I Think I Am In Love / Lust With My Best Friend (Compiled)

[Guest family biscuits]

I think I am in love or lust with my best friend

However, the problem is the two of us are not talking anymore. Our friendship has turned cold and stagnant. So, I do not know how to bring this up to him

After hanging around and building a strong friendship within a rather short span of less than 2 years, I and J considered ourselves to be the best of friends. We would hang out with each other every weekend, and even on weekdays, meet whenever we are free and call multiple times a week, each call lasted about 2 hours...we were very close.

However, gradually, i started developing feelings for him, i constantly imagine the both of us having sex on the bed, with all the erotic images. To many people, J has been speculated to be gay, he has feminine nature and gay behavioural antics - but he has repeatedly affirmed that he is straight. I asked him once, if he was gay, he told me directly that he was straight.

Gay people has approached him in the past and he seemed to develop a homophobic stand towards them. That’s why I never revealed my feelings for him and observed him secretly. Being best friends with a guy I secretly liked was so good – I got access to his private pictures, knew his thoughts and was a part in his life. So I was worried if I came clean to him, I might lose my best friend.

However, since we headed off to college a few months back, our friendship became very cold, no calls, no meet-ups. Nothing at all. Even when I called him, he always said he was busy studying and seemed like not in a mood to talk. it was like we never existed.

On my part, I could not control myself any longer and channeled my sexual desires to be with him – I began to masturbate over topless pictures of him and his photos on his blog and facebook account and started to feel really guilty, so i kept my distance and stopped calling him and just waited for him to make communication with me. But it seems that he isn’t keen to maintain contact.

However, I think that it takes two hands to clap in any relationship, so where is he not taking the initiative to maintain contain with me? why is he giving me the cold shoulder?

I constantly find myself muttering his name and having sexual images of him topless in my mind, throughout the day and I am totally losing concentration in my studies. Every time I look at skinny guys, my mind starts to flood in images of him.

I have gone to the extend of removing all his pictures in the photo frames in my home, stop receiving his facebook updates, removing his blog link….yet I find myself still lusting over him? how do i get over this same-sex crush and lust over him?

Please help me

[robin64]

让自已忙于...工作、运动、阅读.社交...等等

也和其他好友诉说内心的苦闷

最后就是...（时间）

它....是治疗你内心的思念之苦和创伤的最佳良药。

[snowball]

随缘聚散,

没有結局也是一种結局.

他只是过客,

从不曾属于你,

你从不曾失去过.

[GachiMuchi]

I believe you are having a sort of 'J' withdrawal syndrome. Imagine being so tight together for 2 years and within a few months, everything changed. You used to have a focus and your focus was on him and now, the focus was gone.

1. Sit down and make up with mind which is more important for you/your future.

2. Refocus your energy on something, e.g. hobbies, sports, activities that take up your time.

3. Give yourself time to adjust to the change and for u to find back your bearing.

You need to move on.

[Guest simon]

Imagine a blue elephant....

Stop thinking of the elephant....

You CAN'T.

Now, imagine a pink elephant....

Where is the blue elephant?

Got it?

[Jetstream]

Reminds me of my own infatuation with a straight ex-JC class-mate of mine many many years ago. We did many things together and I had secretly hoped that he was gay too. But no, he was as straight as a ruler. It took me some time to get over this infatuation, but that was because I was so closetted then and did not know a single other gay person. My advice to you would be to meet new gay friends - there are so many avenues for this nowadays. The more you erase your memory of this person with new memories of new experiences with friends (new or old), the faster you will get over this person, trust me. You need to move on.

[Guest 50yrs old virgin]

Time will heal ALL PUPPY LUST.

When u r my age, u will look back and laugh at yourself - how silly

[snowball]

family biscuits, hope you can accept that things change,

you can't expect that this relationahip will last forever,

actually this arrangement is best for both of you,

don't you think so?

Edited January 10, 2010 by snowball

[lonely]

Time will heal everything. You are right to remove as many traces of him from your life possible.

As Hannibal Lector says, you covet what you see everyday. Out of sight out of mind.

Many a times, you have the shittiest feeling but you will be surprised when you come out of the other side of the tunnel and look back. You will wonder how you have survived this when you thought you never would; but the fact is that you did.

The sad thing is you will tell yourself not to head for a tunnel the next time, but sometimes you almost always ended up heading for one.

I am presently heading for the longest dark tunnel in my life, and I just can't help it...

Edited January 10, 2010 by lonely

[Guest voxierock]

Time will heal ALL PUPPY LUST.

I agree with this.

At the age of 11, I had an infatuation with my best friend, he wasn't hot, or cute or whatever, he's just plain. But we were best friends.

I desired for his company all the time and similar to you, we spent hours talking on the phone.

Soon sexual desires began to develop, but during our one-month June holiday, I felt disgusted when I see him for no reason.

At that time I felt really foolish that I was so infatuated with him.

Time will really heal your burning heart, try not to think about him and you'll be fine soon.

[loveseeker]

I also had an infatuation with a guy friend in my uni time. One time, I even cried for him. I still remember it was a cold day in winter time with white snow everywhere outside my student hall (what an emotional day), my tears just dropped uncontrollably when he phoned me and accused me of bad-mouthing behind him. Now thinking back I feel how foolish was I to cry. I can never forget him until these days, not unless I get senile dementia I think to myself; but I can tell you that my passion for him is over after so long time, my foolish love for him just faded gradually day by day and minute by minute...

Family biscuits, you will make new guy friends through activities and I am sure soon you will not infatuate him anymore. :thumb:

[Sidney]

I think we've all done this at one time or another, and youth is, I suppose, when one longs for the unreachable. Unrequited love is painful at the best of times, but everything feels bigger and more complicated when you're young.

Everyone has given you excellent advice. Eliminate this person from your life as much as you can, treasure the good times and forget the rest. And move on, because somewhere out there is someone who will think about you when you're not around with the same intensity as you focused on this guy.

But don't try to rekindle your friendship.

As James Agee said:

"How far we all come.

How far we all come away from ourselves.

You can never go home again."

[ashtonxia]

I just wanna share about my life to you all,guys.(NOTE: I think it should be a very long story. So you may take a cup of coffee first)

I came to Singapore 7 years ago and I stay here together with my sibling. May be because I need to do everything by myself, that's why I think more maturely than many guys on my age. However, there is only one thing that I can't stand. Loneliness. Every problem that I faced, I should find the solution by myself. I couldn't even tell my sibling about that since she is so busy with her job. I really need someone who can listen to my problems, my comments and comforting me every time I felt blue.

I like a guy, just called him Ray. He was a school councilor in my school back then. I was a student councilor too, but I resigned because I thought I couldn't manage my time properly. During the student councilor training camp, the participants were divided by 2 groups. Ray and I were in different group. I didn't have any feeling towards him at first. But, after 2 days being in the same tent as him, I felt that he is a nice guy. On the last day, we have a games competition between the two groups, simple game la, captain ball. Because many people from my group going home because couldn't stand with the pumping, Ray moved to my group. We played as if we knew each other for a long time, we are unified. I always knew when he would give the ball to me (note: I'm not good at sports) and finally our group won 22-12.

When the result released, both of us succeeded to be student councilor. Satisfied, because that meant I will be together with him. But, it's not the only happiest day in my life. One day, he moved to my class! Don't know whether he is sian or what, but he sms me everyday what homework or assignment we had, etc. Every day I look at him and daydreaming that I would be together with him for forever (I THINK EVERY ONE DOES THAT TOO!) and every time I look at him, he realized it and he looked at me too. He gave me a kiss too (of course didnt really kiss la, but a joking kiss)! I didn't want to think too much about that because I felt that every straight guy does that.

But I realized that something is suspicious. One day, we went to the lab. But then I forgot to bring something and I need to take it from my bag and it located in my classroom. So I ran as fast as I could. After I took the thing, I went out from the classroom and I saw him waiting for me outside. I was shocked because even my best friend didn't care until like that. We walked to the lab together and he said he loves me. I was soooo happy. But he suddenly said he is joking. FML.

Aiooooo.. My story so long ah. i know you all are bored reading my story already.'Ray', I still love you. Although we are already in different school and we are adult now, but I still love you. If you read this story, I hope you know how I feel

[Guest amidst_the_stars]

Oh man....

I feel for you...and when he made the joke about loving you, that's just damn insensitive. But of cuz he doesn't know that u are gay/bi. Do take care and maybe u will find someone else that will truly love u.

[DominicT]

I just wanna share about my life to you all,guys.(NOTE: I think it should be a very long story. So you may take a cup of coffee first)

I came to Singapore 7 years ago and I stay here together with my sibling. May be because I need to do everything by myself, that's why I think more maturely than many guys on my age. However, there is only one thing that I can't stand. Loneliness. Every problem that I faced, I should find the solution by myself. I couldn't even tell my sibling about that since she is so busy with her job. I really need someone who can listen to my problems, my comments and comforting me every time I felt blue.

I like a guy, just called him Ray. He was a school councilor in my school back then. I was a student councilor too, but I resigned because I thought I couldn't manage my time properly. During the student councilor training camp, the participants were divided by 2 groups. Ray and I were in different group. I didn't have any feeling towards him at first. But, after 2 days being in the same tent as him, I felt that he is a nice guy. On the last day, we have a games competition between the two groups, simple game la, captain ball. Because many people from my group going home because couldn't stand with the pumping, Ray moved to my group. We played as if we knew each other for a long time, we are unified. I always knew when he would give the ball to me (note: I'm not good at sports) and finally our group won 22-12.

When the result released, both of us succeeded to be student councilor. Satisfied, because that meant I will be together with him. But, it's not the only happiest day in my life. One day, he moved to my class! Don't know whether he is sian or what, but he sms me everyday what homework or assignment we had, etc. Every day I look at him and daydreaming that I would be together with him for forever (I THINK EVERY ONE DOES THAT TOO!) and every time I look at him, he realized it and he looked at me too. He gave me a kiss too (of course didnt really kiss la, but a joking kiss)! I didn't want to think too much about that because I felt that every straight guy does that.

But I realized that something is suspicious. One day, we went to the lab. But then I forgot to bring something and I need to take it from my bag and it located in my classroom. So I ran as fast as I could. After I took the thing, I went out from the classroom and I saw him waiting for me outside. I was shocked because even my best friend didn't care until like that. We walked to the lab together and he said he loves me. I was soooo happy. But he suddenly said he is joking. FML.

Aiooooo.. My story so long ah. i know you all are bored reading my story already.'Ray', I still love you. Although we are already in different school and we are adult now, but I still love you. If you read this story, I hope you know how I feel

I understand how you feel. Unrequited love can be really painful sometimes.

[koolkai]

If he is straight, it is not likely he will like you as a bf. Hence you may need to move on or you will feel very hurt!

[Guest Happylark]

err, so this was supposed to be merely a bedtime read ah?

[opto875]

maybe he is in the same position as you: is he, is he not?

but for sure, it is NOT a usual situation. he certainly feels for you. the question is how he handles those feelings, and exactly what his feelings and internal, unspoken situation actually is.

maybe you ought to give him positive signals to encourage him, eg when he "kisses" u, u return the "kisses", or when he says he loves you and then says its joking, do the same to him. the objective is to get to the point where you can both discuss your feelings for each other, seriously, without pretending to be "joking". he is possibly struggling to understand and cope his feelings also, for example, he may be grown up to think that being gay is sinful and condemned and will face social ostracisation from others that love him, such as his parents, and so on.

but unless you both can come to the point to be able to talk all these to each other, to become vulnerable to each other, mutually, then you wont know; and if you won't know, you cannot do anything constructive and positive about the situation; and you may live you life to regret it, such as many here can confess to.

[kh87]

I just wanna share about my life to you all,guys.(NOTE: I think it should be a very long story. So you may take a cup of coffee first)

I came to Singapore 7 years ago and I stay here together with my sibling. May be because I need to do everything by myself, that's why I think more maturely than many guys on my age. However, there is only one thing that I can't stand. Loneliness. Every problem that I faced, I should find the solution by myself. I couldn't even tell my sibling about that since she is so busy with her job. I really need someone who can listen to my problems, my comments and comforting me every time I felt blue.

I like a guy, just called him Ray. He was a school councilor in my school back then. I was a student councilor too, but I resigned because I thought I couldn't manage my time properly. During the student councilor training camp, the participants were divided by 2 groups. Ray and I were in different group. I didn't have any feeling towards him at first. But, after 2 days being in the same tent as him, I felt that he is a nice guy. On the last day, we have a games competition between the two groups, simple game la, captain ball. Because many people from my group going home because couldn't stand with the pumping, Ray moved to my group. We played as if we knew each other for a long time, we are unified. I always knew when he would give the ball to me (note: I'm not good at sports) and finally our group won 22-12.

When the result released, both of us succeeded to be student councilor. Satisfied, because that meant I will be together with him. But, it's not the only happiest day in my life. One day, he moved to my class! Don't know whether he is sian or what, but he sms me everyday what homework or assignment we had, etc. Every day I look at him and daydreaming that I would be together with him for forever (I THINK EVERY ONE DOES THAT TOO!) and every time I look at him, he realized it and he looked at me too. He gave me a kiss too (of course didnt really kiss la, but a joking kiss)! I didn't want to think too much about that because I felt that every straight guy does that.

But I realized that something is suspicious. One day, we went to the lab. But then I forgot to bring something and I need to take it from my bag and it located in my classroom. So I ran as fast as I could. After I took the thing, I went out from the classroom and I saw him waiting for me outside. I was shocked because even my best friend didn't care until like that. We walked to the lab together and he said he loves me. I was soooo happy. But he suddenly said he is joking. FML.

Aiooooo.. My story so long ah. i know you all are bored reading my story already.'Ray', I still love you. Although we are already in different school and we are adult now, but I still love you. If you read this story, I hope you know how I feel

Hey i am actually quite curious how you react after he said that he was joking. He knew that you are aj?

[kh87]

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Edited January 29, 2011 by kh87

[Guest elgar90]

perhaps he is a shy guy? Why not try finding out whether he truly likes you. No one does things like he does, without any reason. There's always a story/reason behind a man's action.

[steelwings]

Allow me to tag on your thread to share my story: I used to 'love' one of my classmate too. He was my closest friend. He will pop over to my house after school and we will spend time in my room for hours just talking cock and chat about anything. From music to schoolwork to sports to girls... Because he was my 'mentor' in Maths so he was always helpful and very concern about my progress. I was moved and had feelings towards him very quickly. I m happily married now, and the last I heard he is too - only difference is i m married to my bf and he is married to a girl I do think you were very sweet then Sam. Hope we will meet one day.

[Guest want to get married]

how are u married to your bf? i also heard of another gay acquaintance who got married to his bf?

in singapore?? how? i've been fantasizing of getting married to ever since i heard this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOep-pUv-9g

[Guest bing]

If I were you, I will find a quiet place (just you and him) and tell him you love him. If he says YES, the prince and prince(ss) will live happily ever after. If he turned out to be str8, then you should also reply that you both will remain as friends and move on.

At least, you tried .... rather than playing the guessing game --- that's not me.

[ashtonxia]

Just sms-ed him just now. he said he has girlfriend already ); ); I need to find the new one then );

[Guest bing]

Just sms-ed him just now. he said he has girlfriend already ); ); I need to find the new one then );

Be strong, dun worry. There are more men waiting for you in life

[koolkai]

Just sms-ed him just now. he said he has girlfriend already ); ); I need to find the new one then );

Just wish him good luck and move on with your life. Even if you and him become a couple, there is no guarantee that both of you will be together forever as gay relationship is very fragile.

[Guest robie]

good on you mate

[Guest Guest]

Young man, go out to meet more people. Don't hold on to the pass.

[Guest Guest]

This is so sad. This 2 guys is so in love.

[tainkj]

Hi guys, I know this topic have been discussed before but I'm still in a dilemma.

I know my friend for almost 6 years. He was like one of the hottest guys you coul ever find. Girls go gaga over him. We were very close with each other and people often tell us that we were like super glue who could not be separated. Until he got himself a GF 2 years ago. That was when I stopped having feelings for him. I thought I have forgotten about him as we met occasionally still as he was always busy with his GF.

Until recently, he broke up with his GF and we hang out every week when he books out. It's like his weekends belongs to me now. My feelings for him returned. Now more strongly than ever. I think about him everyday. It's a sucky feeling because it's like a forbidden attraction. You know you can't have him but you still want him that sort of feeling.

I feel like telling him I like him this weekend but the thought of it destroying our friendship is so great. What should I do?

[Allegro]

He can never return you any love, because he's straight. Keep that in mind.

There are others out there who can return and cherish this love, be strong and cherish your friendship with him.

Edited February 2, 2012 by Allegro

[Mareshka]

Love between best friends can go very far...keep the friendship, ditch the confession.

[tainkj]

But how do I stop loving him. The feelings are there. It doesn't seem to go away

[Allegro]

But how do I stop loving him. The feelings are there. It doesn't seem to go away

Put it in this situation.

You have a close girl friend of 6 years who suddenly confesses that she has fallen in love with you, how would you react?

Edited February 2, 2012 by Allegro

[Guest Guest]

Keep it the friendship or Brother Brother way.. DONT DO IT!! I mean dont say anything about you liking him..unless he gave you strong hint or watsoever..

I know that if you are YOUNG..then it is hard to suppress that kinda feelings..but if you are much older, and mature..you could have gone thru some up and down in r/s or frenship..then it would be easiler to control your feelings..

Go with the flow of your routine with him right now and enjoy each moment of togetherness..

[Guest Guests]

Put it in this situation.

You have a close girl friend of 6 years who suddenly confesses that she has fallen in love with you, how would you react?

I will be like, "Wah lao eh!!!!"

*cringes*

avoids

[Guest 知己变恋人]

Let ma share with you my personal experience. It happened many years ago...............

We were in the same Accounting course. We were the closest of friends. We discussed and work on our assignments, we watched movies, we swam, we talked on the phone every night before we sleep, we "skipped" classes together, I even brought him home to try out my mum's cooking, to summarise --> we were inseperable.

Then I suggested going on a holiday together. He welcome the idea and I went ahead and did the bookings. I even warned him (jokingly) that I may hug him in my sleep and told him not to kick me. He just laughed it off...

We were in the hotel room on the first night of arrival and were happily hanging our clothes in the cabinet and talking about where to go the following day. I thought the time was right (before we sleep) and told him I am gay and I like him a lot. His face changed and he did not utter a single word but slept (we had seperate beds).

The next morning when I woke up, he has already left the hotel and went sightseeing on his own without telling me. Imagine being left alone in a foreign land without knowing where your best friend and travel companion is. I cried and really regretted opening up to him.

This went on throughout the trip, he would only return at night to sleep and no matter what I asked or talked, he did not respond. On our departure day, he just took his luggage and left the hotel. When I boarded the plane, I realised that he has even changed his seat. My whole world just turned upside down.

When back in school, he did not sit with me anymore and fellow classmates even asked what happened. He did not talk to me since then............it was really really sad.

My advice to you is :

If you decided to confess to you, be prepared for three possible scenarios:

1. He is delighted that you show your feelings and since he is unattached, decides to try it out with you, this is a plus plus

2. He accepted you as what you are, but tells you that he is straight and will treat you as a friend, still (but he may or may not gradually keep a distance from you)

3. He gets freaked out and that's the end of the friendship. (it happened to me).

If you want to give it a shot, by all means go ahead but my advice is, stay as friends and look elsewhere, there are a lot of people like us around you and you may find a better one. Just drop some hint and "test water" whenever you are with him but don't remove your mask totally until you are 100 percent sure of his acceptance because you may not be able to put it back ever again....

[Guest Guo Lai RenKent vedbale]

I've a good str friend too thou i've no special feeling for him, I show concern for him when he broke off with his gf. Maybe he was very emotional then and he said my over concerned for him made him have some funny feelings for me.

We went to bed finally at his request to try out with me. We had a few wonderful sesssions till he found a new gf.

Life carry on as good friends.

[tainkj]

I know it would be better if I were to keep this friendship. Just like one of you, we are going on a holiday trip together. Hopefully it just doesn't turn out the way you had experienced.

Is there any way to test if he likes me for like a bit? A few years ago I started the topic that everyone is bisexual. So he told me he's bisexual. Then it went awkwardly silent. So didn't get much out from it.

Just last week we went swimming. So when he was lying down in his trunks his Dick was like sort of poking out from his trunks as in the shape of it. I jokingly went to press it down twice telling him to hide it and he didn't budge a little. No. I didn't check if he had an erection.

Is that even a sign?

[Guest 知己变恋人]

I volunteer to find out for you , just let me have his contacts.....hahaha.

Let me share with you another story of mine....

When I was in the army, I used to like this platoon mate very much but did not have the courage to tell him.

I shared this with one of my closest friend who is gay and he offered to find out for me. I was naive then and gave him all the particulars.

One Saturday night, this gay friend of mine called me at about midnight and told me "我已经把他吃下了“，I almost fainted.

[Exynos]

live smart, don't be a moron. simple.

[Guest chnBoi]

Friends have to be honest with each other. If he still wants to be friends despite knowing you're gay, then there's still a chance, for friendship at least. You can hope for more.

If he were to find out in one night that you're not only gay but also "in love" with him, there's a much higher chance that he'd feel betrayed, believing you've had "ulterior motives" all the while pretending to be friends. That may not be the truth, but you cannot predict or control the way he reacts.

Feelings are temporary. Just be honest about who you are for a start.

[XiaoMessy]

Ouch. This sucks.

[fyimsingaporean]

I also have this feeling too.

That's was i'm in army. Same coy.

He was the big brother kind and muscluar .

Always "jio" me out for meals and gym. whenever i had unsolve things, he will help me.

That was the light of fire and start to fall in love with him.

Sigh, he got gf.

I'll do something else or try to avoid him to prevent falling deep...

[Guest Marad44]

Erasing your life from somebody's life is not as simple as walking out the door eh?

[Underwearless]

I had a similar experience when I was younger.

My best friend and I were very close to each other.

We spent all our weekends together, swimming, jogging, movies etc...

We went traveling together....

I knew at that time that I had fallen for him,

But understood that I must never let him know...

Our friendship grew stronger that I started to sleep over at his place over the weekends.

He adopted me as a god-brother & I really hv a soft spot for him that I started to help him financially at times....

I soon had the disillusion that since our relationship was so strong,

there should be no harm telling my big brother that I'm struggling with my sexuality!

I did not even tell him that i fell in love with him, just that i'm struggling!

I told him.

He totally freaked out & cut off all communications with me,

Refused to talk to me & borrowed money from his friends to return me!

He told me that I needed the money more than him....

To go and see a psychiatrist to get my sickness healed!

I was totally devastated and felt so worthless then.

But I did not regret my action at all.

Many years later, I am doing very well & life's been going..

My friend, you must measure the possible outcomes before taking action....

No one can decide for you the action to take....

But once you hv decided, you must be willing to accept the outcome.

If you are unable to handle the worst case scenario, then you need to weigh your action again.

Whatever the outcome, all the best!

[leo yok loo]

Same logic , if a girl tells me she likes me a lot, i will run away.

[junxiang]

What's the difference between u telling him now or not?

Just the sex part and the "title" part right?

If u win, u get to have sex with him, u can call him yr bf and u can be together with him legitimately right?

If u lose, what's the worst scenario? u lose everything.

But isn't life a gamble? It demand on what kind of risk u willing to take.

Are u the "put yr money in fixed deposit type" or investing in high risk share type.

The saying "no pain, no gain" is very easy to say, just four words only, but when comes to real life, a totally different thing.

Without opening to him, you get to access to his everything, his life, love, time, everything except sex.

If u carry on like that, he might even fell in love with u, be emotionally attached to u or even sexually without him realising it.

maybe wait for that night he get drunk and initiate it himself, that will be a plus. If u tried to force your way like I did, u have to have the ability to handle the consequence.

Opening yourself to him need not be a "show hands" type. You can do it slowly, over a long period.

I remember in my army days, I know this guy from another dept, always initiate a chat with him in the canteen.

We get real close, meet everyday after work, eat together, swim together. play games together, go fishing together, (we are in Pula Brani Naval Base then).

When u attend the movie screening every weekend, we could go right up a secluded spot in the gym and at times, I would lie on his lap. Gosh, alot of time, I would even feel his hard on. I had bedded countless guys in camp but I dunno with this guy, what makes me stop at that. All I need is just turn my head and suck and history would have change, to what I dunno.

But whatever is it, how long a friendship you want it to be? To me, nothing is permanent and give it 5 years, 10 years eventually you will lose this friend and go on to the next friend in your life. Even if you dun showhand, you may have lose him in other way, like him getting a girlfriend or worst off, some "fast hand fast leg" gay beat you to it.

I lose my straight baby "Junxiang", but I never regret I forced my way to it. At least now, in my memory, I manage to "conquer" this straight, dominating, arrogant guy standing there letting me suck his dick.

I am glad I made this move and if I didn't, I really live to regret it for the rest of my life.

But there again, it's up to individual, forever friends?(if really exist) or forever regret!

[IanTL]

It's always the same old thing isn't it? We always want someone we can NEVER have....