger

Taking female hormones, I forfeited many male characteristics in order to gain a few female features, beside significant body changes; there was change in behavior or lifestyle.

On Sunday, a rest day with no class, shopping or dating, just breakfast, church, lunch out, homework or watch Cantonese video shows & simple but nice dinning in.

Our dinner was always one of two things: fried sambal kamkong or fried balachan fishes. The two dishes I loved most for the deep frying & spices added, I would lick the chopsticks each time when it was served.

Came cooking time as Aunty Lily worked in the kitchen doing peranakan dishes for the three of us, herself, me & Ling, there was a peculiar shift in my focus as I would stop all things & walked to the kitchen too.

I would watch as she gave few slices on the fish body, blended curry powder, garlic, onion & etc into chili paste, filling up the slices with chili paste, poured & spread oil into the pan, waited for heating up before putting in the fishes one at a time, hearing the sizzling & smell the great aroma.

“Mummy, can I try?” With her permission, I help cut garlic, ginger & chili which would always make me ended with teary eyes. I lost memory on when I affectionately addressed Auntie Lily as mummy, well, it must be around that period.

“Yes, my dear. Why not?” she was always that kind lady never said no to me.

And when Aunty Lily taught me, it was just us between two females, our gossip time & her ranting at me about my mistakes, I loved it.

Aunty Lily wasn’t like Martin Yan, and never claimed to be. She was more the handyman type, little bit of this, little bit of that, no recipe, no pint measurement, and just gut feeling or guesstimation.

“Heat up the wok ….. Hold the frying-pan properly ……. Lower the flame …….. ” gradually I found myself able to prepare & cook simple dishes without too much supervision, no formal lessons; just osmosis, and the natural passing of wisdom from her to me, held my hand & showed me the way, with patience, guidance & love.

At a later stage, Auntie Lily was confident to let me prepare dinners upon my insistent, of course there were cuts & burns during these learning process.

Thanks, Aunty Lily, mom. I owe it all to you.

The interest in cookery extended also to simple needle works coached by Auntie Lily. I learnt in skills such as stitching a missing shirt button & tidy up the loose end of clothing using the sewing machine. Slowly bit by bit, I began to find myself more able to be in good understanding of homey details as a housewife.

So in a nutshell, I could now function effectively & efficiency taking good care of Kong on his sexual need, his tummy & his daily life. All these were not pre-planned but just happened naturally.

I got asked pretty often by big sister Ling how I reconciled these feminist beliefs with my relationship to Kong. My answer was I took great pleasure in pleasing Kong, and my interest in cooking wasn’t because I like food, but because I wanted to be able to tantalize my future hubby with my kitchen skills, same with sex.

I was not sure where I got this whole nurturing thing from, as I was not taught to be this way, might be because of the hormonal effect.

Greedily I wanted to learn tennis, squash, football & basketball too, partially because I enjoyed watching but felt frustration not knowing the rules… but also, because I had like to be the partner, girlfriend or wife who could watch the game with him.

How do you like to love? How do you enjoy dating? How do you want your sexual relationships work for you? Define it & find it.

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 29: Jennifer Grew Stronger

Personality wise, I became extremely erratic, suffering from terrible mood swings, my emotions oscillated easily around two seemingly opposite activities: laughing & crying, happiness & sadness or anger & contented.

My doctor told that the mood swings were brought on by the elevations of estrogen in my body creating great emotional imbalances. She told me to have regular exercise which would help reduce aggressive & unpredictable mood swings.

During group discussions in school, I smiled readily for pleasing remarks or on same opinions, but surprisingly I was able to tolerate & attempted to understand difference opinions. These had never happened before as I would argue all the ways till the cow come home. With this switch in personality I was unanimously appointed group facilitator which required patience & good interpersonal skill.

However my crying was a problem, my emotion could be easily provoked by watching a sad movie, reading a sad story or even learning tragic evening news.

One of the regular pass-time with Kong was to go for a show, and love stories would always be my preference. Each time I told myself there was no way it was going to get to me this time, but half way of the screening, saddened at the tormented life of the female lead, I found myself wiping my eyes with a tissue... I would burst into tears uncontrollably.

When the show ended; the light was turned on as everybody started streaming out of the theatre, “Wait, sit still. Let them go out first.” holding his arm I spoke, I needed time to compose my emotion.

“Ai-yo, silly girl, this kind of show can also make you cry.”

“Hello, I’m not like you, stony heart.”

I could never sit through without shedding a tear, I was sure I was not alone, I found myself getting very emotional watching this sad movie. I got taken in by it finding myself welling up & weeping. Was it because I had too much estrogen running through my body or could it be due to me just being too sentimental?

At home, when the teary moment happened half way of the TV soap opera, trying so hard but failed against my tear, I would walk away attempt to wash my tea mug or walked to washroom & wept my tear to escape detection by Auntie Lily or Ling.

But the most regretful & uncontrollable behavior was my constant feelings of jealousy & obsessions about Kong in the public places. Even though I know he would never be unfaithful. Yeah, he was handsome, so when he flashed that gorgeous smile at another woman, I got very jealous. It was all innocent, but it could turn un-innocent in a second.

“Hey, what are you watching?” I hated when he checked out other girls, especially those with big boobs, it made me feel as though he wished I looked like her with this gorgeous body. It make me jealous, I was jealous because of myself, being not a genetic female; I didn’t always have the self confidence I should have.

“Oh, that’s mannequin on display.”

“What’s mannequin? Don’t bluff okay. Why were you smiling to that girl just now?” Knowing well what he did but his usual dishonest reply of “oh that car…” or “that small kid…” just drove me up the wall….

“Who is the girl?”

“There, the one wearing red colour t shirt.”

“No lah, there are so many red t-shirts around, which one?”

“I saw that you are winking your eyes.” I became unreasonable.

“Aiyo, darling, I realize that you are getting very sensitive nowadays, what has happened?”

“I am not sensitive.” I shouted with eyes welling with tears.

“Okay, okay. I am sorry, I say the wrong word.” Such episodes repeated again & again. I knew Kong tolerated me & each time I begged for his forgiveness. Sigh ……… I was just so darn possessive!

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[Guest g2]

My doctor told that the mood swings were brought on by the elevations of estrogen in my body creating great emotional imbalances.

we are on the same boat, nothing to do with the so-called hormone. i love him so much, but each time we ended up quareling, as he enjoyed flirting with young men, old men, boys & even girls, ignoring our relationship & that really break my heart.

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 29: Jennifer Grew Stronger

Caution: this evening' installment is extremely feminine; please leave if it causes uneasiness.

There are 2 types of hormone in the pill, namely estrogen & progesterone, and there are various brands containing different levels of these two. I was prescribed Premarin which was a popular brand in the 70's & 80's, but not anymore as it was reported with many ill effects.

My blood pressure was checked during all clinical visits to decide the amount of jab & pill. Reason was plain simple, to prevent overdose. Beside wasting money, more severely are risks in liver / breast cancer, migraines, diabetes, sudden vision loss, gallbladder diseases & blood clots, therefore medical & blood pressure check are necessary.

After 8 months of hormone jab, my nipples got larger but becoming sensitive & itchy, slight hit might cause extreme pain. And on the 10th, I found the growth of new pairs of breast & changes on my body, which deemed responding well to the hormone prescribed, as told by the doctor.

The 10 months lapse supposedly gave me time to mentally prepare, somehow I still felt uneasy being seen in public with breasts as a male, so I wore baggy clothing & hoped to finish my four years course & go on full time soonest.

The changes on my body were first of all skin was fairer, acne free & smoother; arm & shoulder less accentuated as muscles & veins beneath the skin smoothed out, with increased buttock size & roundness brought me great satisfaction. Proudly parading in the public with short mini skirt & short sleeve & walking in a feminine way, moved me closer to the womanhood that I idolized.

Lastly body hairs were sparse as arm; leg & face shaving were no longer required except armpits. When I was enlisted in the army, with no morning shadow, I was frequently teased & scorn by my army mates. But might it was a gift, unlike fellow istersays, no huge sum of money spent on sticky waxing & painful electrolysis.

And yeah, shih…. there was a change in appearance on my public hairs too; it was not as bushy & disorganized but a soft & neatly defined triangle achieved by trimming on the edges, he-he…

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Edited October 18, 2010 by Larry

[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 29: Jennifer Grew Stronger

But the most dramatic change was on my we-we, one thing for sure, that it was getting smaller & smaller week by week. After eight months on hormone administration, it shrunk to baby size of about one inches length with no stimulation. Concurrently, my scrotum where the two testicles nested was now the size of Chinese siu mai dumpling.

When cross-dressed, I could push my we-we & scrotum onto my body and tape sealed, the area contour would simulate a girl virginal. Tight girdle which made me breathless was no longer required but instead the comfort with normal panties, and there was hardly a bulge under the tight skirt worn. It was a strange & interesting experience.

When making love with Kong, my we-we would still be excited to erection giving flows of pre-cum, but the erection had lost its stiffness & was rubbery.

“Darling, are you okay?” in one of the hot night with Kong at the secluded beach next to Changi Airport, he asked this question.

“Why?”

“You had little ejaculation.” yes, I could still come; but the ejaculated fluid was less mucous & with very much reduced intensity. The build-up to the orgasm remained unchanged but at the moment of climax, the gate was like getting choked & the discharge seemed to lack strength.

“Not to worry; it is a normal in taking the hormone.”

“Don’t you feel uncomfortable?”

“No, physical intimacy is much more important than ejaculation, that’s the difference between man & woman.” I was telling the lie, honestly I felt irritation due to the unsatisfying weak discharge, but for the sake of Kong, I bore with this irritation. I might consult the doctor the next visit, but each time I was too shy to ask the female doctor.

“Okay, if you said so. Remember sex is to have fun mutually.”

“Shih……, let do it ………………, gives me your best shot okay?” I just hoped that with his deeper penetration, this time would be difference.

“Yes, I will.”

Prolong drug administration would lead me to a road of no return, anyway I had decided on my sexual identity before doing this. Mentally I wanted to be a female disregarding my anatomical sex, but how long was I going to present myself in male form? I knew I would at some point end my male presence & enjoy my new life as female; do you think I could live as female?

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[Larry]

A. My First Love - Kong

Chapter 30: Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word

I could bear with the irritation during orgasm but I just could not control my jealousy on girls talking to Kong. I simply hated myself for such unreasonable & unsociable behavior, & I knew Kong had been exercising his tolerance dealing with my childish confrontations when came to this matter.

Later that hot night at East Coast next to Changi Airport, he told me this, “Darling, not able to meet next Saturday evening.”

“Are you on duty?”

“No, I need you to be calm before telling you the reason.”

“Yeah, I am cool & calm. So, just shot.”

“I was asked to attend a group meeting arranged by SDU.”

“Huh… SDU… what’s for?”

“SDU - officially stands for social development unit; whereas some termed it as single, desperate & ugly, a government match making agency formed in last year (note: 1984).”

“You means ……….” my mind went blank, “Dear, can you explain it clearer?”

“There were campaigns initiated by the government agencies throughout all these years, such as Speak Good English & Clean Toilet… ”

“And then?”

“Err… the… the government started this SDU to address big number of unmarried graduates & declining birth rate, objective is to match make all single university graduates, hopefully they can settle down with marriages.”

I was absolutely speechless & kind of offended. I meant why the government would want to meddle in our personal affairs?

“Darling, are you still okay?”

“So you are going to attend & meet this desperate & ugly female u. grad.?” I asked as I raised my voice, he had been dating me for almost 3 years & was he serious about me?

"Darling, this is an order, arranged by the defense ministry & is compulsory for all civil servants. But please be rest assure, I will just present myself & show my face, that all.”

“But …………..” Call me inferiority complex, but it kind of bothering me.

“There is no but, darling. You should know me, you are the one & only that I am attracted to, regardless whether you are able to conceive or not. I can lie like having guard duty not telling the real reason, but I chose to tell you honestly.”

“Hmm…….” snuggling under his broad shoulder, I prayed for the best.

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