Forbidden Attractions - Larry's Life Story

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 4: Could I Feel Love Again

“Hello, small sister.” On Friday evening my best friend Ling came over to my house after finishing her 5-day work week.

“Hey, big sister…”

“Come… let’s cycle to East Coast.”

“Going out?” I answered, not really in the mood to go out. I had not been out from home recently & I understood her good intention. I was not sure going to the beach would help anyway but couldn’t reject her by making up excuses. I didn’t really know what I needed. I was lost.

I cried every day since Kong's death, and I thought it was getting worse, not better. But not for my dad, it was bad or unfilial to say, that I felt no pain at all when he died.

I know what kind of ‘help’ I needed, feeling isolated as no one could understand the impact on me… when alone it was a lot worse… too much time to think hazily.

“Yeah, I am hungry, let’s go for super.”

Gathering up my wind breaker, we cycled to East Coast Park, our usual place nearby the hawker centre, a distance of three to four miles from home. Pulling up our bikes under the tree, we walked towards the breakwater.

There were dogs & people running down the beach. Bye joy, hello pain, I muttered to myself.

“Hi, see the two little puppies,” she giggled, 'so cute…”

In spite of my gloom, I laughed too & walked on.

“Jen,” she said, “do you want to take out your sandals?”

“What is it?”

“Oh, I just like the feel of sand & water.”

That sounds good; I thought & slipped off my sandals. Hand holding hand, the soft sand glided by & the seashore awaited us. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I needed.

She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach but I responded un-enthusiastically.

“Why are you smiling?” I asked.

“I don’t know, you say.”

“You’d strike 4D?' I asked sarcastically.

“Nonsense, I don’t buy 4D.”

“Then let’s just walk.”

“Look, if you don’t mind…” looking at me, she paused for continuation, “you shut everything & everybody out of your life, why?”

Tears welled up in my eyes; I turned to her & shouted, “Because he is no longer around.”

There was a momentarily silence between us while we stood still on the water, but pretty soon she looked straight into my eyes & exclaimed, “Why are you shouting?”

I had known her for 16 over years & we are closer than maternal sisters, we lived close to each other on the same road with only four other houses in-between. Now I felt our friendship had been hurt by my screaming, a slap in her face, I took Ling in my arms. “Sis, sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…” I muttered over & over, and wept openly.

“Shih… shih… don’t cry, Jen, we should talk. I know how bad you’re feeling,” she pointed towards a wooden bench, “over there.”

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“Jen, death calls us all, how long you prolong it is your choice.”

“I am very sad… I don’t know how to cope with this… I try to sleep it over… try to think that he wanted me to live on… But I can’t do it… I just can’t… what’s the point of living when I don’t have him to share with… now I just locked myself in my room desperately struggling not to kill myself…”

“Oh,” she said quietly, “then this is bad.”

"Yes." I said.

“I am so sorry you are still hurting, not knowing how to help you, I can only let you know that as friend I care about you & want to help you to work through this.”

I said,

“…can’t control my emotions… sleeping pill… no desire to live… just a shell… no ambition, no dreams or aspirations… couldn’t sleep well, no appetite, no passion for anything… slept to escape because in my dreams, he was still alive… I want to cry myself to sleep & never wake up… I wake up with anxiety in middle of the night. I cried whenever something reminded me of him… I am so incredibly lonely, he was my world, and we did everything together… I’ve never been lonely before like this & it is awful…

… he was truly the love of my life, first real boyfriend, my soul mate, my first & my last… for the last 5 years since we had been together… I gave my all for him in those 5 years… He was just 35 & everything went well, his career, his life… and we are to get married next year after my operation & to have children, but… I never expected this to happen… I’d never been in love before…

… You said get out & meet people, pray to God… all don’t seem to work, I just want him back, or I want to go be with him… I can’t get myself to do anything… I’m feeling it hard to pray. I don’t feel that my prayers are getting any further than the inside of my grieving heart…”

She said,

“… taking your own life is not the answer… please don’t hurt yourself, believe me, he would never want you to harm yourself. He loved you & wants you to continue living, for him…

… Small sister, I never realized that your heart could hurt so much… I have a suggestion… plan a trip, take a weekend somewhere with friends… don’t turn to sleeping pills, please… go for a weekend hiking trip, run a 1/2 marathon, travel to a city you’ve never been to before & treat yourself to a fabulous dinner… keep yourself going & be kind to yourself… also, remember: you are loved…

… Everybody grieves differently & some take longer than others… Gods grace will help you to get through. Prayer helps… the pain is great, but you must go on… time will heal a little. Have faith & courage… cry when you need to… you have me around, I shall try my best & so should you… if that helps… you need to take time to grieve… you too should try… no promises, just day by day…”

I was glad we met that evening & we chatted a lot, I thought she is a very special person, a caring person as well, And that my dear sweet sister - is reason enough to live.

Let’s took baby steps & moved on, I promised her.

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Edited May 19, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 4: Could I Feel Love Again

Things returned back to normal. Trying hard to forget him, I kept myself busy by resuming giving tuition four times a week while sending out resumes & waiting to be called up for job interviews.

One week later, I moved in to live with Ling upon her request. Just liked the good old time, I would help up in the kitchen preparing dinner under Aunty Lily supervision.

Sharing the same bed with Ling, as usual she would hug me as though I was her bolster, but somehow there was certain degree of extra ordinary intimacy demonstrated by her.

“Hey, sleeping beauty.” Half awaken half asleep, she whispered softly to my ear.

“Hmm…” I murmured as I snuggled beneath her warm body, I just loved it, feeling safe & secure & there was a tingle of sisterhood floating in the air.

“Eee… don’t disturb…” I pushed her hand away feeling awkward as her fingers fondled my nipple.

“How… nice or not?”

"Sis, so weird… I’m not used to this…" I replied shyly.

"It’s okay, sweetie," she said, forcing herself to appear composed.

“You’re not mad…”

"Shih… don’t be silly sweetheart."

Very soon, I entered onto the dreamland.

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“Please… please… please… get out of the track please!” I was begging & crying.

“Tutu …..Tutu …….” I head loud hounding sound at the back from an incoming train.

I stopped the car & ran to the passenger side, “Dear, let get out of the car, quick.” There was no response, I opened the door & gave out my strength to pull him out but he was way too heavy.

“Please, don’t sleep. The train is coming from behind, please …. I beg, please ………….”

“Kong …… Kong ……..” I screamed as the flashing lights & blaring sound of honking train approached us.

Everything faded to black. I grabbed an arm, "Run," I said, "run!"

“Hey, hey, hey, I’m here,” said Ling, who was sleeping beside me, “poor girl, bad dream again?”

"Sis… the train comes after us!" sobbing & curling up in the fetal position, I was horrified, feeling awful & woke up teary-eyed, the same bad dream came haunting me once again.

As soon as I rolled over, she wrapped her arms around & hugged me, "Jen honey, there's no train here. It was only a dream. Let’s me get something to clean your tears."

She got to her feet & came back with a wet towel. Pressing the towel gently against my face, she sighed, “Poor girl.”

"But I heard the train hooking behind us… I tried to drag him out & he was so heavy… I was suffocating…" I said bursting into tears.

She pulled me into her arms & I clung to her like she was my lifesaver. Stroking my hair to calm me down, eventually, the sobs subsided but the trembling remained.

"Okay, let’s sleep." She said pulling the blanket over me. She held me tightly & started singing lullabies to me.

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Edited May 19, 2011 by Larry

[Gunnymaddy]

Larry, your story entitled "Forbidden Attractions" has altered and broaden my perception of cross-dressers and true love. I am now more receptive of them even though I am not sexually attracted to women.

I feel the various emotions raging through my body as I read it non-stop from the beginning to the part where Ling cooed you back to sleep after you were traumatized by the oncoming train nightmare. The rich narrative fired up my imagination, stirred my emotions and made me root for many people especially you and Kong. Now, my heart aches from solitude more than ever. Nonetheless, "Forbidden Attractions" has inspired and re-energised me to continue yearning and searching for my true love.

Do continue writing when you can. Your ardent readers (including me) are waiting for the next installment. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. Ignore those haters and avoid responding to their insensitive comments, for their hearts are frozen and their eyes are clouded from prejudice.

If you are comfortable, I would like to chat with you via email. Meanwhile, check out this beautiful love song by country superstar Reba McEntire entitled "

". It gave me hope, and I wish the same for you too.

Take care sir, and peace be with you, always.

[Larry]

I would like to chat with you via email.

Sure, please write to me anytime.

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 4: Could I Feel Love Again

Came Friday, Aunty Lily off for a weekend trip to Malacca organized by the community centre. Leaving the house just for the two of us, I volunteered to do the cooking during this period.

Off from tuition giving, I did the grocery shopping. I had made a little list after going through the refrigerator & kitchen cabinets. There were also some ingredients I needed for the new recipe I wanted to try.

Ling returned home at around 730 pm while I was busy preparing the spaghetti meal in the kitchen, “Woman, what’re you cooking?” She kissed me warmly on my cheek & patted affectionately on my buttock.

"Aaaa… stop molesting me…" I protested, feeling embarrassed & blushed over the affectionate caress, “go, go, go, go get change.”

During dinner, we had wine as suggested by her, I listened with interest as Ling talked about the politicking going on in her office as I had never worked in an office.

"You’re going to get me tipsy."

"That’s okay dear. You look cute when you’re tipsy." She spoke as she winked at me; it seemed perfectly ordinary she did that.

Understanding that a seduction of some sort was taking place, we laughed together & I covered my confusion with a smile.

After dinner, we took turn to have shower at the one & only bathroom. As usual I went first followed by her.

Marching out from the bathroom, I came dressed in white running shorts & an oversized t-shirt.

Seated on the sofa, I flipped over the Strait Times awaiting her to watch television program together. Fresh from the shower, Ling joined me sitting on the sofa in a pair of pink silk panties beneath the green sleeping gown.

"How do I look?"

"You look great, so sexy… really…"

“Really…” She seemed happy & gave me a little peck on the cheek, “hey, please switch on the TV.”

Clicking past with the remote control, we didn’t pause to show interest on sport events, but instead the love-hate soap opera that we enjoyed on Channel 8. Meanwhile, my feet were in her lap & she was happily giving me foot massage.

Sharing a bowl of popcorn, we were speechless while watching how the bad guy had the extra marital affair. At one point, I looked up, perplexed & troubled, and said, "Sis, why are guys such jerks sometimes?"

"I don’t know sweetie," she said, "they’re just very inconsiderate. They don’t understand how sensitive a girl can be."

From a guy to a lady, the changes in her appearance were awesome, but what really excited me was she distanced herself from guy gender & identity & adopting a girl’s point of view. "Yeah," I replied, “today my student Steven didn’t show up for tuition & he didn’t even call home to inform."

"Oh honey, I’m sorry." She put her arm around my shoulders. I snuggled in cozily & absorbed totally in the show.

She placed her hand on my lap & stroked my fingers lovingly, pointed nails against pointed nails, the feeling was nice but strange, so unfamiliar. Gradually she went under my shorts & fingered my we-we through my panties… gosh, just liked Kong did… I wriggled a bit but otherwise pretty much let her did whatever she wanted with me… gosh, could this be love, could I feel love again…

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

We were going to Pulau Ubin; the trip was a last minute decision. There were days unused for a chalet left vacant by her colleague due to something unforeseeable & Ling asked me to go.

“So are you going or not?” She asked.

“I…” Spurred on by inner voice the need for friendship, sisterhood & relaxation, I wanted to agree but hesitated. Uppermost in my mind, the uneasiness on close proximity was lying just beneath the surface.

“What’s in your mind, I’m not going to eat you up?”

“I just think that…” I became subdued & paused for continuation, “is not right for us to have that sort of intimacies, go look for a real man…”

“How do you know that I didn’t have one?”

“Oh, really, then what’d happen?”

“That jerk broke of with me, he told he wanted someone that able bear him baby.” She spoke with anguish & agony as tears welled up in her eyes.

“Who is that guy, do I know him?”

“Desmond.”

“Desmond… you mean one of the three musketeers that used to join us for lunch in Prince Edward Campus?”

Overwhelmed with sorrow, my usually jocular big sister paused for a good ten seconds to compose, “Yes, six years of courtship & he just walked away from my life…”

“Sorry, sis… I didn’t know about this.”

“Yeah, you paid no attention to others, in your mind; there were only you & your boyfriend all this while.”

“So sorry… it must be very hurtful.”

“Yes, indeed, but unlike you committing suicide.”

“Sis… please, please don’t rub salt on my wound… why so secretive about this?”

“I don’t want you to get the idea that I’m using you as substitution.”

“But what can two women do?”

“I don’t see any wrong with this; we can be a lesbian couple, right?”

“But…”

“You have nothing to loose, you’re not virgin & so am I. We would never get pregnant… so let’s try… giving it a shoot, okay.”

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We could not go together to take over the chalet from her colleague as I had tuition class in the morning. Anyway it was an easy 15-minute trip by bumboat from Changi Point Jetty.

Coming out from the island jetty, I rented a mountain bike from one of the bicycle rental shops. Passed by a basketball court, a beautiful deep-blue quarry ringed with granite cliffs, a temple & some mildly strenuous uphill cycling, I arrived at the chalets, a row of colourful stilted kampong houses.

It was easy to find; Ling's directions were clear & accurate. Standing alone from each other, there were wild orchards & sand dunes in-between the chalets. I parked the bike, removed my bag & began the walk up a flight of stairs to the front door, about 5 feet off the ground.

Ling answered my knock. Her long hair was tousled from the wind, and she was wearing t-shirt & shorts showing off her voluptuous body.

“Sis…” I was overwhelmed. Before I could say anything, I was swept into a long, strong hug.

I didn't remember what we said, I was too nervous to take mental notes. And so began the period so-called "facial shock." For the next few hours before dinner, we tiptoed visually around each other. Our eyes flickered on each other's faces & then off again quickly.

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[Gunnymaddy]

Could Larry/Jennifer fall in love again?

Yes, certainly!

Honey, just keep on lookin', 'cause maybe who you're lookin' for is...

Somebody in the next car

Somebody on the morning train

Somebody in the coffee shop

That you walk right by everyday

Somebody that you look at

But never really see

Somewhere out there, is somebody

[Gunnymaddy]

A dedication for Jennifer and Kong, our star-crossed lovers.

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

That night after dinner, a simple instant noodle meal with luncheon meat, we got nothing to do as there was no television available; we went out to the beach for a walk.

Slinging a mini ice box, Ling packed bottles of chilled vodka rum from the fridge as I took along a ground sheet. Walking through the dark dunes, passed-by a group of Boy Scout having their campfire, the night sky seemed cold & dark, with a sprinkling of stars.

The moon was straight overhead. We walked silently, two lonely souls, Ling were going through lovesick problem & me on widowhood. I felt a bond of twin ship between us.

I laid the ground sheet on the beach & we sat down. I looked out towards the ocean & felt the peace & calm, with the moon's molten silver on water surface. Toying my long hair, I felt the joy bubbling up inside me as I listened to the waves lapping softly against the shore.

We were sitting close to each other in the dark as she attempted to create the air of camaraderie, “Hmm… so quiet.” Her embodied voice floated to me, familiar & soothing.

Ling rummaged through her shorts & pulled out an opener. Removing the cap, she held out a bottle of vodka rum to me.

I took the bottle as Ling opened a second bottle for herself, she looked at me & lifted her vodka rum, "Cheers," she said with a smile, holding out her bottle.

“Thanks,” I smiled & clinked bottle of the neck against hers.

"Cheers, little sweetheart," she responded & took a long swig.

And as we took a long sip, I couldn't help but marvel at this little piece of paradise, just the music of the ocean, my heart beat & her breath around me.

Lying on my back & burrowed my feet into the sun-warmed sand, I looked up. The moon called to me, enticing me to dance upon the sandy shore, bathing me with its silver-white glow.

Hey! Was that Scorpius the scorpion or Orion the hunter? I could never tell which was which, failed to connect these stars into constellation, much like the tricky "connect the dots" astronomy lessons conducted by my scout leaders. It didn't matter anyway, they were all beautiful & I wished I could feel them.

Reveling in the feel of my body bathing in moonlight, I raised my hands to the sky. I closed my eyes, breasts heaving as I took deep breaths of the crisp ocean air.

She chose this moment to ask me an embarrassing question. "Small sister," her soft, rich voice floated to my ears, "game to give our relationship a shot?"

Back on my butt, I looked at her, startled & exhaled slowly. Taking a sip of vodka rum, I realized that I was cornered. Even though we had gotten so close over the years, this was a big deal & I had no idea how it was going to work out. Nervously, I took another long gulp.

"You could say something," prompted with desperation, her voice strained.

Ling sighed as she took a long sip of her own, "It is okay if you say no…" she said & sounded so resigned.

"Big sister," I interrupted, my heart beating fast. I am game, I can do it, I am game, I thought, eyes trained on my fingers which picking at the label on my bottle.

Taking a swallow of vodka rum, my breath coming fast & shallow, "Sis," I began again, "I…" I turned away, frowning, wondering why it got so difficult to say this out.

"Ling," gulping for air to calm my nerve, I steeled my courage & turned to face her, "I... let’s give it a shot."

"Oh," Ling replied & was silent for a moment, "Jen," asked cautiously, "I… You're really serious about this?"

Taking another long swig of my drink to compose myself before nodding, "Umm…" voice hoarse & fingers absently rubbing the condensation on my bottle, I said, "yeah, yes."

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

I sat still, I held my breath & waited, since young I’d never been an initiator but her follower instead. She made some noise on the ground sheet & moved lithely towards me.

She extended her hand to me, I took it silently. Her hand was cool but I didn't pull away. “Come, turn your body & face me.”

She said next, "I want to touch you."

She moved her body, straddling my laps & breasts against breasts; her face was close to me that our noses were almost touching. Her hand touched my hair at the hairline, sstroking my hairs away from my face & cupped my face, it felt like velvet on my skin & her breath drifted warmly over my face.

I stayed mute. This was such a strange feeling; scents of her Christine Dior romancing my Versace, what the hell was going on with me? So feminine, so unfamiliar, so girl… I didn't care... I wanted her with a hunger I'd never felt before, allowing that feeling to linger through my mind, breathing in her scent as she getting up close & personal.

A smile slowly playing across her lips & I closed my eyes, I felt her hot lips touched my cheek, I felt electric currents running down my spine from the cheek, the touch was making me lose my breath, what was I thinking? Who cared? I wanted HER.

When her lips touched the top of my head, I began to throb hard between my legs. I let out a shaky breath & felt my body tremble with excitement.

She felt it too & asked, "Are you okay? I can stop this if you’re not comfortable."

"I'm okay, I'm just get so excited by your kisses," I replied.

"Please carry on…" I groaned softly.

Bringing her hands down curving around my back, she kissed my forehead, then to my closed eyes. Onto the tip of my nose, crossed my jaw down to my neck & ending her kiss to find my awaiting hungry lips.

So bizarre… so strangely… a tiny shudder stole through me as she slid her sensuously skin against my fiery skin, something was missing… what was that... huh, too smooth, too silky… that right, no rubbing of nudged beard, that mind numbing nudging each time when he kissed me, on my nipples & crotch in particular… from irritation at the beginning as I nagged at him frequently, “Ai-yo, so itchy, why you never shave?” till eventual acquaintance…

I opened my eyes to find a slow smile crept up on her pretty face as she closed her eyes too… it took my breath away, I sat motionless; two women kissing on the beach, gosh… I didn't care, bathing in her smile, my breathing ragged… I wanted her; I knew I wanted her, my body wanted her & my mind just went with the flow.

So gently, so sweetly, we stroked each other back simultaneously while we explored each other's mouths, no words, no sounds as our tongues danced with each other.

Her free hands began to roam my body & when her hands went under my sleeves to reach my bra straps, I frozen up ecstatically.

Yes, yes, yes, go on, go on, unhook my bra, unhook it… I hungered for more. I saw nothing but HER, felt nothing but her touch, her caresses, I wanted nothing but HER.

She broke the kiss slowly, ending with a nibbling on my lower lip, and she said, "Let go back to the house, I want to taste you."

I trembled, felt so elated that this was happening, was this a fantasy?

Leaving everything behind, we walked back to the chalet hurriedly.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

We were comfortable with each other, holding hands intimately along the way, perhaps because of the vodka we consumed on the beach, nevertheless, the bond was complete & I thought she was one of the most amazing people I had ever met.

Lightening & thunder filled the sky, the entire area was quiet; it was late in the night & the campfire was over. At bottom of the chalet, we raised a flight of stairs to the front door slowly.

Nervously almost, I took those steps upwards, knowing that there would be no turning back. After tonight, our lives, relationship & feelings about each other would change. I gladly took those steps, wanting her so much, wanting to experience true feminine lovemaking with my best friend, my dearest big sister. I thought she was not looking back either.

When we entered the house, we paused awkwardly for a moment. I asked her to switch off the ceiling light as I walked to on the bed lamp.

“Come here,” leaning against the door, she held out her arms & I walked into them.

I ran my fingers through her dark hair & breathed in her scent of Christine Dior lingering in the air… I loved that scent… Don't ask me why… Intoxicating, hypnotizing & mesmerizing… Gosh… lusting after my childhood friend... I didn't care. Immorality… The thought dissipated as soon as I nuzzled up my head against the hollow between her neck & breasts. Yeah... that was what had happened… I lost my senses, but I didn't care.

Stirred by being near her, a special & wonderful friend whose face enticingly just above mine, I screamed out to my brain, "Kiss her, kiss her, and kiss her!"

She chose this moment & asked me an embarrassing question, "How was the kissing at the beach?" she whispered softly to my ear.

"Very aroused, I was enthralled." I replied shakily.

“Here, this is for you,” she spoke as she handed me a necklace with some unknown flowers & seashells, “I did it in the morning.”

I smiled & took it, hugging it to my chest gently, inhaled the fragrant of the flowers mixed with the scent of the ocean. Yeah, this was one chalet stay I would never forget. Just I & she, and I smiled....

She smiled & dimples deepened as she lowered her face & placed a teasing kiss upon my lips. I didn't move. We began kissing again, reveling in the feel of her lips on mine, the way her tongue flicked in & out of my slightly open mouth. I closed my eyes & let the sensation of her lips devoured & took over my whole being.

She slipped her hand down to my shorts, pulling down the zipper & fingering my we-we through my panties. I wriggled initially but relented & let her continued. I responded to her caresses by getting wet on my panties.

“Wows, woman, so wet,” she exclaimed as she looked down at me.

I watched her, a lubricious smile played across her lips, I smiled shyly back, “E… dirty, don’t touch.”

The dimples deepened on each cheek as her grin opened up into a soft laugh. She offered her hand & led me towards the bed.

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Edited June 4, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

Sitting on the middle of the bed, I turned around & fumbled for the walkman on the side table, I needed songs to calm my nerve. She wiggled from behind, found my waist, pulled me closer & undressed me, first my t-shirt, shorts, bra & lastly my panties, the strength of her pulling make me gasp against her bouncing chest.

“Wows, sexy… and this naughty little brother…” Sweet words emerged; she whispered on my beautiful body, small breasts & soft skin, equally erotic just liked what I had experienced with him.

I lay on the bed & watched Ling as she undressed, pulling off her t-shirt & removed her bra, I saw two little buns; her nipples grew pointed by the second. Naked, she climbed on top of me, playfully her pointed nipples rubbed against my erect nipples, sending ripples of excitement through both of us, “Nice?” she asked.

“Hmm… don’t stop.” I replied as I lifted my head slightly to catch a glimpse of her, the delicious reactions crossing her mesmerized face.

Later she shifted so that we were lying side by side, propping her face above mine, still smiling down at me, her hands caressed me all over, Opened myself to her completely, I closed my eyes while my body reacted to her touch that began from my toes, to every corner of my being, setting them on fire. Allowing her to use my body as a canvas to paint her lustful desires, I was in total Lust with my dearest big sister.

I breathed in heavily when her hands reached for my breasts. I reciprocated & fondled hers, so soft & plump, and her breathing was equally heavy, with her half closed eyes, she pled for mercy, "Lick my nipples, please."

Waiting, she breathed heavy with unreleased passion & lust. I obliged, sitting up & reached for her breasts, stroking my thumb across before lowered my head, licking, teasing & nipping her nipples slowly & deliberately. Her gasps & sluttish humming… soft & rapid… synchronized with the love song came from the walkman.

Holding her face cherishingly, I wrapped my arms around her neck & went down for a long, deep, invasion of lips & tongues. My hands traveled from grasping her long hair, to caressing her face, neck, shoulders, arms, buttocks, everywhere I could reach.

Her hands reached between my legs, inching down to my little we-we, touched & rubbed while her fingertips lightly stroking the foreskin over & over again. I froze up losing myself in the sensation her fingers left on my foreskin & buried my face between those beautiful breasts.

Hungered for her, just liked she hungered for me, we lost ourselves in touches, caresses & kisses, with our hands, lips & tongues, perhaps till our lust were sated & satisfied. I didn't care. I wanted only HER, I didn't care.

Unable to hold back any longer, with bated breath I insistently pressed & rubbed my tummy against her shaft, I wanted her to take me, to fill me, to make me hers.

“Let’s do 69,” she whispered something softly in my ear, I didn't understand what it was.

She turned around, I gasped & her shaft was now strained towards my face. Her hand stroked my we-we, smooth rhythmical & deliberately teasing.

“Suck me…stroke me…” she whispered earnestly.

I decided that an orgasm would be good for both of us. I ran my hand slowly up & down her shaft & saw her body trembling.

I brought my other hand to my own breast and fondled it. With my leg wrapped around her shoulder, I licked my finger to have some impromptu lubrication & slid in & out of my glory hole, pulling it deeper inside me, fantasized about being with HIM, trying to mold my finger into his manhood, although I knew that never actually could.

Clutching my buttocks, she increased the tempo of her hand, I moaned softly, my finger pressing hard against my rosebud, driving me insane with more passion, more lust.

"Here let me finish for you." I thought as I increased the tempo too.

Our breathing began to escalate as our stroking got more forceful, sending both of us into frenzy; I could see her buttock quivering, while I arched my back with pleasure.

Her clutching on my buttocks tightened & her back arched a little & I knew her time had come. She cried out in ecstasy as my climax coincided with hers, hitting that ecstatic crescendo together, suddenly & explosively, wave after wave of her warmth fluids flooded my hand, gosh, it was real!

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It took several minutes for me to calm down; my blood was still pounding with the aftermath of my sexual release. I could feel the sticky juices between us & I wanted to go clean myself but could not as she cradled my legs in her arms.

“Sis, is this love?” listening to the song came from the walkman, I asked. I told myself that I had finally found happiness in the arms of a woman, my best friend, so natural & so right.

“Sis…”

No response from her. I drifted off to sleep.

I should have known better

Than to let you go alone

It's times like these

I can't make it on my own

Wasted days, and sleepless nights

An' I can't wait to see you again

I find I spend my rime

Waiting on your call

How can I tell you, babe

My back's against the wall

I need you by my side

To tell me it's alright

Cos I don't think I can take anymore

Is this love that I'm feeling

Is this the love that I've been searching for

Is this love or am I dreaming

This must be love

Cos it's really go a hold on me

A hold on me

I can't stop the feeling

I've been this way before

But, with you I've found the key

To open any door

I can feel my love for you

Growing stronger day by day

An' I can't wait too see you again

So I can hold you in my arms

Is this love that I'm feeling

Is this the love that I've been searching for

Is this love or am I dreaming

This must be love

Cos it's really got a hold on me

A hold on me

Is this love that I'm feeling

Is this the love that I've been searching for

Is this love or am I dreaming

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loM99T_XEyk

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Edited June 13, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 5: Pulau Ubin Trip

The next morning Ling was awake before me. When I woke up, she had changed her sleeping position from face to legs to face to face, snuggling up against me, her arm draped over my abdomen & her noise touched against mine.

My arm curled around her back, I could feel her bare skin & felt embarrass but determined not to let it show. She was looking into my face, wearing a contented grin, "Morning sweet heart," she said brightly, "you got a nice sleep?"

“Hmm…” I replied with a smile, feeling the warm of holding her, filling a void in my heart & pushing back the loneliness.

She sat up & ran her fingers gingerly through my tousled hair, "You were so sweet last night."

“Yeah, so you say… pinched until my buttock so painful… I think maybe got blue-black.”

"Oh…" she said, blushing, "I’m sorry."

"Don’t be silly."

Giving me a quick, sisterly kiss on the lips, she climbed out of the bed, naked. Holding a comb, she stood preening herself in front of the mirror, totally at ease with her nudity.

I lay in bed while she chattered about to go out for breakfast & to collect the stuff left on the beach last night. Bouncing around naked, her narrow waist, small breasts, pointed pink nipples, round & firm rear end, smooth & tanned legs proportioned to her body, she really did have a priceless body. Given time she would have one of those bodies that men going to ogle, when the hormone fully pumped up her body.

Not comfortable wearing nothing, I didn't dare get out of bed, my sense of modesty kept me firmly under the blanket, though desperately wanting to get into the shower & clean myself up.

"What are you waiting?" she said, turning & putting her hands on her hips, apparently she was comfortable being naked in front of me.

"Oh… okay…" I said, swallowing my remaining awkwardness, I lifted the blanket.

Down to the floor, she took me in her arms & pulled me to her, kissed me deeply & moved my head so that it was resting on her lovely breast.

“Sis, I just wonder how people will look at us when we hold hand?”

“Relax, I don’t see with girls holding hands, is common, right?”

“Ah-ha…”

“Guys don’t hold hands in the public, maybe except the Indians.”

We hugged each other for a while before going for a shower together, looking forwards a new day… I knew that it wasn’t the end, just a beginning…

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Edited June 13, 2011 by Larry

[Guest guest]

sexy n sensual, i like this story

[Larry]

Sorry for the delay, I took a holiday in particular on my annual pilgrimage. Please check it out reported under Travellers Hut.

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 7: What’s a night

It had been almost a month since we went steady, I allowed myself indulged in the fun of love making.

Friday, Ling called me up from her work place in the morning asking if I wanted to go out disco in the evening. She said that she was getting mad with her colleagues & needed some stress release. I agreed & told her I would love to go out, I too had slipped into a state of depression where I went for a few interviews but with no positive outcome.

We had a long history of having fun time on Saturday evening when out to East Coast Lagoon Hawker Centre. As she started cross-dressing 7x24, we would compete against each other to see who got the most approaches from the hot guys at the hawker centre & who dressed the hottest, such were the silly little games between us the two closed confidants & Kong was kept in the dark on this.

I returned home (Aunty Lily’s house) from giving tuition at 5:30, had an instant noodle meal & got change for a night at Zuok. Undressed, showered & put on the clothes selected for the night, I looked into the mirror & thought how sexy I was in the black mini tube dress, with matching bra, panties & skin toned stocking beneath.

Glancing once more at my image in the mirror, thinking to myself that I would be passable, I let out a little but cautious smile. I grabbed my purse & headed to the bus stop.

I arrived at Zuok at 8 & Ling was waiting at the door. She looked good, presentable, in blouse & jean, typically a girl ‘Friday. The night was still young, the hall was thinly scattered here & there & we found a small table near the dance floor easily.

I ordered us drink of Bacardi Coke. The light pipe music was conducive for a chit-chat while she spoke about the office politics, silly work procedures & her go-by-the-book superior, liked a typical working girl would about her work. I nodded, playing with her manicured fingers while listening.

Throughout the course of our conversation we received little notes from the waitress on inviting us to join some men but we brushed them off & continued our girl talk.

As the live band taking over the pipe music, the hall was getting real packed, gays, lesbians, cross dressers, transsexuals, straights & etc, all kinds with diverse sexual identities . A cute guy approached us & asked us to join his table, I looked at Ling & we accepted. Taking along our drinks, we joined his all guy friends in a booth where we struck up conversation.

The conversation was un-interesting, NS boys from a boy school. Eventually one asked me to dance which I accepted. As we were dancing he kept trying to get physical & I quickly grew bored with his clumsy antics.

I glanced over at Ling & she looked just bored, starring at us blankly. It was our understanding that one of us would stay back to ensure no sabotaging on our drinks, a lesson taught by Kong. I excused myself from Mr. Touchy & headed back.

“Sorry, our friend is waiting at the drink stall.” I came up with some lame excuse & we walked away with our drinks. As our original had been taken up by someone else, we ended up at the standing booth after a failing attempt to grab for a seat.

The evening was turning into a wait & see as all offers we received did not appeal to either of us.

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What is a 'drag queen'?

A drag queen is someone who is dressing like a woman, not because it turns them on, but as a fun character & a form of entertainment.

What is a transsexual?

A male becomes a woman medically, socially & legally 24-7.

What is a crossdresser?

A heterosexual man turned on by dressing up as a female.

What is the big spectacle of drag queens?

Crossing the taboo of gender boundaries, a successful drag queen can look much like a woman just using makeup, wigs & costumes. They too know how to keep an audience fascinated, interested, witty & entertaining.

Gay audiences love drag queens with more of a ‘they're one of our own' kind of thing. They're showing straight people that we don't have to play by their rules.

[Larry]

Sorry for the delay, just came back from Beijing & finished up the reporting on my pilgrimage 2011.

Oh yes, I almost forget, here’s a song that I enjoyed, a beautiful song, titled Walk In A Dreamy Road.

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 7: What’s a night

Excusing myself I grabbed my purse & walked down the hallway to the ladies, we could not go together as one of us had to look after our drinks. Pushed open the door, a handful of girls gathered around the wash-basins paying no attention to me despite my heels clicking loudly on the marble floor. Further down to the cubicles, there were queues to every cubical, damn troublesome as ladies… Wasn't going to let burst my bladder, I joined the queue patiently with head bowing downwards, there was no problem actually, but I just felt a little uncomforting to queue alone.

I exited the ladies & on the way to reunite with Ling, no one paid much attention to me except one fellow, who was alone. He seemed very interested; smiled & waved at me, might be looking for a date, “Hi, sweetie.”

I smiled back with no intention to walk over but returned to Ling.

I didn't know if the friendly bartender had us figured out or not, as he smiled & looked at us frequently, for what it's worth, when I ordered a glass of water, the bartender called me "Sweetie"!

One lady came over & asked us to join her & her friend saying they were tired of the men hitting on them & felt that it might be safer in a larger group. I was about to decline when Ling said "Sure."

There two beautiful women, Jenny & Ester, and young, too. So after introductions, we chatted to get acquainted, talking about our lives & jobs.

Jenny was more talkative on her clubbing & about getting guy interruption, etc. Then she told that she hated most was people talking behind her back about lady boy.

I was stunned, Ling was stunned, how could it be, they’re lady boys? There was a momentary pause in our conversation.

"Well I'm a cross dresser, so as Ester," Jenny pushed her hair out of her eyes, "or transvestite depending on whom you're talking to." she spoke calmly.

"Both of you are lady boys also, right?" Ester added.

We were completely dumbfounded while Ester & Jenny laughed uproariously. It was the second time my real sexual identity being figured out; the first was at the casino in Genting.

Ling looked suddenly uncomfortable, her lip curled as she looked at them up & down. She then looked at me anxiously, "Jen…"

"Oh…" I asked after a few seconds of hesitation, "You two look so convincing." Many of us were concerned with passing, as much as I would like to pass as a genuine girl, I knew I won't always & today's encounter told me as much. I ought to know why I didn’t pass.

"Don’t worry; we are here to have fun. Anyway, accept your own self like we do." said Jenny.

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Edited August 3, 2011 by Larry

[Guest guest]

please continue, absence for too long

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 7: What’s a night

This was the 2nd time I'd been fooled, struck by the way they dressed. Liked ordinary office working girls you might run into on the streets, they dressed demurely, lightweight pullover with semi low cut in front, showing off ample amount of cleavage, along with skirt that wasn't obscenely too short.

Jenny ordered a round of wine & proposed a toast, "Here's to sisterhood, and here to Ling & Jennifer.” It helped to put everyone at ease, and it wasn't long before the cordial conversation returned.

Ester & Jenny are like me & Ling, cross dressers, but both not interested in sex-reassignment surgery. I was not sure about Ling, but for me, I actively prepared for this when Kong was still around, but right now I was not sure…

Both actually worked as a woman for a long time, and I could see why they passed very well. In addition to their passable looks, they knew how to act, walk & talk like a woman.

Their breasts looked so natural, and Ling agreed she'd found to be as well, I couldn't help keep glancing on their cleavages during conversation. Jenny noticed that & teased me to have a peek at her full breasts.

“Oh… sorry, they look so natural.” I was embarrassed upon her naughty invitation.

“Well, not exactly natural, there is silicon implant to get to this size.”

“Silicon implant…”

“That right, hormone can only help to grow your breasts to some extent, beyond that you need to have silicon implant.”

Ester chipped in with some valuable remarks, such as, don’t overdo… a common mistake by most sista thinking that big is attractive… never know that it is cumbersome… attract unnecessary attention… select the breast size with respect to your body frame… & etc.

Our conversation was wide ranging & enlightening, sharing unreservedly on social etiquette, personal grooming, hormone, implant & even voice therapy. Jenny was fun & interesting to talk to, telling us about some amusing situations she had been in while cross dressing. Her voice hadn't hinted at any sort of deeper than normal as a woman nor high pitched falsetto, from a man trying to sound like woman, which inspired me to go for the voice therapy eventually.

Chatting away amiably, we found something in common, my relationship with Ling so as the love-affair between Ester & Jenny. Unabashed, Jenny touched on the taboo subject of using dildo in love making…

The need to use the toilet quickly became the consensus for all of us. As the place was crowded, we knew we needed someone to guard our table while we took turns peeing. Jenny & Ester sat on sofa ends, so they excused themselves first.

"Interesting character aren't they?" I stated, having thoroughly enjoyed the conversation.

"Yeah…" Ling replied with her eyes at me, "I am thinking to ask them where to get the dildo?"

"Are you sure you want to ask?" I asked still having difficulty believing it.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 7: What’s a night

After easing our bladders, Ling & I returned to the booth. The place was pretty well packed but was still early waiting for the resident DJ to kick start the disco hour. I sat back enjoying the carefree atmosphere & laughter from the populace that came here for a beer or good stiff drink at the end of this work week.

Jenny asked for a pack of poker cards from the waiter. Taking turns to be banker, we played blackjack with betting of ten cents. It really was clean fun & non invasive.

"Mind if I join you girls?" Later on one guy came over to our group & asked if he could join us.

“Handsome, give us one good reason that allow you to join us?” asked Jenny.

“Oh… see my friends over there; they bet I don’t have the gut to ask this question.” He replied while pointed to a table where his all guy friends sheepishly waving from afar.

“What’s the question?”

“They wanted to know if you girls think I'm cute.”

We were amused & laughed uncontrollable hearing his question. 'Cute… my foot, maybe not, gut… yeah, probably.' I thought.

“Of course you’re cute.” Ester stood up & planted a kiss on his cheek, “come… bring your drink over.”

We didn't mind it at all; he came with his drink over & sat on the sofa stool. He brought along a bottle of wine for the group which was nice, and spent about 20 minutes talking to us; playing the game before returning to his awaiting all guy group triumphantly. Surely he got lot of things to trumpet.

As busy as the place was, it was at that particular moment a rather attractive woman stood nearby our table looking around for a place to sit. Jenny stood up, told us her intention to invite the ‘girl’ to join us before walking over to her.

So we had a new ‘girl’ (name forgotten) joining us. Could be her first outing en femme, she was a little nervous but nicely dressed & very passable, with shoulder length dark hair, long natural eyelashes & sensual looking lips. I talked with her several times over the evening, she was very soft spoken, I observed carefully, trying to discover any traits I had miss, but aside from the hardly noticeable Adam's apple, there simply weren't any I could find.

It was great meeting her, and gosh, never in my life I realized that there could be more PLU out there, in particular at places like Zuok… I hope to meet up more, got their contacts that I would not have to go out cross dressed alone.

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Edited August 4, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 7: What’s a night

The DJ came on stage at around 11. After some minutes, Jenny was frustrated that no one was dancing, struck by strong desire to dance she went down with Ester who asked us to follow suit but I remained static as I wasn’t particular thrilled by the idea.

I love to dance, all kinds, and like to watch people dancing too. Both Jenny & Ester caught the men’s fancy, getting all kinds of attention, on their lovely swinging bodies along with charming & silky steps. It was fascinating to watch, the bolder ones jostled around the dance floor clapping & gaggling & the not so bold ones gave glances of appreciation.

Feeling self-conscious, I was mentally unprepared for this kind of scene, but Jenny waving at us urging to join them.

“Jenn, are you ready?” asked Ling whilst the new girl looked at me earnestly.

Seeming to be the best solution, I gulped down a mouth full of wine. I stood & with Ling, we dragged the new girl up. Before long us the trio was on the dance floor.

The dense fog & swinging light did magic in calming down my nerve as not to worry so much about looking out of space, but the sound was deafening near the speakers. And before long, all of us were separated & mingled with guys coming down to the dance floor, switching & changing partners many times throughout the dance.

I was off in every direction, I caught Ling’s eye every now & then, and then I was swept in another direction. The music was loud, active & fast paced. I looked for her, wanted to dance with her together, but the chaos of these energetic young guys preventing me from doing so.

The guys danced with me were friendly, I wasn’t sure if they had us figured out or not. For what was worth, one told me, "Sweetie, you dance well.”

There was no much time to sit down when we returned to the booth for a sip, just some guys came over & invited any one of us to dance. Most of whom I danced with actually did find reasonably attractive. Several of which were flirtatious & at times even funny as they tried wooing me into their booth… for that I politely declined.

The luxury of space dancing freely was quickly dissipated; the floor was now cramped with people, assortment of office workers, tourists, boys & girls mingled on the dance floor, vying for space.

It was busy Friday night & we had a good chance to mingle with some patrons. The sweetiest thing of the night was when a guy came & told us we looked lovely, it was nice boosting ones ego, best was no negative reactions on us, seemed okay with us being there or even enjoyed having us there. It would be nice if everyone was this open to girls like us, seeing us as no different as them.

The tempo slowed, the swinging lights dimmed & the rowdy crowd faded away leaving behind a few couples. We excused our respective guy partner & returned to our table.

Meanwhile, my favorite Longer by Dan Fogelberg came on… Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean… I glanced at Ling & held up my arm… so as Jenny & Ester, we were all at the dance floor… stronger than any mountain cathedral… we found ourselves in each other's arms, after a night of distance disco dancing, pressing bodies up close breasts against breasts.

She held my waist & breathed on my neck, “Hey, you’re very attractive…” whisperedd to my ear showing off her affection.

There is such comfort & warmth there, our feet barely move as we melt together, such was the dance of intimacy… sweet intimacy…

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean

Higher than any bird ever flew

Longer than there've been stars up in the heavens

I've been in love with you.

Stronger than any mountain cathedral

Truer than any tree ever grew

Deeper than any forest primeval

I am in love with you.

I'll bring fire in the winters

You'll send showers in the springs

We'll fly through the falls and summers

With love on our wings.

Through the years as the fire starts to mellow

Burning lines in the book of our lives

Though the binding cracks and the pages start to yellow

I'll be in love with you.

I'll be in love with you.

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean

Higher than any bird ever flew

Longer than there've been stars up in the heavens

I've been in love with you

I am in love with you…

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We called it a night around midnight. Jenny offered to drive us home. The new girl declined & took a taxi instead, I hoped she enjoyed the evening & appreciated our company, she was so secretive… hopefully she would more open-up the next time if we ever meet.

I overheard the conversation during the journey between Jenny & Ester, "That girl, what’s a weirdo, huh?" said Ester.

"Maybe her first outing, so give her times to have more confidence…" hearing Jenny’s reply, I agreed whole-heartedly, I had a wonderful time en femme at Zuok & I couldn't thank Jenny enough for making it happen. I couldn’t think of a better way to spend a Friday night & close out a week than with Ling.

"Thanks for the ride," Ling said formally while stepping out of the car, "Hope to see you soon!"

"Yeah, any time. We should hang out more." Jenny repled as & looking at us from the window half wounded down.

“Sure. Goodnight & is nice to meet you.” I answered before closing the gate.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 8: Dildos at Desker Road

“Hey, are you free this evening?” asked Ling during the breakfast before setting off to work.

“Why?”

“Go shopping.”

“Sure,” ha… shopping, my favourite pastime, I smiled & agreed instantaneously, “sounds great to me, I will be home by six after giving tuition.”

Ling returned home around 630 & dinner was ready. When we finished our dinner, I walked towards the bedroom to get dress change, she spoke, “Woman, wear jean no skirt okay.”

I followed her instruction, but was not too please on her domination, why, why no skirt, denying my privilege being a female, I wondered but didn’t object. Since we went steady, there was change in our level of intimacy, I had taken a more submissive role & she has taken the role of authority and leadership.

Ling donning also denim, we started our walk to the bus stop to catch a bus that would lead us to Orchard Road.

Fingers laced together lazily as we got seated inside the bus, there was long silence between us, so unusual for this evening… during bus trips we would squeeze in some small talks, there were no topics off limits, finding joy in discussing anything & everything. These little girl talks between us concluded without tension, each teasing touch or playful peck on the cheek, built something stronger & somehow, intimacy between the two of us.

As the bus turned from Lavender Street to Jalan Besar, Ling got tense up. And she startled me when she said, “Ah… is here, come, get ready to go down.”

“Here?” I looked at her in surprise, “I thought we’re going to Orchard?”

Seeing my reaction she continued, "No, not Orchard but Little India, or to be exact, is Desker Road, okay.”

“What? Desker Road, the red light district…" my mouth fell open & my eyes widened, “why here?” Great, I thought & felt stupid thinking of going to Orchard Road all this while.

"Oh, I, uh... well..." standing up she put her hand up to ring the bell, “let’s get out of the bus first.”

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We gathered our handbags & got out of the bus. People were bustling back and forth; I stood at the bus stop & watched Ling for a moment, trying to digest the idea of going to Desker Road, “So tell me why we’re going there?” I asked.

“To look for dil…do...” her reply was sounded slow & slurred.

“What? What’s again?”

“Dildo, dildo, you hear me.”

Dildo… geez, I thought, shaking my head I asked, “Dildo, what’s for?”

She took a deep breath, cleared her throat & began to talk, “Yeah, for a more fulfilling sex life in-between us, you hear me.”

More silence. Not knowing what to say, I just looked at oncoming vehicles & fumbled my knuckles.

"Are you okay?" asked Ling.

I gazed at the pretty-looking face & thought that even though I had known her long, only now I began to know her better, began to admire her, her selfless devotion to pursue a fulfilling sex life between us, "Oh, God, big sister, thank." And I pulled her tightly to my breast for a long, long time.

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Edited August 22, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 8: Dildos at Desker Road

We made our way across the busy street, everything seeming fairly normal, traffic was heavy & the weather was fine. We walked down the pavement, people seemed to be going about their business but I felt extremely uncomfortable seeing scores of Indian personnel flocking together by the pavement.

Checking direction against the photocopy of street directory she carried, her eyebrows knitted together, causing furrows in her forehead. She continued to check the paper, shaking & nodding her head as she did.

“Yes, it must be here.” Ling exclaimed as we stood in front of a back alley, at the back of a coffee shop, there a dimly lighted long straight alley with men going in & out and red lights flicking from afar.

That’s right, in front of us there the infamous Rowell / Desker Road back alley, the back alley that we were going to explore, our very first time. I was nervous not knowing what would happen on us the two young ladies intruding into the man’s paradise.

“Sis, are you serious?”

"Yeah, why not…" said Ling, "relax… just mind our own business." She said while folding the paper & tucking it to the back pocket of her denim.

Filled with people hanging out, soon as we stepped onto the alley, a few started hooting & hollering at us, “Hey, sexy…”, “Beauties, come… come… come here.” “How’s much?”…

They made no attempts to walk to us, these silly cheap idiots who came in a group just catcalling us from afar, I figured just their second-nature of 'You see girls, you make noise.' kind of mentality.

Ling got tense up, showing annoyance in her face. For me, I felt no sense of pride though they called us ‘sexy, beauties’, I found it embarrassing to be singled out, hit on & leered at.

Nervously, we kept walking. I took a deep breath as we walked up the alley, I could smell the foully odor of stale water came from the drain & felt my lungs stir. Our eyes were making a constant survey of the grounds, darting back & forth like a nervous cat. In spite of the humid atmosphere, there was an intense, disoriented fear that I folded my arms over my breasts.

Guarded by pimps, there little doorless entrances lining the narrow lane & men gathered at the entrances peering inside, with intense greedy filth, lustful expressions on their faces. Though we were not here for that, curiously we joined the flock, stood behind the crowd & saw women sitting on cane chairs, waiting to be picked.

Housed on both sides, there were about 50 or more of such brothel, all looked kind of run-down & seedy with mostly middle age Chinese women working there. And deep inside the alley, dimly lit corners hold stalls selling X-rated video tapes, along with stay hard pills & sexual enhancement ointments.

We found the first sex shop midway down the alley but couldn't quite get our foot in the door. People avoid sex shops, more often because feeling shameful, shy or fear that they may run into someone they know.

In there two patrons were flipping some dirty magazine & all acted secretive. We hesitated for a short while, filled with both excitement & nerviousness about the adventure ahead of us, we walked in eventually. The man running the shop showed no warmth of welcome on our presence, standing still at the counter he plainly gave us the creeps, probably not wanting to waste his time & energy to entertain the hack two females coming to his shop.

I’d never been to a sex shop & was not sure what to expect. In there all things were in their original packing, leather, whips, blow up dolls, a large variety of condoms, KY & etc, suggesting that there was no merchandise testing. Clutching my hand tightly with Ling’s, I witnessed such things first time in my life, it was mind-blowing.

And the scary cock rings with spikes & anal balls had added a sado-masochistic atmospere to the store. The dildos on display were huge & awful looking, wondering who could really fit something of that size inside.

No eavesdropping, averting our eyes from other people's selection & minding our own business, I walked in with an open mind & left in shock.

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Edited August 27, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 8: Dildos at Desker Road

Further down the alley, there stood the second & last shop available there, as told by Ling in accordance with information provided by Jenny, the sister we met in Zuok. The storekeeper, a middle aged man who looked lubricious said hi behind the counter & invited us to walk in.

The shop was completely empty, no one was in there... thanks god, and I was relieved in a way. Keeping a straight face & acting normal we went into the shop.

The interior of the shop was reasonably well set out, with shelves all around the walls & racks forming aisles, much better than the first one we had visited. We began to look through the nearest aisle showing huge selection of pxxnographic magazines & videos.

On the next aisle, we stopped to look through the stacks of kinky lingerie. The storekeeper behind the counter looked up at us as we examined one of the black lingerie. Flicking over the price tag, we were shocked by its price. I promised to come back here when I got employed; it was so sexy that I had to have it.

Arrived at the last aisle, my eyes widened seeing wide range of dildo lining the shelves, in various color, shape & size imaginable. It was impressive & we got detach from the outside world, frantically rummaged around the shelves examining every box we had lay our hands on.

Scanning for any other people around us, Ling asked while holding a box of dildo, “What do think?”

Staring at the sex toy she held, my heart was racing & the adrenalin pumped through my veins, "You decide…” I replied shyly but could feel the craving building deep within me.

“Wait... wait… wait…” she paused while picking up a sample dildo from the top shelve, “what is this?”

A skin colour six inch dildo, it felt softer with a subtle weight, and there was a knob at the base. I twisted the knob & was rewarded with a dull hum as it began to work, wow… a dildo with vibrator.

“How, like a real dick right?” there was a tingling sensation as Ling rubbing its shaft on my upper arm.

"Let’s go for this okay?”

“Okay la…” still feeling embarrassed, but there was an exhilarating sense of intrigue & sneakiness, I could feel my sexual yearning intensify while replying.

“Hello, just between the two of us, sees carefully, is the size suit you?” she barked at me.

“Yes, surely…” my heart was beating so hard, I could feel my crotch getting wet & couldn't believe what I just replied.

We walked over to the counter & placed the sample in front of the shop keeper. “We want two boxes, how many colours do you have?” Ling asked.

“Skin colour only,” replied the shop keeper while placing a box on the counter from the locked cabinet behind him.

“Okay, I think we’ll take two boxes,” beamed Ling while scanning the box.

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All was going well; we got what we wanted although I knew we were looking out of place as there was more than one guy giving me the eye.

Soon stepping out from the sex shop & walking towards the lane exit, we observed not far ahead there were a few girls, sluttish dressed with heavy make-up. Some stood in the middle of the lane chatting up guys passed-by; one was teetering up & down on her high heels & some was subtle with one hand on hip standing against the wall.

Given their body language, from winking, making eye contact to greeting with puckered lips to those hungry men walking past, I knew they were working girls looking for business, but they seemed less shy than those prostitutes stayed waiting indoor at the brothels.

As we getting nearer, one spotted us, came forwards & called out in a hostile tone, “Hey you two, looking for business?”

Almost lost for speech & in total awe, right in front of us was a tall ‘girl’, big boobs but with a suspiciously dark voice & an Adam's apple, it freaked me out & didn’t know what to do.

I looked inquisitively at Ling, “Sis… she is…”

“She is lady boy,” Ling whispered, “just walk straight & don’t reply her.”

Relax… why so aggressive, we dressed decent & were not here to compete… I knew it was hard to find a client, with the vast majority looking for real girl.

"What the fxxk do you think you are here for?" another girl came to join her & yelling at us. Oh no, shit… I thought.

Making further bad comments & rude remarks towards us, their behavior was disgusting; I was stunned & felt humiliated. Keeping mum & moving sideway, we tried to ignore them.

They immediately went into a rage and began to curse & yell, "Hello, you two deaf-and-dumb?” we were trying to avoid confrontation but apparently they were out to create trouble.

Grabbing our hands tightly, all we could do was to say repeatedly, "Please excuse me… excuse…” in a desperate attempt to get out of the alley quickly before the whole bunch of lady boys coming to us.

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Discounting the scare caused by the lady boys, the trip to Desker Road was exciting, I would have never thought about going to these ‘sex shops’. I learned things that no one would tell accurately, a hand-on experience that would not learn by gossiping or reading from the magazines. I could also miss out on a world of new sexual experiences, in particular a dildo with vibrator.

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Edited September 5, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

Two more days to Mid-Autumn festival (中秋节), the moon is going to be full & bright, a celebration of reunion with family & love ones.

Herewith I share with you the following song. Happy mid-autumn!

但願人長久 by Faye Wong

明月几时有

How often there is the bright moon?

把酒问青天

Raising the drink I ask blue sky,

不知天上宫阙，今夕是何年

What year would it be in heavens this evening?

我欲乘风归去

I would like to ride the wind home to you,

唯恐琼楼玉宇高处不胜寒

But fear the crystal and jade mansions are far too high and chilly.

起舞弄清影

Dancing and soothing with my moon-lit shadow,

何似在人间。

It does not seem like the human world.

转朱阁低绮户照无眠

The moonlight rounds the red mansion, seeps through curtain and shines upon the sleepless,

不应有恨

Bear no grudge,

何事长向别时圆

Why do you the moon tend to be full when people are apart?

人有悲欢离合

There are sorrow, joy, togetherness and separation,

月有阴晴圆缺

The moon may be dim, bright, full and eclipse,

此事古难全

Nothing is perfect since good old days,

但愿人长久

Wishing that we stay longevity

千里共婵娟。

Though far apart we share the beauty of the moon.

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Edited September 10, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

Lunar August 15, after dinner & suggested by Ling, we made our way to the front garden. Stepping out into the warm night & riding on the swing, we sat side by side. Admired at the bright moon overhead, there were noisy children walked the street to park nearby carrying lanterns for events organized by the resident committee.

Seeing the kids, their parents outside & their colourful lanterns, hmm… how much I missed those nostalgic moments… when we were much younger, grandma would tag behind we two for the lantern walk around the neighborhood… we got teasing from the boys as our lanterns were flowery & theirs were in the shape of animals or cartoon characters…

On the relative quietness, I looked up into her eyes & a small grin from her made my pulse race. It was just the two of us, as Aunty Lily was out of town on tour organized by the community centre.

“How, your tummy still has space for some moon cake?” I asked.

“Ya... okay, you get the moon cake & I will grab the chairs & table.”

“Okay… I’ll be back in a couple of minutes,” I replied cheerfully.

The best thing about mid autumn festival is definitely the moon cake itself, one of my favorite in particular those come with lotus seeds & egg yolks.

When I returned with slices of moon cake & a pot of Oolong tea, I noticed a few colourful paper lanterns were lit with mini candles hanging on the mango tree, casting a warm glow & soft shadows.

“Wow… where you got these lanterns?” I smiled & asked in a relaxed voice.

“Oh, these are oldies; I kept them in the storeroom.”

“Really… wow… that’s incredible… unlike you I didn’t keep any of them.”

"Well, no big deal… hey… let me go get my CD player & play some songs okay."

She returned with her CD player… and wows… with a dress change too. Yes, she had indeed changed, now wearing a short sensual looking Kimono. I was dumbfounded, merely sat there watching her as she inserted a disc to the player.

As it began playing, she began swaying to it, slowly & teasingly, her short Kimono rode up on her thighs high enough to show her bare cheeks. Obviously she was wearing a G-string.

“Hello, you terrible flirt, our neighbour maybe watching, come & sit down.” I called up while pouring the two of us a cup of tea.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

“Come on, let’s dance, this is my favorite song,” she took my hand and asked me to dance.

I was a little self conscious… what if being watched by our neighbours, I declined but she kept pulling my arm until I got up, “Just one song okay.”

She repeated the song & we started to dance. It was a slow song, she placed her arm around me & pulled me into her, nose touching nose.

Moon river, wider than a mile

I’m crossing you in style some day

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker

Wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way

I started to relax more & decided to just enjoy myself. Looking up I saw her eyeing me in a provocative way, the intimacy between us was undeniable, little need for words that her hands slid below the hem of my shorts with fingers tracing the outline of my panties. Blush with excitement, my hands went under her Kimono explored eagerly the small of her back; it was instinctual, I could feel my interest began to peek, and the fact that we were alone at home.

Two drifters, off to see the world

There’s such a lot of world to see

We’re after the same rainbow’s end, waitin’ ’round the bend

My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me

After a while, ‘dancing’ was no longer appropriate of what we were doing. She turned me around, pressing her crotch against my rear & we continued to sway our bodies to the rhythm. With her hands wrapped around my waist, I leaned back into her & felt her hot lips graze against my neck. Pushing harder against my rear, I felt the bulge & heat between her legs while her lips making more contact against my neck. Her hands went up to the top of my brassiere, then finally sneaking her fingers under the cup playing my nipples.

Moving my hips against her bulge, I moaned involuntarily while my growing bulge strained under the tight panties.

She spun around & pulled me to her roughly, devouring my mouth & caressing my face with her breath. I resisted at first but then let her tongue entered my mouth. I responded in kind, giving & taking, neither of us yielding completely to the other, our hands eager at ass & waist. We stopped moving & I leaned back, admiring her devious smirk.

(I’m crossin’ you in style some day)

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker

Wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way

Two drifters, off to see the world

There’s such a lot of world to see

We’re after that same rainbow’s end, waitin’ ’round the bend

My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me

“I’m done playing,” I said as the song ended, “come, before the ants carry away the moon cake,” and started to turn back to my chair.

“I’m just getting started, honey,” giggling behind me, she didn’t protest this time though she asked for one more dance.

Accepting her tea from me, we ate moon cake. The moon was hanging in the sky, shining brightly on the ground, while the smell of incense filled the air. Enjoying the serene & restful peace, I stared at the moon & went deep in thought…

Since primary school days, we got along well & found ways to give in to each other meeting each other's needs, it was reciprocal…

She found ways to help & comfort me, showing her affection, without pulling back. Drawing energy from her, I gave my devotion. Each small gesture we exercised paved the way for the next; lending itself to a new kind of relationship, just liked a jigsaw puzzle with only two pieces, no one could intrude, it was intimate & pretty wonderful…

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

So we sat under the bright moon enjoying this private moment, our very first as couple for the mid-autumn festival, I got so much feeling, everything seemed to fall right where it needed to be placed, the Ooling tea, the moon cakes, the songs & importantly, my new found lover.

As song slowly faded, Ling as DJ inserted a new disc, a disc carrying mandarin songs to the player & continued the mood. But when hearing the next song, my heart twisted; there was a desolate feeling, where had I heard that piece before?

http://youtu.be/51xS4yXbryc

你问我爱你有多深

You ask how deeply I love you

我爱你有几分

and how much I love you

我的情也真

my affection is real

我的爱也真

and my love is true

月亮代表我的心

The moon symbolizes my heart

Tears rolled down silently … My brain flashed back to that late cold night in Genting, letting the memories flooded my mind… the moon; so bright & so near… Kong’s arms tightened around me… air tight with genuine tenderness… Dear, they're playing my favourite song… Promise me, you will marry me…

Those were such happy times not so long ago, how I wondered where they’d gone? But they’re back again, just like a long lost friend, it really make me cry… Looking back on how it was, in years gone by, and the good times that I had, so much had changed… Those old melodies still sounded so good to me, as they melt the years away… All my best memories came back clearly to me, some could even make me cry, just like before, and it was yesterday once more... (Note: narrative taken & modified from song Yesterday Once More)

Walking over to me dragging along her chair, Ling asked quietly as she stood behind putting her hands on my shoulder, "What's a matter honey?"

"Nothing…"

"Shih… calm down,” sitting down she handed me a box of tissue, "looks like our tissue expenses going to rise."

“I'm so sorry! Really I'm calm now!"; I said while wiping my tears away.

"C'mon! Spit it out," Ling said.

"I'm sorry sis… the same song that night in Genting when Kong proposed to me…"

"Why sorry? Everyone have their beautiful past, so am I on my fond memory with Desmond."

"Are you mad at me?" I asked.

"I understand your feeling when your loved one was taken away from you. Live for today Jenn, live today to its fullest, make all memories & capture them in your heart. Just like tonight the mid autumn festival & our celebration." Ling said.

"I just wanted to say thank you for saving my life & giving me a new lease of life.”

"I love you & will do anything I can for you." Ling said as she turned to kiss my cheek.

"I love you too."

"I know you love Kong dearly but he is no longer alive, maybe we won't get all the way but I want to make hot love with you tonight; I want our relationship to grow." Ling said kissing me.

“Hot love…”

"We can do as much... or as little as you'd like," she said smiling wrapping her arms around me, "nothing to be afraid of, I promise... I won't bite, unless you want me to," she giggled.

"You are right, let have something special for us to remember,” squeezing her hand & resting my head against her shoulder, I replied, "I want to make love with you as long as I can."

"Why don't we... go into the bedroom where we can have some privacy?"

Happily, excitedly, I followed.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

I smiled, nervous & excited, as she pulled me to follow her.

Once inside the bedroom, she turned to face me, suggestively popping the top button on her shorts, revealing delicate black lace panties beneath.

“Why don't you get comfortable too?” she suggested while stripping out her clothing at a frantic pace. Bringing her panties down to the floor & making an appearance of her bulbous tool which sprang upwards against her abdomen. With a swift snap her bra came undone & she pulled it from her shoulders. I took a moment to admire her aroused breasts & erected nipples.

I soon joined her, taking off my own clothing; all that remained was the tightly stretched panties that bulged quite obscenely.

“Don’t move…” she came close & ran her fingers across my aroused sex; I shuddered as her touch hit a raw nerve & I could feel my sexual yearning intensify. Her hands frantically grasped at the top of my panties, yanking it down around my thighs to reveal my wet little we-we.

My heart rate was racing, my little we-we began to tingle as I stepped off my little red panties, it was already wet with my pre-cum.

Now stark naked for both of us, she leaned forward, softly nibbling on my flesh, neck & up to my ear lobe, breathing & murmured softly into my ear, "I love you, Jenn."

Shivered from her touch, I replied before kissing gently on her lips, "I love you too."

Taking my hands, she asked, “Shall we?”

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Climbing onto the bed, we positioned ourselves upside down, sucking on each other breasts, fondling & playing. On the sameness she did on me, I rolled her nipples between my fingers, enjoying the feel of her sweet stiff nipples. It quickly became a game of touch, feel & suck, changed positions periodically as we began to familiarize each other intimately.

In time, she slithered up between my legs, with the same sort of expertise as Kong, she began exploring my semi-hard we-we.

“Ouch… I’m wet…”

“Who care…?”

Next followed by sucking, tickling & licking with her lips & tongue lavishly, though we did that before, I was still slightly unprepared for it, the sensation of which drove me nearly insane with desire.

Looking over; her swollen knob throbbing hotly on its own accord, it was not right for me to lay still. Within reach, I hold it in my hand, fondling, stroking & playing, noticing the subtle similarities as well as differences, the softness & warmth of her shaft, even though not as hard as Kong’s, just liked mine.

I pulled the foreskin down, exposing the head of her tool. With my finger tips; I caressed her fat spongy head, teasing it mercilessly… & miraculously… eliciting a nice fat droplet of pre-cum. It was confoundedly hot hearing her moaning, that same pleasured cry of ecstasy that Kong would make. She seemed enjoy every bit as much, for the moment at least.

Before I knew it, I leaned over, drawing as much of her tool into my mouth as I could, sucked it as sweetly & as tenderly as I had learnt.

No queasiness, no guilt nor awkwardness, sucking each other tool, sharing this moment with my best friend, it was erotically sensual, it seemed like forever, as neither one of us wanted to stop.

“Want to try the dildos we bought?” she asked.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

I was stunned on her question, the question thrilled me but I hesitated to answer. I longed for it since we bought it sometime two weeks ago, but she didn’t say anything after that & I was too shy to ask.

But the problem lied with… I was ill prepared this evening; I douched myself each time when going out with Kong, but not anymore with Ling. What was the point of douching when one bottom met another bottom?

“Say it, yes or no?”

I blushed, but didn’t look away, “Yes… yes… you sure you want to do this tonight?"

"We don't have to do this tonight; I can wait till you are ready." Ling said.

“Have you done this before?” I asked.

"No…" she said, "but I wish… to enter you & you enter me… tonight… sort of consummates our relationship…” she added.

"Surely, sis… let’s do this tonight, isn't going to be easy for the first time but I will try… oh, please excuse me, I'll be right back."

“Hey, where’re you going?”

“Bathroom...”

“What’s for?”

“Stupid question, to urinate la…”

“Are you sure… not douching?”

I straightened up, ears red & looked at her, ignoring her question I asked her instead, “You’re not cleaning…”

"Not necessary, I’m ready.”

“I won't be long!" Climbing down from the bed, I said while walking towards the door.

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Returned from bathroom & laying bath towel down on the bed, I moved towards her. Looking at my sweet sleeping good friend, softly & gently, I removed the dildo from her hand… yeah, that six inches skin colour dildo.

Flicking the base knob, it began to work with a dull hum. The slight tingle ran from my hand & excited my senses. And as I stroked on its length; it really presented itself as if it were a real dick.

I didn’t have experience & practice with dildo, for the very first time of my life, I brought it to my hard nipple, the low rumble sent pleasurable sensations through my erogenous zone down to my rosebud, I could feel the craving building up down under while my little we-we getting wetter & wetter, just liked those good old days when I was having sex with Kong in his car.

I inched over to Ling, careful not to wake her up & slowly parting her crack, whoopee… nestled between ass cheeks, her asshole was just beautiful… and crucially clean & hairless… it was a bizarre sight as I had never seen a rosebud so up close & personal.

I lay down next to her & began working on her sexy body, lowered myself to her butt crack, my nose running through her tight pink puckered hot hole, a hole of novelty & privy…

Breathing in her tangy scent of talcum, the smell was intoxicating, it was dreamy & it drove me on… with a quick touch & go, I licked her rosebud… hmm, it tasted nothing eerie… okay, how about one more lick… why not?... & next & next & next…

From the initial touch & go to eventual twirling around of her entrance at an increasing pace, it just came naturally. I managed to overcome my phobia on dirt & contamination, I couldn’t believe I was doing this; it was incredible… could this be power of love or simply lusty desire? I wondered….

Twitching from each licking & spreading her legs, she panted & groaned in pleasure continually, I was sure she was enjoying this.

“Hey… sleeping beauty,” climbing on top of her, our lips met once again, aggressive, possessive & needy.

“Please use the dildo & fxxk me… Please…” she said in a husky horny voice, as I felt hot breath & teeth on my earlobe.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

I was eager to comply but thought that it would be difficult for her to accept the dildo inside her tight rosebud, so I asked, “Sis, do you have KY?”

"In the drawer next to the bed, hurry…" she told me as she repositioned herself nuzzling her face against the pillow, craning her lower torso off the bed in doggy style.

With her free hands she pried her slits in-between her fingers, softly prodding in preparation for the buzzing toy. Sensing her urgency, I fidgeted & reached for the tube of KY, unscrewed the cap & squirted the lube over the length of the dildo.

Patting her silky buttock & licked her rosebud once again, I asked, “You ready?”

"Shut up & do it now," replied in a low lusty tone, she was horny & could wait no longer.

I brought the slick head to her love canal, teasing up & down her entrance, I talked dirty & giggled momentarily, “You like a cock don’t you?”

I eased the dildo head over her rosebud eliciting her stifled moan, she swung her hips & moaned softly, “Hmm…. go… go in…”

With little force, the slippery head breached her pink rosebud. She bucked & let out a short yelp, “Yes, yes…”

Little by little spreading apart the slits, I pushed it deeper & deeper into her filling her void, till nothing more than the dildo base left protruding from her love canal. Meanwhile, the vibration continued the teasing & pleasing.

She bucked & swayed to the pleasurable vibrations as I began to slide the dildo back & forth of her, slow initially & quickening gradually, it got into a good rhythm in sequence with her breathing & jiggling of her hips.

“Let’s do it from the front,” she said, rolling off me while the tool remained in her love canal. In a second, we were in place; she was on her back where I came in-between her legs. With a subtle nudge I parted her legs further allowing her to position herself between them; I held her legs up resting on my shoulders & rammed the dildo in.

Maniacally, she sighed as she watched the toy disappeared between her legs, "Harder… harder… make it harder…” and letting out a passionate cry as she tenderly caressed her aching nipples

“Harder… like this?” I fidgeted with the vibration knob setting it to its quicker setting.

“Yes… yes… perfect…” the intense vibration in concert with the pumping of the dildo reached a crescendo throwing her over the top.

"Make me come…" stroking her we-we, her warm breathing had become deeper & more concentrated, she whispered, "Lick my nipples please…"

I leaned in & took one of her nipples in my mouth, my tongue gently flickered over the harden bud while thrusting the dildo simultaneously at an increasing pace.

She kept stroking & moaning deeply, her hair, wet with sweats & drops on her forehead.

"Come," I whispered, "come, just let go."

"Lick faster…" she lifted her bud in an effort to encourage me into doing more.

I obliged by licking faster & forcefully, in addition I nipped her nipples at random while she continued to stroke her we-we.

"Coming…" she cried out, "oh, I'm coming…"

The inevitable eruption finally came… arching into her ‘silky heaven’ (the term she frequently used on her orgasm. Why silky? I don’t know & never ask)… I could feel the spurting of her sparsely love juice flowing down against my hand that holding the dildo.

When her orgasm was over, she collapsed beside me, still trembling. We laid there for quite awhile till she calmed down a little.

“Thanks." she said, snuggling up to me.

"Don’t mention, I thought I could do it better… I mean my first try with the dildo…"

"You did fine,” she giggled at the sensation of it, “it was wonderful. If I'd have known that dildo could do so much, we could have bought it long time ago."

"Hmm… are you sure really that good?"

"Oh sorry… don't worry," she said, giving me a wicked smile, "let's get some rest, your turn comes next."

She pulled me up into an embrace & we drifted off to sleep.

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Edited October 18, 2011 by Larry

[Guest guest]

more please, can't tahan....

[Larry]

more please, can't tahan....

This is a short one; hopefully it helps to quench your thirst. Regards,

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

Someone did mention that in the world of the lady boys & cross dressers, sex & identity are often just an illusion. I was never allowed to forget that I had had sex with my best friend, embarking on a kinky adventure.

“Wake up, sleeping beauty.” a smile on her face as she poked me in the butt.

“Don’t want.” I smiled & rolled onto my side.

“I love you.” I blushed as she buried her face in my neck, “I love your smile, so beautiful & sexy.”

“I love your mouth,” I said, laughing again, loving the beautiful words whispered into my skin.

“Really…”

“How are you feeling?”

“I am the luckiest person, you satisfied my fantasy, it was amazing & incredible,” she squeezed me tight, with a smile of contentment at what we'd just been through early on.

“Well, I’m glad to have made your fantasy real,” replying I kissed her head as I ran my hands slowly across her breasts.

“Honey, I’m thinking I owe you one…” she asked, "do you want to do it now?"

Before I could response, our lips met again, we kissed, hot & wet with passion. Swallowed me wholly, aggressive & possessive, our tongues exploring. Her arms encircling me, I lied still & closed my eyes, allowing my mind to focus on the sensations of her busy hands & warm breath felt on my body.

I rolled over onto my belly, raised my rear & wiggled it suggestively, "Ok... now then, with dildo, right?" I knew what I wanted, the penetration by the dildo, yet never had had the chance... until now. And I knew her well too; she would never leave me sexually unfulfilled.

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[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

Feeling the pat, followed by teasing bites & wet, lippy nibbles on the buck cheeks, she said, "Okay... if... or as soon as you are ready..."

“I’m ready.”

"Relax, I will walk you through it every step of the way," she said.

“Surely…” waiting for what was going to happen, I closed my eyes; no doubts, no hesitation, only trust, only hunger…

I heard fumbling behind me, the click of lube bottle & her thumb brushed across my rosebud, teasing me, then a cold feeling, KY being applied. I buried my face in the pillow, inhaled whiffs of hair shampoo as my libido grew.

“Here, the other dildo we bought, remember?” she said while taking out the toy from the carton box.

"Yeah, just do it darling," I turned my face around & replied. The lust overtook my sense; I ignored the restrain & shyness.

"Wows… that's tight…" she asked as she worked her finger way up inside my rosebud.

“Ouch…” the finger brought me out of my sleepiness as my eyes popped wide open.

"Pain…?" she asked.

"No, just a little discomfort… your nail…"

"Want me to stop?" Letting in her whole finger & didn't move, she asked.

"No."

"Just relax & tell me to quit anytime you want," she said, and then wiggled around her finger inside without moving in or out, "How do you feel?"

"Nice…" I was tentative at first, but realizing that it was actually pretty good, “faster please…” inhaled a deep breath, I urged her as she continued to explore me.

"What a vixen… Jesus… you are such a tight-ass…" she laughed as my sphincter squeezed uncontrollably on her finger.

"Just relax, there is no rush…" she teased. She slowly moved her finger back & forth, picking up the pace & stopped.

Screaming loudly & squeezing my sphincter again & again & again, I afraid my precum was going to make a huge mess on the bed sheet, “Yes… yes… yeah… this is so superb…"

She repeated this cycle a couple of more times & stopped finally, "Okay, enough finger, let's use the dildo." I knew she did this ensuring well lubrication such that I could comfortably impale myself down on the dildo.

Kneeling behind me & placed the head of the humming dildo at my opening, she asked, “Are you ready, baby?” Slick hardness was poised at the ready, waiting for one last word.

“Hmm, please… yes.”

I gave a little scream; there was a moment of excruciating pain when the dildo went past the sphincter. I didn’t expect this to happen; how could it be? It seemed that the numerous sexual encounters with Kong had no bearing on this, and his tool was much thicker…

“You okay?”

Trying to relax, I nodded into the pillow, struggled to control my breathing & pounding heart. Biting my lips the pain eased a little while it getting deeper.

“Do you want me to stop?" she asked.

“No… I’m okay.”

“I’ll take it slow. Stop me any moment, okay?”

I glanced at myself in the mirror, her young tits bounced around as she worked carefully the dildo down, centimeter by centimeter. I asked her to add more KY such that the cooling sensation from KY helped to feel less inflamed on the inside.

The entire length was now embedded inside my body; feeling the vibration, my body shuddered with pleasure; I was amazed how instantly the entire world was just for me, my filled ass. I was no virgin, but this was definitely another incredible sensation, the buzzing…

"This is so superb," I gave her a smile, a contented one, closed my eyes for an ecstatic moment and then opened again, staring at the window.

“Good, that’s good… just relax & enjoy…” she said. Yeah, all I wanted from her was to continue the motion, backwards & forwards, in & out.

Slowly thrusting & retreating, giving me everything I’d hoped for. “Yes, yes, yes…” And when the pace picking up, no longer cautious, the sensations were overwhelming, building and tightening in my mind like an AR15, every retreat a cocking, every thrusting a firing.

In gasping breathes I was gaining a huge thrill, an amazing thrill as my we-we throbbing semi-erected. Her long hairs brushing on my back sending sexy shivers throughout my body, creating the same stimulations in my female body as it did on her when the roles were reversed. An unlimited bliss, I apprehended of being in such a situation, blanking my thought that she was my best friend.

“Honey, good…?” she asked.

“Amazing… this… it’s incredible.”

With one hand on the vibrating dildo, she stretched her body forward lips meeting lips.

"I love you so much sis." I said.

"I love you too!"

"Okay… Stop…" I said.

"Huh? What?" she asked.

"Just like you, let do from the front."

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to be continued......

Edited October 24, 2011 by Larry

[Guest Marad44]

Of the 9 chapters of Forbidden Attractions, I have read the the last four in one sitting, to test myself if I could catch up on the story from Chapter 6. I will not know for sure until I have finished the first 5.

Having read and watched straight, bi, gay and hermaphrodite stories, the two areas I have just brushed past thus far are lesbian and transvetite. Therefore, grasping Forbidden Attractions was for most part delving into imagination sans the experience to fall back on.

Larry's gift of describing the slow development of romance between two ladyboys is like cutting a path through the jungle, the details helping the reader slow down and get aqquainted with the unknown territory. When Larry takes us to the remote destination the twilight zone that we perceive it as today, may not be all that a twilight. I trust that Larry will lead us a few steps closer to appreciating the life of a transvestite.

Edited October 24, 2011 by Marad44

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 9: Confessions of Two Sex Crazy Cross dressers

I rolled over & faced her.

Meanwhile, she resumed the penetration; it was slow, deliberate & calculated. Wrapping my legs around her waist, my fingers clawing at her back, arms & shoulders, I dropped into a deep fantasy, to mold, to melt into as the dildo sliding in & out of my body.

Giving me the whole length, her thrusting became faster & furious. With desired affect, driving me insane with lust, beyond the point of worrying about the excessive lengthy stimulation necessary before ejaculation, I grabbed my we-we & started jerking off myself.

Gasping with pleasure, I received both the jerking & buzzing dildo vibrating inside my secret tunnel, drifting real wet, I sighed & whispered, "Yes, it feels really shiok…" I'd been hovering on the edge half the night as it was, and now experiencing, enjoying & finally knowing the pleasure of using the dildo.

"Oh, yeah, really," she smiled, "it feels good right? Talk to me, honey.”

“So fxxking incredible… I never… never… never imagined… that… that…”

Jerking off like a piston gone mad, I writhing, "Suck my nipples… suck…" I moaned, ";And yeah, fxxk me with that hard cock, Kong… Kong, fxxk me harder..."

“Kong? Hey, I’m Ling not Kong.”

“Damn, who cares?” hissing & moaning, I chanted, "fxxk me, fxxk me, fxxk me, fxxk me harder… and suck my nipples…"

Leaning forward, she slowly & deliberately teased my nipples, rolled & bit before deepened the sucking. I gasped & whimpered as she invaded my nipples.

I sensed the inevitable beginnings of my climax as it began seizing my entire body. Thrusting in & out by her & jerking furiously myself, I knew it wouldn't be far.

"Tell me when you are close, I want to see your ejaculation," she asked.

I gave her a perplexed look but continued jacking myself, "Close..." was all I said!

Bathing in sweat, my hand got kind of weak & fatigued, and there might be skin abrasion on my we-we due to prolong manupulation, but I didn't care, all I need was an orgasm, I needed it bad, and I needed it now…

My breathing escalated as my jerking got more forceful, come please, come please, don’t torture me… the thought sending me into a frenzy.

"Go ahead," she sucked & thrusted, urging me on to the point of no return, waiting expectantly for the onslaught we both knew was imminent.

“I’m already really close, sis…” I stroked in an almost frantic rhythm, “yeah... so close...”

And suddenly, I felt the hot flush & my body began to tremble, everything came to a head, it took a second or two, started from my shuddering womanhood, spread to my squeezing testes, crying out in ecstasy as the spurting of my joy juice ripped through the we-we. The orgasm was short, only seconds, long enough to get the spurts required, though there wasn't much but it still felt incredibly intense.

Collapsing onto the bed, lung heaving & heart leaping, with the vibrating dildo still deeply impaled within, I stared at the ceiling, I was spent, but very relieved at the same time.

“Thank you,” I mumbled.

“Sleep…” she pulled me up into an embrace, her weight was comforting as I caught my breath in the aftermath.

“Hmm…” was all I could muster before I drifted off to sleep.

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It was a hardest orgasm I ever experienced.

IF EVER YOU'RE IN MY ARMS AGAIN (Peabo Bryson)

It all came so easy, all the loving you gave me

The feelings we shared, and I still can remember

How your touch was so tender, it told me you cared

We had a once in a lifetime

But I just couldn't see, until it was gone

A second once in a lifetime, may be too much to ask

But I swear from now on

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll love you much better

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time will never end

How I still need you near me

I still love you so

There's something between us

That won't ever leave us

There's no letting go

We had a once in a lifetime

But I just didn't know it

Till my life fell apart

A second once in a lifetime

Isn't too much to ask

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time will never end

'Cause I swear from the heart

The best of romances,

deserve second chances

I'll get to you somehow

'Cause I promise now

If ever you're in my arms again

This time I'll hold you forever

This time will never end

And perhaps some of you the wicked ones who might succumb to delights previously unknown, just as we did… well… no rest for the night… he-he…

------------------------- End of Chapter 9 ---------------------

Edited October 29, 2011 by Larry

[Guest Kelvin]

like an AR15, every retreat a cocking, every thrusting a firing.

sexy & imaginative narrative, i love it.

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

I planned to celebrate her first birthday since we went steady. One year, didn’t it go quickly?

It seemed like only yesterday, that evening in Pulau Ubin on the beach …under the moon when she asked me, "Small sister, game to give our relationship a shot?" …and her voice strained with desperation, "You could say something," …"It is okay if you say no…" she said & sounded so resigned ..."Ling, I... let’s give it a shot." …"Oh, Jen, I… You're really serious about this?" …"Umm… yeah, yes." before we sealed our relationship…

Came Friday morning & I couldn't decide what to do, should I take her out for dinner or cook her favourite dishes at home? Nevertheless I had bought a gift & wrapped it myself.

We split up for own activity, her full time job in the day & post graduate class in the evening, as for me, nothing much except tuition for my student in the afternoon. Promised to be back by nine, "Don't forget, Birthday girl," I reminded her briefly.

By the time the lesson ended, it was near to seven, supposing to end at six but damn bloody parent requested for one extra hour, FOC, just because the kid was having examination the next day. I was starting to get nervous; there wouldn’t be enough time to the supermarket.

Taking a bus home, I beat myself up, yelling about how indecisive I was… I should have gone to the market this morning.

Walking towards home, I heard a very familiar laugh & raised my head. Shit! I saw Ling stood talking to a guy next to the front gate under a nearby rambutan tree; a wide grin was on her face.

I jumped up & walked over with a confused mind… She had been shy & quiet with guys, what made this guy different?

“Hi, let’s me introduce, this is Jennifer, my good friend. And this is Henry, post graduate course mate.” her grin faded as she did the introduction.

As I stood there, my heart beating out of my chest, I watched the jerk practically ate Ling with his eyes. Damn… he was drooling all over her, way too close!

I moved forward in-between them, giving him a forced smile with no intention to shake hand, “Hi…"

He looked at me & smiled, "Good evening, Jennifer. I like your base ball hat."

‘Hmm’ was my reply.

Sensing my hostility, the guy Henry was quick to react, "I got to go. Ling, see you in class," he said as he gave me an odd look & hurried off to his car.

Ha, he was not that dumb… I thought.

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to be continued......

Edited November 13, 2011 by Larry

[Guest guest]

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

wows, interesting title, looing forward

[Guest kapo]

wows, interesting title, looing forward

i suspect there was problem between them relating to sextisfaction.

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

I hugged her & said, "Happy birthday, sis… I have a birthday present for you."

“Oh, thanks, may I open it?”

“Surely… go ahead…”

"Wows, is nice…" she said while holding up her arm, the bracelet shone under the street light.

“Great, as long as you like it. I bought from Isetan Katong that having sales now… hey, let's go out tonight & celebrate… my treat."

Back into the bedroom & sitting in front of the dresser, I flipped the pages over on the Sister magazine placed around while Ling changed her clothes from dress to T & shorts.

“You like that guy?” glancing at her reflection in the mirror, these words just came out from my mouth, uncontrollably.

“What?”

“I said do you like that guy H-E-N-R-Y.”

"What? This is a damn stupid question,” she replied but could see her hesitation to continue, “absolutely not… why do you sound like that... jealous huh?"

"Huh? Oh, yeah, you don’t… why, why not?” I asked while walking towards her.

"What the hell are you talking?" she replied with an increased decibel.

"I saw you laughing with that guy…"

“How you want me to behave… slammed the car door without saying thank you…” I heard the anger in her voice, she sounded hurt.

"Well, you were flirting with him, I saw with my own eyes."

"Rubbish, no flirting, okay… there was nothing between me & him… I got heavy stuff to carry so had to walk on the road. I usually walked the sloppy steps which cut through the field to the bus stop. This guy drove past & gave me a lift, that all…"

"It's your birthday… but you were with someone talking & laughing, you were supposed to be with me."

"I was so not flirting,” she started laughing, "This is got to be the dumbest conversation we've ever had."

"You promise?"

"Yes, I swear… so are we still going for dinner, your treat right?”

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It was near midnight when we returned from dinner at East Coast Park Food Centre. Snuggled up in bed, she said, “Thanks for the dinner."

"This time last year, I thought my life was over, sis…" I smiled as I kissed her lips softly, "thank you."

"It is you made it through & now we've got our lives to look forward to." She answered.

"I hope so; it could only be possible with you. Goodnight."

It was a sleepless night, ‘get some sleep’ but my mind was not listening… it was sad that I was hostile to my best friend & now lover, because of an intruder Henry, would our relationship last?

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I though would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

I'll take the chance... should I take the chance… yes, I should… or no…? as the lyrics kept floating in my mind.

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to be continued......

Edited November 21, 2011 by Larry

[Guest Guest]

i'm addicted to your life! please update soon larry!

happy to know that you are happy now too..

[Larry]

i'm addicted to your life! please update soon larry!

happy to know that you are happy now too..

Sorry, just a short one, too busy currently...

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

Returned from tuition giving, I found Ling sleeping in the bedroom, she ought to have a hectic work day & there a card was on her hand.

Leaving my stuff on the dresser & sitting cross legged on the bed, I looked over at her pretty face, so sweet… so smooth… while her chest rose & fell as she breathed. Cautiously not to awake her, I covered her with the blanket & took the card out of her hand to lay it on the dresser.

At the dresser, hesitantly & curiously I lifted the top of the card… it was unethical; it was wrong, but my curiosity over rode my morality of privacy… I saw her name on it. But as I moved my eyes downwards, my eyes widened & chest tightened as I saw words I would never want to see, "I love you ~ Henry".

I stood looking down at the face I loved, the one & only I wanted. Did that mean something? Did that mean she loved him too? Or just his one-sided love?

"Sis… Ling…” I called out, but all I got was a soft humming from her, “Hmm…”

I walked out the bedroom, through the living room & into the front garden. Sitting on the swings & huddled into myself, I took a deep breath; the air was crisp after the rain… I had seen Ling talking to that guy Henry, and they were laughing… I knew it was going to happen, I couldn’t assume there was nothing as I felt disturbing on that ‘I love you ~ Henry’.

I had been too patience since the last time I saw them, I didn’t want to take chances… or maybe I should just keep quiet about it, it might make the situation worse… I was frustrated & wanted to scream, all I wanted was her…

I wasn’t ready for the confrontation; I signed & felt the tears I'd been holding back began to flood my eyes. If she told me she loved him too, I didn't know what to react… I'd never been so scared, if I lost her…

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to be continued......

Edited November 26, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

Discarded the tear-soaked tissue to the waste bin, I came back into the bedroom & slammed the door behind me, "You asleep?" I called out.

Struggling to wake up, Ling replied, "Hey, small sister, ready to go for dinner?"

"I… I just… I…" sitting down on the bed beside her, biting my bottom lip, I had no idea how should I start, struggled to whether to confront her now with an ultimatum & possibly risk on our relationship.

"I what… Jenn…”

"It's okay that you have new friend &…" I didn't look up & laughed bitterly at nothing.

"What are you talking about?”

Taking a deep breath, I asked, "What do you think when he said 'I love you'?"

She sat up & retorted, "What do you mean? Who is the he?"

“Henry…”

"Henry… you read my card?"

I looked into her eyes & saw her anger. Beating myself up for the next couple of minutes, hating myself being so unethical invading her privacy, demonstrating a complete lack of trust… anyway what was done was done, sticking it out I frowned & replied, "Well, I saw it, so…?"

"You did?" She shook her head, "Damn, shit you… why do you have to be so cheap, reading my card without getting my permission? That's not like you.”

"Yeah, I’m cheap, so what? But don’t change the subject, I am talking about the ‘I love you’, it's time for truths here, sis." I asked.

"That was nothing…" slinging her legs onto the floor, she shouted, "here goes nothing…”

"Oh yeah, nothing…? Can I believe? Not as a classmate when he wrote I love you, Ling, I’m not three years old kid...” through my confrontation, I had destroyed my ability to trust her.

She wrinkled her brow, "In what way you don’t believe?"

“Are you saying that there is nothing wrong to receive this love note from someone else?”

"I meant what I said, there is nothing & I can’t stop him from sending me this note," she sighed, “you are just stubborn… never change…”

“I don’t understand… what? What’s stubborn?”

“Don’t argue, I'm just talking… you're arguing, same, exactly the same the last time when you quarreled with Kong…”

It did feel like a dagger stabbing into my heart when she mentioned Kong, I screamed, "Why brought Kong up… hell, damns you…”

"I'm sorry, Jenn…"

People quarrel & they say things to hurt the opponent in order to ‘win’. Her mentioning on Kong did hurt my feelings & make it harder for me to stay calm. I could see that she didn't mean what she said, but it was still so hurtful.

"I can't believe what you're doing, it's so nasty," I stood up & walked towards the door.

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Turning around while closing the door, I saw Ling sitting sadly on the bed side. I felt a tremor shoot through my body, why? Why? Why were we in such pathetic situation? You think it's been any easier for me? I was going crazy, when you were there laughing with a drool guy on your birthday…

Pacing up & down in the living room, I thought wildly… I was too afraid & I knew I could lose her, I would die … I snooped & my pushy with the desire to clear my doubt may be due to my non-tolerance mentality, just liked the prior incident with Kong…

This was the first time I ever complained & felt this relationship would be threatened... Why harbour issues from my past love life? Why dwell on the past... I didn't blame her talking about Kong, it really didn't matter: He is part of my history; he's part of mine...

ANGER - probably the most despised word in the history of mankind, and I couldn’t see things objectively, it was a shame.

Sleeping on the same bed, I’d a sleepless night, I knew she too.

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to be continued......

Edited December 8, 2011 by Larry

[Guest fan]

larry, you wrote well, but the waiting was a bit too long

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

It was ugly, Ling was portrayed as a betrayer, but she was calmer than me, this made me feel terribly bad about myself on the hoo-ha I had done.

Well, for the next few days, we went through this awkward encounter, living under one roof, watching TV dramas, taking dinners but essentially didn't talk. Aunty Lily probably noticed something wrong between us but didn’t ask. I couldn’t say I was happy but at least we weren’t fighting… I was still thinking about what I wanted... and didn’t know how long to wait.

At nights I would lay in bed awake, thinking about that she might have developed feelings for that guy Henry though she down played it a lot. I wondered what she was thinking & if she was still with that guy. I pretty much hated this guy, his existence made me feel inferior; the dildo we used was no substitution to the real dick he possessed.

Came Saturday afternoon where she off for work & I got no tuition assignment. A hot & humid afternoon, I took a shower & came out from the bathroom. Walking through the kitchen towards the living room, I saw Ling standing next to the refrigerator getting a cold drink. I walked past her sheepishly; impulsively I stopped & turned around. “Can I talk to you for a second?” I asked.

She said nothing. I told her that if she didn’t know that I missed her. That was it, I had said what I needed to say & felt better for it.

I turned to walk away when she grabbed my arm & pulled me back. Before I regained my composure, she kissed my lips, right in the middle of the kitchen.

“My heart aching too...” she said & placed my hand over her breast.

I felt like I might bust out into tears. I just stared at her. “Say something, will you…” she said.

I didn’t know what to say, but proposed cycle to East Coast Park we used to frequently visit together.

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Parking our bikes under the tree, we did what we always did. We walked silently on the beach, and it took a while before I opened my mouth, “So how, how about that guy Henry?”

Not waiting for her reply, I continued, “Are you two dating?” I was stumbling over my words & my hands were shaking.

“We went for tea twice, that all… no dating, okay, mind you…”

After that was said, we just walked in silence. I stared at her, and she stared back, just waiting.

“What are you going to do next…?” I asked.

“Look, you are stressing me out, what you want me to do? He continues to pester me… quit my study & avoid him…”

“You need to think about what you want & how’re you going to handle? And whether or not you want to end it? Do you still care about me?”

“Yes.”

“To be with me…?”

“Yes.”

“Love me?”

“Yes.”

“Do you think a real dick is better than a dildo?”

“Are you crazy?”

“Answer me.” I was mad, I was confused & I was sad but I wanted answer.

“Are you going to say something?”

“What do you want me to say?” she replied.

Our conversation ended, I stood there fuming, waiting for her to say something but she didn’t, she just stood in complete silence.

That night I silently cried the whole night.

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to be continued......

Edited December 17, 2011 by Larry

[Larry]

larry, you wrote well, but the waiting was a bit too long

Chapter 10, gosh, is so far the most difficult one to finish, taking excessive time to write, rewrite & edit before putting out for your perusal. I swam in a sea of memories, it was tough to determine which events to or not to elaborate, taking note the everlasting extra ordinary relation between me & Ling, my soul mate & house mate currently.

I wish all readers a merry Christmas. Sharing with you a song (直到永远 Till Forever - 费玉清 Fei Yi Chin) that I listened to this period, a song with lyrics best describe my emotion.

http://www.1ting.com/player/6c/player_453885.html

隧道的另一边 世界的另一边 有我另一片天

Over at other side of tunnel, other side of the world, there is another facet of my life

心中的一条线 从炎热到寒冷 雪国就在眼前

Threading from my heart, from burning hot to freezing cold, it is snowy up front

分手的一句话 爱我的一句话 让我想见你一面

The word when we parted, that you love me, it makes me wanting to meet you up

男人的一颗心 隐藏的一份情 是否你能了解

Up in my heart, the unspoken love, will you understand?

我的泪已凝成雪 寒风中如雪花飞

My tears had frozen, snow flakes fly under the chilly wind

不是无情 是不愿让你日夜思念

Is not ruthless, but rather not wanting you to think of me

这一生有没永远 挥挥手向红尘告别 为了你放弃一切

Nothing is forever, waving goodbye, for you I giving up everything

隧道的另一边 世界的另一边 有我另一片天

Over at other side of tunnel, other side of the world, there is another facet of my life

冷清的月台边 旅客都已走远 你还是没有出现

The desolate train platform, where passengers have left, but there is no trace of you

是你忘了日子 是我来得太迟 还是你我无缘

Is that you have forgotten our date, is that I come too late, or we both just not fated

你送我的照片 放在口袋里面 想见你最后一面

The photo you gave to me, is in my pocket, I really want to meet you for one last time

照片中你的脸 永远都是笑脸 也许这就是永远

Your face on the photo, is forever smiling, perhaps this is forever

我的泪已凝成雪 寒风中如雪花飞

My tears had frozen, snow flakes fly under the chilly wind

飞呀飞过你眼前 只是你看不见

And you are not here to witness

这一生像一场雪 春天来了就要融解 过去的美梦难追

This life is like the snow, melt when spring arrive, there no way to recover past sweet dream

隧道的另一边 世界的另一边　有我另一片天

Over at other side of tunnel, other side of the world, there is another facet of my life

Edited December 23, 2011 by Larry

[Guest fan]

Zhi Dua Yong Yuan by Fei Yi Chin, a beautiful song indeed.

Thanks, Larry.

[Larry]

B. Sisterly Dearest – Ling

Chapter 10: So it went; Top, Bottom, or In-Between?

Came Monday, Ling went to Malacca on company work. Though only four days, they had been the four longest days of my life, blurrily I didn’t know what I was doing… I was lost...

Day times where the hell had I been?

Good question. Well… besides giving tuition, mainly window shopping at Parkway Parade.

But an incident kind of pissed me off… I strolled around clearance section of this store with no intention to buy, but chose a dress somehow… I am kind of impulsive chick, if I want it, I’ll take it. Upon payment; I took out a $5 voucher by previous purchase but noticed patches of lipstick stain & asked the sales girls for a new piece.

Busy chatting with each others ignoring my request, said one of them, “Miss, come on, sales item… what you expect?” & echoed by the next girl, “Yeah, using discount voucher some more…”

Not employed (recession & prejudice on my cross dressing) since graduation & worked as tutor for little income, I would not want to spend an astronomical amount on a dress; just something cheap, look good & be comfortable. I felt like punching their faces, left & leaving the dress at the counter.

Came night times, sitting in front of television & looking for something to watch… Channel 8 Mandarin drama, truly the worst show ever, terrible acting & illogical plot lines, liked “I’m going to kill you now.” drew sword but returned to the sheath, again & again & again … Channel 5 was nowhere better, the foolish American comedies, stupid humor & relentlessly used of “OMG”…

I just kept alternating the buttons of 5 & 8. Why in the hell was I still watching these shows?

Came bedtime, I couldn’t sleep. My brain whirled, kept recalling the conversation we had on Saturday evening… “Look, you are stressing me out, what you want me to do? He continues to pester me… quit my study & avoid him…”… “You need to think about what you want & how’re you going to handle? And whether or not you want to end it? Do you still care about me?”… I tossed & rolled all night, with little sleep in-between.

I liked her, I had a boyfriend before, and she was my second... I enjoyed her company, sweet & patient; the one I wanted a relationship with. I’d started to get questions about whether or not she told Henry about our relationship that we were couple… Very likely she didn’t… but why... And she didn’t speak ill of him… probably she began to have feelings for Henry... I suspected, who wouldn’t? I read that as a sign...

I wanted to see that she only wanted me… surely she liked me, she was attracted to me... there were times that she wanted to take me out on dates, in public, but couldn’t, all because of my fear of being seen by someone I knew… perhaps I had driven her into the arms of a man… at least he got a real dick & took her out on dates…

After thinking about everything I came to an idea that I might want to end our relationship. I was confused… I did not want to lose her... and if I couldn't have her as a lover then I still wanted her as a friend… breaking up & remained friends, was it possible?... I couldn't imagine not having her in my life at all...

It was the most unpleasant week ever.

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Thursday afternoon, I got home early from giving tuition & planned to cook her favourite dishes. As I walked towards the metal gate, I saw the familiar car parking right out front. I walked up to the car & found Ling & Henry were inside.

My instinct told me that this guy didn’t want to give up; I wanted to get the heck out of here. I walked past the car & straight to the gate.

Ling got out of his car & followed me, “Jenn, Jenn…”

Trying hard to keep my cool, I replied, “Hmm, I go & prepare dinner now.”

It was devastating… I could feel the energy draining from my body while cooking her favourite dishes; I was pleased with my success at holding my tear outwardly at least.

We had a silent dinner & after dinner I told her, “Ling, I am tired want to sleep early.” not letting her to have a chance to explain.

I cried myself to sleep that night…

我的泪已凝成雪寒风中如雪花飞

My tears had frozen, snow flakes fly under the chilly wind

飞呀飞过你眼前只是你看不见

And you are not here to witness

这一生像一场雪春天来了就要融解过去的美梦难追

This life is like the snow, melt when spring arrive, there no way to recover past sweet dream

隧道的另一边世界的另一边　有我另一片天

Over at other side of tunnel, other side of the world, there is another facet of my life

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The next day morning after she went to work, I placed a note on the dressing table & it said this:

“I’ve decided it’s best for us to go our separate ways. I still want to remain friend with you, but I think we shall not contact each other for the time being. I wish you all the best.”

------------------------- End of Part B ---------------------

Edited January 5, 2012 by Larry

[Larry]

First of all, 恭禧發財

So where did I leave off after ending Part B? I swam in a sea of memories, determined which events happened first & using my old diary as references… damn, my memory is getting bad. But anyway, let’s get on with Part C.

 

C. Me No Gay – Shawn

Chapter 1: A Brand New World of Sisterhood

 

Dear readers, my love life was extremely messy upon Kong’s death, there were relationships with Ling, Shawn & lastly with Fong. I did & deliberately fell into such bizarre situation to deafen myself for obvious reason you should know.

 

With the stories Part A & B written so far, now comes to Part C, which involves the most eccentric tale of my journey as a sex worker. “Sex worker”? That right, a sex worker, the most despicable adventure as far as some of us here is concerned… I pray that criticisms & sarcastic remarks to be kept at minimum.

 

For those who had given me their unreserved supports, I shall try not to bore you, and I do crave your indulgence in the reading of it… behind the scene, from the bottom of my heart...

 

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My decision to walk away from Ling had been swift & heartbreaking. Stepping out from Ling’s home with a small haversack carrying some of my clothing; I wandered aimlessly down the street, all that was left of my life fit beautifully into a small haversack...

 

A blaring horn startled me & realized that I stood at the bus station. Staring for a moment at the people boarding the bus, I made an impulsive decision & climbed up the bus, not knowing where the bus was heading.

 

I didn’t want to go back to my home which was just three houses away on the same street, I feared she would come looking for me, I didn’t want her finding me. She would go home this evening & find the note, it would probably her worst nightmare, equal to every parent’s worst nightmare - you go check on your child in middle of the night, and she’s not there. Your heart starts pounding & you fly into panic mode, calling her friends, your relatives & the police… gosh, I was that evil...

 

Sitting on the last row, I stared blankly at the fall scenery that passed, I couldn’t escape the feeling that I was leaving something behind & I wasn’t quite ready to…

"Hey miss, bus terminal here."

 

I stared blankly at the driver; apparently the one hour bus journey had done little to lessen my agony, "Yeah?"

 

The exasperated driver huffed out an angry breath, "I said I’m going to shut the door, get off the bus, understand."

 

"Oh... I… uh… sorry…" my sense returned as I gathered my haversack & walked quickly to the front of the bus. Taking a deep breath I stepped onto the sidewalk.

 

I was not sure the place I’d arrive, after all the HDB flats looked identical in all new towns, it was until I read on the street signpost that I was in the middle of what appeared to be Bedok New Town.

 

And re-orientating myself, I recognized the place, the coffee shop where I’d a good chat with Amy.

 

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Amy, a post-ops istersay whom I’d met at Genting Highland over at the blackjack table (please refer to Part A Post-Chapter 33, dated 27th March 2011). I contacted her after returning back to Singapore.

 

Today, she is a close friends in my inner circle, through her & on the mahjong table, I get to know Chin Chin (Queen of Bugis in the seventieth & eightieth, another good friend nowadays), also Maggie Lai, the first transsexual appeared on big screen based on her life story.

 

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to be continued......

Edited August 4, 2019 by Larry

[Larry]

C. Me No Gay – Shawn

Chapter 1: A Brand New World of Sisterhood

 

I sat down as close to the front of the coffee shop & watched for her. Fairly soon, I saw her, standing to my right about 2 yards from the table, I rose quickly & waved to her, "Over here, Amy."

 

'Hi, Jennifer… sorry keeps you waiting..." she pulled the chair & grinned broadly, the smile on her lips matched the one in her eyes.

 

"Thanks, I’m glad you come, sorry to disturb you."

 

"So… how’s life?"

 

"Bad, terribly bad..."

 

She was surprised to know that I was still not working, “Wait… let me guess… you’re now full time housewife… you potong & married your boyfriend, right?”

 

Full time housewife… ha, an impossible dream, I signed with a tinge of sadness. She probably got the idea from our last meet-up as I spoke about sex change & marry Kong after graduation.

 

"Uh... no, not exactly..."

 

"Then what’s exactly?"

 

"He got into an accident & passed away… one year ago…"

 

I briefly told her about the tragic death of Kong, the failed suicide & lesbian relationship with Ling.

 

"Ah… I’m sorry to hear this… and sound like a unique relationship with Ling." She frowned & her eyes widened as she spoke.

 

"Yeah, unique… that’s a good word."

 

"Do you need my help?"

 

"Amy, I, uh…"

 

"Yes, I’m still waiting."

 

I felt my face grow warm as I looked up to meet her eyes, the warmth she demonstrated. Ducking my head in embarrassment, I caught sight of the pillar, "Right, well, I did get my degree, so there I was, educated but useless…"

 

"Me too, I’m a poly diploma holder, so what… I've lost my edge too; I have been working on the streets for so long,"

 

Her voice held a note of dismay, she waited a few moments to give me a chance to speak, but I remained strangely silent, "True confession time, Jennifer… I'm a busybody but I’m here to help."

 

"I need to find a place to stay for the time being."

 

"Oh, that was easy… huh, tell you what, I have a spare room. My girl, you can stay at my place."

 

Gulping, I took the offered hand & stood upright, "Thank you, Amy but…" I took a deep breath, before forcing the words out in a rush, "I…I don't have much money, I still haven't gotten a job, only earning some little money by giving tuitions."

 

Squeezing my hand gently, she replied. "Yes, I know. Come; just pay me thirty bucks as a token, okay… My other house mate will definitely welcome you; after all we are all sisters, if we don’t help each other, who will help us?"

 

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Welcome to the world of sisterhood, now I’d two persons of the same kind. And perhaps would be meeting more in the future...

 

That evening, I gave Ling a call as she paged me twice. I told her not to look for me & I was fine.

 

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to be continued......

Edited August 4, 2019 by Larry