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I love finding people to have sex with because it's so easy & it's so, free? Anyway no one really likes me so might as well go all out & be a sex tool to other sex tools. That my friends, is the sad truth of life - that true love doesn't exist and is a mere fairytale... yep. So all gay couples disgust me as well... a certain foolishness in their eyes as they believe they would be together, but trust me, nothing lasts forever, much less something as intangible as love.

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I love finding people to have sex with because it's so easy & it's so, free? Anyway no one really likes me so might as well go all out & be a sex tool to other sex tools. That my friends, is the sad truth of life - that true love doesn't exist and is a mere fairytale... yep. So all gay couples disgust me as well... a certain foolishness in their eyes as they believe they would be together, but trust me, nothing lasts forever, much less something as intangible as love.

So jaded wor, lol.

 

 

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Le sigh.

I know where they're coming from, I understand why they would think that way but... aiyah, they're so consumed by anger that they fail to look at the big picture. I only wish they would be more, eloquent about their demands.

Anger makes them dumb. And dumber to allow anger to cloud themselves.

Won't be surprised should they think they are "mature"/"smart" enough to post such nonsense.

Oh well, just have to make sure such people do not end up in positions of power/decision. That'll be really really bad. :ph34r:

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All these bloody hypocrites. Saying a thing and doing yet another.

If you're afraid of teaming with a mate that will bring disadvantage to you, just simply say so. I mean it's just that simple. Rather than coming out with a bunch of excuses like, "Oh I'm resting now, maybe later." or "My game room is full." etc etc.

Bitch please. Maybe I'm sort of being overly sensitive but ya, can't believe that I actually initiated to try da play games with such insincere bastards.

And when I finally thought that woo, there's someone I could actually play with, the same thing happens again. Seriously? No matter what game, my friends have never done that to me, maybe that explains a lot.

You can complain that roses have thorns, or you can also rejoice that thorns have roses

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Haven't slept at all. Need to travel to the other side of Singapore now. Good night on the bumpy train ride. I am giving no old man or preggie any seats. Hopefully I can wake up before I reaches that place.

"Well, I didn't know it would come to this but that's what happens when you're on your own."

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I think hanging around the gay community is poison. All these while, I've been feeling so pressurized about looking good, about needing to fit all the criteria of the "perfect gay man" to have a boyfriend... feeling so ashamed of myself and filled with so much anger and hatred... and what for?

It was only when I enlisted into the army and got to know these straight men... normal guys, that I realized we're all but young people. Most of them don't have a girlfriend, or have never been in a relationship, so what makes me so special that i need to have one now? Because I'm gay? But that's really ironic, no...?

I think I've figured out what I need to do, and I think I know which way I should go.

"You see? That's the problem with people these days. They lose their faith, and by losing faith, they forgot who they should fear."

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I think hanging around the gay community is poison. All these while, I've been feeling so pressurized about looking good, about needing to fit all the criteria of the "perfect gay man" to have a boyfriend... feeling so ashamed of myself and filled with so much anger and hatred... and what for?

It was only when I enlisted into the army and got to know these straight men... normal guys, that I realized we're all but young people. Most of them don't have a girlfriend, or have never been in a relationship, so what makes me so special that i need to have one now? Because I'm gay? But that's really ironic, no...?

I think I've figured out what I need to do, and I think I know which way I should go.

"You see? That's the problem with people these days. They lose their faith, and by losing faith, they forgot who they should fear."

It's not limited to this community, straight guys can be more vain and desperate than gay guys, but we do emphasize a lot more on physical appeareance.

Why do you care so much about what others think? Why do you compare yourself to others? Why do you allow yourself to play by other people's rules? Why do you even bother to give a fuck about what other people think? It's your life, and no one but you, will be the one living it.

Do you REALLY want to live as someone else's expectations?

 

 

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Do you REALLY want to live as someone else's expectations?

No. I've been having self-conflicts about this the longest time... and I think it's really stupid to live by people's expectations but there are times... just moments when you feel if you don't you're gonna end up alone. And I don't mean alone as in "single", I mean alone as in "being by yourself".

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No. I've been having self-conflicts about this the longest time... and I think it's really stupid to live by people's expectations but there are times... just moments when you feel if you don't you're gonna end up alone. And I don't mean alone as in "single", I mean alone as in "being by yourself".

I find life a lot more bearable once I stop giving a shit about things.

 

 

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No. I've been having self-conflicts about this the longest time... and I think it's really stupid to live by people's expectations but there are times... just moments when you feel if you don't you're gonna end up alone. And I don't mean alone as in "single", I mean alone as in "being by yourself".

In fact, I respect and like a person more if they just be themselves. As my signature puts it, I rather accept someone with all their perks and quirks than to accept someone who tries to be all perks. Individual uniqueness is what I call sexy.

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If you're living a really happy life, you shouldn't have to keep flaunting your happiness. It's as if you are insecure and you need to constantly remind yourself just how happy you are by talking about YOU, YOU YOU non stop

And the worst part of all, you are hurting some other people.

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I've been thinking about what happened between us. I don't think I've explained myself well enough when I ended things with you so abruptly. I would talk to you through our usual medium but that would break my own rule. But I figured you'll read this thread so this is the best I can do.

You asked me once what I liked about you and I said I didn't know. Now I do. I like that you're strong, both physically and mentally but at the same time, there's a certain air of sadness around you too. You might be built like a fucking ox and your arms are probably thicker than my thighs, and you could, quite literally, punch me through a wall if you really wanted to but that's not what really attracted me though; it's your mentality. Despite all the shit that your family gave you when you came out to them, you still loved them like, well, your family.

But that tinge of vulnerability was always there, and it jas been quite a while since I last felt like I want to take care of something but I guess that's just my problem. You cared equally for everyone, never once being judgemental and you truly BELIEVE that people are inherently good. You can really walk the talk and you're like everybody's best friend.

Maybe that's why I feel insecure about our friendship.

I yearn for depth but breadth is all you offered. Granted, you had no obligations to fulfil (and I, no rights to make that kind of demand) but it really made me felt like I'm nothing more than just your whatsapp bitch. None of this is your fault though, I suppose, since I didn't tell you anything.

And another thing, my unrequited feelings for you. I know perfectly well we will never get together yet I explicitly chose to remain by your side. "If I can't be his lover, maybe I can be his friend," I thought. But I've grossly underestimated my ability to suppress those feelings. Everytime you complain to me about your r/s problems, I just sit there going, "What is wrong with that guy?! You're an $!^*| delight to be around with. Wtf!" Being around you but not being able to be WITH you is just exhausting.

It's so mentally exhausting trying to be your friend yet wanting to your lover at the same time. I dread seeing your msgs popped up even though it made me happy at the same time. I didn't even realize this friendship, if you can even call it that, has become toxic until we argued and stopped talking for a while.

I stop fretting over your msgs. I even stopped listening to sad emo songs about unrecipocrated love for that few weeks lol. I had forgotton about you and I've come to miss how liberating it was when my world didn't revolve around you. And when you msged me again, that was when I realize I couldn't - and I won't - continue this facade of a "friendship" any more.

I've always to wanted to try your tiramisu but I guess it's never gonna happen. Anyway, that's why I have to cut you off. But I'll say this (since you tend to overthink everything), there's nothing wrong with you. Don't let this affect your future r/s kay?

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I've been thinking about what happened between us. I don't think I've explained myself well enough when I ended things with you so abruptly. I would talk to you through our usual medium but that would break my own rule. But I figured you'll read this thread so this is the best I can do.

You asked me once what I liked about you and I said I didn't know. Now I do. I like that you're strong, both physically and mentally but at the same time, there's a certain air of sadness around you too. You might be built like a fucking ox and your arms are probably thicker than my thighs, and you could, quite literally, punch me through a wall if you really wanted to but that's not what really attracted me though; it's your mentality. Despite all the shit that your family gave you when you came out to them, you still loved them like, well, your family.

But that tinge of vulnerability was always there, and it jas been quite a while since I last felt like I want to take care of something but I guess that's just my problem. You cared equally for everyone, never once being judgemental and you truly BELIEVE that people are inherently good. You can really walk the talk and you're like everybody's best friend.

Maybe that's why I feel insecure about our friendship.

I yearn for depth but breadth is all you offered. Granted, you had no obligations to fulfil (and I, no rights to make that kind of demand) but it really made me felt like I'm nothing more than just your whatsapp bitch. None of this is your fault though, I suppose, since I didn't tell you anything.

And another thing, my unrequited feelings for you. I know perfectly well we will never get together yet I explicitly chose to remain by your side. "If I can't be his lover, maybe I can be his friend," I thought. But I've grossly underestimated my ability to suppress those feelings. Everytime you complain to me about your r/s problems, I just sit there going, "What is wrong with that guy?! You're an $!^&#*| delight to be around with. Wtf!" Being around you but not being able to be WITH you is just exhausting.

It's so mentally exhausting trying to be your friend yet wanting to your lover at the same time. I dread seeing your msgs popped up even though it made me happy at the same time. I didn't even realize this friendship, if you can even call it that, has become toxic until we argued and stopped talking for a while.

I stop fretting over your msgs. I even stopped listening to sad emo songs about unrecipocrated love for that few weeks lol. I had forgotton about you and I've come to miss how liberating it was when my world didn't revolve around you. And when you msged me again, that was when I realize I couldn't - and I won't - continue this facade of a "friendship" any more.

I've always to wanted to try your tiramisu but I guess it's never gonna happen. Anyway, that's why I have to cut you off. But I'll say this (since you tend to overthink everything), there's nothing wrong with you. Don't let this affect your future r/s kay?

Makes me think of the things I've been through. Although different in a sense but fundamentally the same. I feel you.

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You can complain that roses have thorns, or you can also rejoice that thorns have roses

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I bought a gift for you. Though we don't seem to be moving this *points to both him and I* relationship, or what-should-we-call-this; at the least I'd be glad that I got you a nice gift as a mark of possibly the last time we're meeting.

No birthday card either, because I don't want to remember it so vividly. But happy birthday anyway.

- It's always darkest before the dawn.

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