Diary (Memories Of David)

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I was cleaning my room and I saw this Box inside my wardrobe, a Box I’ve not open for 2 years. This Box supposes to be a present to someone who’s very special to me, is actually for my 1^st love. But this is not going to happen anymore. I’ve been keeping this for years and yes time really helps me a lot. It took me years to put down everything. By right, I am going to tell him how I feel during his 20^th birthday but things changed.

There's a Diary inside the Box.

There's 2 letters, one of them is for his 20th birthday and the other one is love letter. OMG!! ^^

I also made 1000 stars for him! Or should i say i've already said more then a thousand time of "David"? Because when i was folding those stars, i was saying his name at the same time.

Things that's inside the Special Box!

Before I put down everything (feeling), my tears will fall when ever I start reading my Diary. But today I never tear, I’m happy because if is not David I will not be who I am today. If I never get to know him, I won’t know what is Love, I won’t know what is Giving. I still love David but not as a lover, as a friend.

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02 Jan 2008

I received a call this morning, it’s regarding my dad. He was hospitalized! My situation was I’m still in camp (Tekong), I was so worry and I was lost at that point of time! Without any delay I quickly tell my PC and ask for book out! I’m not who I am for the whole day. After the last parade I was told to book out, I look my watch and it was 2150hrs! It’s the ferry so if I’m late I will have to wait till the next day. I reach by 2210hrs, I’ve waited for very! I was extremely worried for my dad. The only thing that was on my mind was, Can I Faster Get Away From This PLACE!! Suddenly I hear a voice, “Hi, are you ok?”. As I look up, I saw a cheerful smile from this guy, his name is David. While on the way back we chat a lot, I feel so much better, finally there’s someone that I can talk to! So I told him everything, I told him that I’m going to the hospital the next morning due to my dad. He pat my back with a smile, his smile was the best “smile” I’ve ever seen! I ask him why he book out at this time? He told me he’s going for a check up, he hurt his leg during training. Luckily it’s a not serious injury. Well, I don’t want him to keep thinking about the “check up” so I’ve changed the topic. It was a 30mins ride but it feels like I’ve already known him for years! We even exchange numbers! It was the best experience I had in taking a ferry from Tekong!! Haha!! We walk together to the bus stop and took the same bus to Pasir Ris Bus interchange. Sadly, it’s time we have to say “bye bye”. Well, that’s life right? So he went to take a train and I move on to Bus, I was looking at his back and it’s getting smaller and smaller and he’s gone. Hope to see you again David! Thanks David! Paa… Jia You! I’m coming tomorrow!

03 Jan 2008

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[Guest Guest]

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[MinWoo]

what you did is something i did before for my ex..would always do little things like this for him..

interesting..would like to read further more =]

[XiaoMessy]

Some things are best not shared.

Some things are best left in memories.

[Longpath]

03 Jan 2008

This morning I went to visit dad and he was ok! That’s great! Just hope that my next book out, I will be able to see him at home. Having a day “OFF” in the hospital what can I do? loLs!! There’s nothing much I can do! Then I start to recall back “Yesterday”, thinking of “is David ok”? Think about what we have said yesterday. It’s pretty funny, even though the both of us are from a different company and we still able to know each another how cool it is! So near yet so far!! Then out of sudden, I got a strong feeling of seeing him again! Haha!! It’s lunchtime, brother ask me to go makan and why not? So the both of us walk to the food court, while walking I’m still thinking about him! What if I see him again? Then suddenly from far, I really see him! OMG serious! Is David!! Is really him! Is DAVID!! My heart almost jumps out! My heartbeat beats so fast like I’ve just finished my 2.4! Suddenly the whole food court went silent, what I can see is only David! It’s so strange, I’ve never felt this way before! Wow although I knew that he will be going for a check up but I didn’t expect to see him here! I was shock! I don’t know how to describe in words! I’m just too happy!! I really hope to see him again!! Alright time to sleep still have to go back to camp tomorrow.. What a great day I had today!! Good Night!! -Cheers!-

03 Jan 2008

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[Guest Easley]

You have very nice handwriting :3

[Wilbur]

Great start for the story

[lonely57]

aww thats so sweet. was david straight or gay? why didnt u give it to him?

[Longpath]

25 Jan 2008

Book out loh!! Almost 3 weeks I never write anything on my Diary! It’s time to update! Well, I’ve already get used to Army life, everything are fine! One of the reasons is because of David too! 3 weeks have past, during this 3 weeks we SMS a lot! We almost SMS every night! Everyday we will receive about 3 SMS from each another, some times can be more some times can be less, although it’s just those casual question like “How are you”, “How’s training” but I’m really happy! I’ve never felt this way before! Every night I will wait for his SMS, sometimes I will wait till I fall asleep! If my phone vibrates during the night I will wake up straight away! It’s even more useful then alarm clock! Haha! The moment I open my eyes, the only thing I wish is to see his name appear on my phone (SMS)! When I see his name that’s it! I can put on a smile for the whole day! He’s the reason why I smile everyday during Army! Is like we are doing the same thing, eating the same food, breathing the same air at the same place. The only thing is we are not “side by side”! But really, that’s enough as long as I know that he’s fine Tomorrow is Saturday! Maybe I can give him a call tomorrow! We don’t have chance to chat on the phone during weekdays! Let’s do it tomorrow! Haha! Time to sleep!

26 Jan 2008

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01 Jan 2008

Wow! I’m going out with David on the 9^th! Oh YES!! Really! only the both of us! I’m so happy right now! I can’t even fall asleep!! Really very very very happy!! Extraordinary Happy!! Haha! Is like my Dream come true! I wanted this day for so long and it’s next week! I’m already so nervous right now! It’s out 1^st outing since the day we known each another! How special it is to spend a day with him!! How I wish today is 8^th Jan! Like before, we still SMS almost every night! It have already become a habit to me, I can’t fall asleep without SMS him! I will always wait for his reply then I go to sleep, it’s already path of my life It’s a daily routine! Slowly slowly, David has occupy part of my life, an impotency of him have slowly grown! Now I’ve already started to miss him! It’s that call Love? I don’t dare to think so much right now! I just want everything to stay the same! See you next week David!

-Smile-

02 Jan 2008

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[Longpath]

You have very nice handwriting :3

Thanks Easley!

[Longpath]

aww thats so sweet. was david straight or gay? why didnt u give it to him?

You will get to know soon

[Longpath]

09 Feb 2008

The best day ever! Today is the first day of me and David going for an outing together! We had the best lunch together at Plaza Sing! Why best lunch? Because is with him! The first time I feel that Yoshinoya’s food is so yummy! I was so nervous the whole day! I can even feel my heartbeats! My eyes are like magnet and he’s the metal! I just keep looking at him! How can I “not to look” at him? Haha!! After lunch we went to a café and we spend the next 2hrs there chatting and a little bit of joke. Time always flies very fast, because both of us have something important in the evening so we only spend about 4hrs together but this 4hrs means a lot to me! To me this 4hrs is a gift! Is like I’ve live for so long just for this 4hrs! loLs! I just felt this way! I can see him smiling the whole day too! His smile is my medicine! Just by seeing his Smile I can be energetic the whole day! It’s always time to say “good bye”. After we left he send a SMS to me saying “Thank you” Thanks me for spending a day with him! I feel amazing! He’s happy with me! I believe I will get to see him again very soon! Cya David!!

10 Feb 2008

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Edited December 21, 2012 by Longpath

[ashtonxia]

So sweeeeeeeeeettttttt *melting*

[EasleyLim]

Cynic in me is expecting some sort of sad twist coming up.

[stackhouse]

Thanks and please share with us more! I love reading some of the post here and your's one of them!

[Longpath]

16 Feb 2008

This week was a busy week for us because we have our SOC and IPPT Etc Etc…. Almost every night not enough sleep. I don’t like SOC! Everything but SOC, every times when come to SOC I will “Sian” to the Max! Look at all the obstacle I “SIGH” inside my heart. But this time round is different! As we move over to SOC I saw another company using the training area too! Meaning we will be doing the same SOC, which I don’t feel good because I’m not very good at it. I have to face it anyway. It’s my turn, as we get ready, as per usual I will look left and right.As I turn to my left, well the same old face.. As I turn to my right, my eyes was opened so BIG, I saw David standing at the same row on the other side! I smiled! This is the 1^st time I will be doing SOC together with him! It feel so honored doing SOC together with him! I love that kind of feeling! Doing SOC together leh!! Wohoo!! I’ve never thought of that before! I had my best SOC record so far just because I’m doing it together with him! I start to enjoy SOC, enjoying that moment and I really did my best to keep up to his pace!

I also had my IPPT this week! Usually my 2.4km are always just pass but I’ve been thinking of something during the run, if he can manage to finish his 2.4km within a good timing so can I! So I challenge myself, visualizing him by my side running together, what kind of speed I have to achieve? Without any hesitation I did a good record on my 2.4km! Haha! I think if next time I’m facing anything probs just think of him Jiu Hao (will do)! Hahahaa!! I love Tekong!!

17 Feb 2008

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01 Mar 2008

Today, I’ve received a call from David, he told me a lot. It’s about his studies, I know that he want to go back to his study and rejoin the army after that and they also give him this option. I know he want it badly but there’s always a risk. As we talk about it some negative thoughts starts to “fall in”, we spend a few hours on the phone and I did my best to help him. I know he really want to go back, he just needs someone to push him, need someone to encourage him so I did. I’m so happy that he finally has the courage to move on! To follow his heart on what he wants! I feel happy for you David! All the best for you!!

02 Mar 2008

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[Guest Guest]

Hey why stop with the sharing of the stories :(

[Longpath]

16 Mar 2008

This day we went out again! How happy can I be to go out with him again! Some how he’s already part of my life, someone I don’t want to let go. Even if he only treating me as a normal friend that’s enough, really! But this time, there’s some changes, he ask me to bring a few friends along so we can play some games such as CS L4D etc etc.. But that’s not a reason to stop me for seeing him! I will make use of every opportunity just to see David again! Even if it’s only for a few mins! Every time I hear his voice, all my tiredness will all be gone! Yes! He’s that powerful! Even after he put down the phone that kind of energy will remain in my body! Alright I’m going to call him now and I’ll see him on the train! Such a wonderful day!! Haha!!

16 Mar 2008

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17 Mar 2008

Wow! It’s such a great day! It’s already so late and I still can’t fall asleep! I’ve decided to write down everything hopefully I can fall asleep after this. Haha! Today we went to Plaza Sing and we had our lunch together! I’ve decided to go to Yashinoya again because there are good memories between me and David! When I 1^st step into the train, the 1^st Smile I saw was from David! If there’s a potion that can turn the whole world into green, he will be the potion that clear away the darkness inside me and turn them into light! I really love his Smile so much and I will never forget about this day! His Smile. Every time when I start to think about him, there’s this power that keep pushing me asking me not to give up! I have to keep going! Although I know I’m not what he’s looking for but I will still want to keep this kind of friendship.

17 Mar 2008

0313hrs

[Longpath]

Hey why stop with the sharing of the stories :(

I'm sorry, was very busy recently. Thanks for reading my post, stay tune

[Guest Jeremy]

Write more please, it's very interesting!!

[Longpath]

Hi Everyone! Im so sorry for the sudden stop.

For some personally reason i've stop logging in to BW for almost a year till recently i saw so many people supporting me. Will keep updating until the last page of my Diary. Greatly appreciate your support.

Edited June 17, 2014 by Longpath

[Longpath]

what you did is something i did before for my ex..would always do little things like this for him..

interesting..would like to read further more =]

 

Hi Everyone! Im so sorry for the sudden stop. 

For some personally reason i've stop logging in to BW for almost a year till recently i saw so many people supporting me. Will keep updating until the last page of my Diary. Greatly appreciate your support. 

BW is getting exciting with people sharing their life stories. Share your diary with us

 

Hi Everyone! Im so sorry for the sudden stop. 

For some personally reason i've stop logging in to BW for almost a year till recently i saw so many people supporting me. Will keep updating until the last page of my Diary. Greatly appreciate your support. 

Edited June 17, 2014 by Longpath

[Longpath]

Hi Everyone! Im so sorry for the sudden stop. 

For some personally reason i've stop logging in to BW for almost a year till recently i saw so many people supporting me. Will keep updating until the last page of my Diary. Greatly appreciate your support. 

You have very nice handwriting :3

Great start for the story

aww thats so sweet. was david straight or gay? why didnt u give it to him?

So sweeeeeeeeeettttttt *melting*

Hey why stop with the sharing of the stories :(

Write more please, it's very interesting!!

Edited June 17, 2014 by Longpath

[Longpath]

! Hello Hello !

 

Welcome to my Little Diary! I have been writing Diary for a few years time,

although i'm not a very good language person but writing Diary is my habit. 

 

Previously I've opened a Topic sharing my Diary as well but for some reason i've stop logging in BW for almost a year till recently, 

i saw that some people are still interested to hear from me and that's one of the reason i am here.

I hope some parts of my story can help you on your daily!

 

 

 Enjoy your time here and give Like for supporting 

[Guest Diary bug]

 

! Hello Hello !

 

Welcome to my Little Diary! I have been writing Diary for a few years time,

although i'm not a very good language person but writing Diary is my habit. 

 

Previously I've opened a Topic sharing my Diary as well but for some reason i've stop logging in BW for almost a year till recently, 

i saw that some people are still interested to hear from me and that's one of the reason i am here.

I hope some parts of my story can help you on your daily!

 

 

 Enjoy your time here and give Like for supporting 

 

I have been writing diary since 1990s....now my diary books have accumulated so many I don't know how to store them. 

[Longpath]

I have been writing diary since 1990s....now my diary books have accumulated so many I don't know how to store them. 

 

PDF! HAHA!

[Guest Guest]

Thanks for sharing, I cannot wait for your next posting

[Guest david]

16 Feb 2008

This week was a busy week for us because we have our SOC and IPPT Etc Etc…. Almost every night not enough sleep. I don’t like SOC! Everything but SOC, every times when come to SOC I will “Sian” to the Max! Look at all the obstacle I “SIGH” inside my heart. But this time round is different! As we move over to SOC I saw another company using the training area too! Meaning we will be doing the same SOC, which I don’t feel good because I’m not very good at it. I have to face it anyway. It’s my turn, as we get ready, as per usual I will look left and right.As I turn to my left, well the same old face.. As I turn to my right, my eyes was opened so BIG, I saw David standing at the same row on the other side! I smiled! This is the 1st time I will be doing SOC together with him! It feel so honored doing SOC together with him! I love that kind of feeling! Doing SOC together leh!! Wohoo!! I’ve never thought of that before! I had my best SOC record so far just because I’m doing it together with him! I start to enjoy SOC, enjoying that moment and I really did my best to keep up to his pace! I also had my IPPT this week! Usually my 2.4km are always just pass but I’ve been thinking of something during the run, if he can manage to finish his 2.4km within a good timing so can I! So I challenge myself, visualizing him by my side running together, what kind of speed I have to achieve? Without any hesitation I did a good record on my 2.4km! Haha! I think if next time I’m facing anything probs just think of him Jiu Hao (will do)! Hahahaa!! I love Tekong!!

[G_M]

You don't need to start another topic.

Just continues from where you left off.

[Longpath]

You don't need to start another topic.

Just continues from where you left off.

 

 

Thank you so much!

[Longpath]

01 Mar 2008

 

Today, I’ve received a call from David, he told me a lot. It’s about his studies, I know that he want to go back to his study and rejoin the army after that and they also give him this option. I know he want it badly but there’s always a risk. As we talk about it some negative thoughts starts to “fall in”, we spend a few hours on the phone and I did my best to help him. I know he really want to go back, he just needs someone to push him, need someone to encourage him so I did. I’m so happy that he finally has the courage to move on! To follow his heart on what he wants! I feel happy for you David! All the best for you!!

 

 

02 Mar 2008

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16 Mar 2008

 

Today I am going out with you again! I am so happy and feel so fortunate to be able to go out with you again! Some how you are already part of my life, someone that I don’t dare to let go. Even if you are only treating me as a casual friend that’s good enough, really! This time, the outing has some changes, he ask me to bring a few friends along so we can play some games together such as CS L4D etc etc.. I was a quiet disappointed, I always treasure the time we had together, especially the moment just the two of us. But that will not be the reason to stop me for seeing you! I will make use of every opportunity just to see you again! Even if just for that few mins! It worth more then anything! Every time it’s a gift, I will treasure the time we had together. I only need one reason to thank “Today” and it will you. ^^ Haha alright it’s time to leave my house now! I don’t want to be late! Not for today! Can’t wait to see you David!

 

 

16 Mar 2008

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[charvo87]

8th mar 2008 was my POP. After that we were all involved in the MSK search.

[Longpath]

8th mar 2008 was my POP. After that we were all involved in the MSK search.

 

Mine was 3 weeks after yours, you from which company?

[Longpath]

17 Mar 2008

 

Haha! It’s such an awesome day! It’s already so late and yet I still can’t fall asleep! Since I am still so energetic let’s write down what happened today! Hopefully I can sleep after this. Haha! Today we went to Plaza Sing and we had our lunch together! I’ve decided to go to Yashinoya again because there are good memories between me and David! When I first step into the train, the first thing I see is his beautiful Smile! When he smiles at me, I feel like I am melting and I stone for a moment until someone pushed me then I notice I am still outside the train. Haha!  A bit malu sia xD. If there’s a potion that can turn the whole world into green, he will be the potion that clear away the darkness inside me and turn them into light! I really love his Smile so much! How can I forget about “Today”! Every time when I start thinking about him, I will smile to myself and start my day dream. loLs! That keep motivated and pushing me asking me not to give up! I have to keep going! Although I know I’m not what he’s looking for but I will still do my best!

 

 

17 Mar 2008

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04 Apr 2008

 

It seem that everything are going accordingly, his studies and the friends around him are friend and they helps him along the way too! I really feel great after knowing this. Theirs isn’t much happen this few weeks because he’s busy with his stuff and I really want to give him concentrate on his work. I’ll catch up with him soon! Jia You David!

 

 

04 Apr 2008

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04 Jun 2008

 

On 04 Jun 2008, today I’m in Brunei, my first time travelling to over seas for training. The first thing I get from Brunei camp is a fever up to 38.8’C. Must be the weather here la So hot. But still have to move everything to the camp. That’s suck! There are so many things to do! Running here and there, this and that! Everyone like going crazy! = = loLs! The people there treat us well, we never forget about the Water Parade! My temperature still very high, 38.8’C then bo bian lor, I have to go MC. Not a bad thing la! I can sleep in the Air Conditional room for 3 days! Feeling awesome!! Haha! The weather is really bad, afternoon and can be really hot and cold in the evening. Buay Ta Han liao! I miss Singapore so much! I need my bed and really sian, MC no people to talk to! I miss my family! I miss my friends also! I miss David!

 

 

04 Jun 2008

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15 Dec 2008

 

All this months have passed and I’m getting used to Army life. Don’t have to worry so much on what to do everyday because most of the things are nicely planed for us and we just have to follow.  loLs!

 

It has been a few month, we didn’t contact each another, most likely due to his studies because that will be his biggest goal for now. Although so many months have passed he’s still on my mind. So many Gentlemen in camp surrounded me but my eyes will never be on them. I still think that David is the only one I will have to put my eyes on. Haha!

 

 

16 Dec 2008

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08 Feb 2009

 

Today, I had a great time with my friends. We never see each another for very long time since Secondary. Time flies really fast and now everyone have their own path. When come to dinner time, we have many many ideas on what to eat, because too many ideas so we played a game, we write down numbers from 1 – 9 and we fold it, the one that pick the biggest number will have the final decision. Haha! The answer is out! That shop is very meaningful to me, because it’s the first time we both meet up during our outing. Idk why but for that day like something is in my mind very complicated feeling. I also notice that so many months have passed I still cannot forget about him. Haha idk la see how la loLs!

 

 

08 Feb 2009

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12 Apr 2009

 

HAHAHAA! Early morning I receive SMS, my eyes still blur blur because yesterday sleep very late was out with friends. Eyes still half open when I see my phone. D_ _ _ _ , look carefully again. What! David?! I almost fly off from my bed! And still blur blur what’s going on! Haha! He text to check how am I and we text for awhile, glad to hear that everything is ok for him I’m very happy for him too! After so long he still remember me! I am so touch by it! I rolled on my bed like rolling the Sushi! My mother walk by my room and said, you siao ah. Haha!! I think I really siao liao! Ke Siao somemore! HAHAHAA!! Thanks for concern David! Hope we could have the time to text or chat again Cheers!!

 

 

12 Apr 2009

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26 April 2010

 

Today I almost late to school! I Woke up late and only have 10mins to get myself ready! Luckily the bus just nice reach the bus stop if not jia lat liao. loLs! But then still late for 5mins la. Haha! Last week my friend intro this guy to me, his name is Sean. He always text me during the night and end with a “Hug” on almost every chat. Maybe I’m not used to it and we only start chatting for days. Some how I still think of David, I am sorry Sean. I am sure you can find someone better then me de

 

 

27 April 2010

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06 August 2010

 

Today I meet up with some of my friends for a movie, most of them couple couple, look at them so Rou Ma see liao also Buay Ta Han them. Haha but is really lovely to see them like this. I really do wish to be in a LTR but until now, I sometime still think about him. I know I should change but this is not something u want to let go, you will let go. I think I just need more time to do so. I remember a sentence from one of the show, you can still keep the feeling toward the person you love but still you have to move on! Compare to last time, now I can control my feeling towards him, just sometime will miss him.

 

 

06 Aug 2010

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22 Sep 2010

 

Holiday coming soon! It’s a good time to take a break after so long. But still there’s so much work need to be done during the Holiday! zZzz.. Yesterday I also did something lo. Haha I just sign up Trevvy account! Maybe when I get to know more people from this circle I may not think of him anymore. Haha give it a try!

 

 

23 Sep 2010

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06 August 2010

 

Today I meet up with some of my friends for a movie, most of them couple couple, look at them so Rou Ma see liao also Buay Ta Han them. Haha but is really lovely to see them like this. I really do wish to be in a LTR but until now, I sometime still think about him. I know I should change but this is not something u want to let go, you will let go. I think I just need more time to do so. I remember a sentence from one of the show, you can still keep the feeling toward the person you love but still you have to move on! Compare to last time, now I can control my feeling towards him, just sometime will miss him.

 

 

06 Aug 2010

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22 Sep 2010

 

Holiday coming soon! It’s a good time to take a break after so long. But still there’s so much work need to be done during the Holiday! zZzz.. Yesterday I also did something lo. Haha I just sign up Trevvy account! Maybe when I get to know more people from this circle I may not think of him anymore. Haha give it a try!

 

 

23 Sep 2010

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28 Oct 2010

 

It’s been a month! Haha! Many good things have happened, my study my sub job etc everything just happen at the right time! I am getting more and more lucky? Haha! Not only those, today I had dinner with David too! Haha it’s always been a good time to see him! Every time when I see his smile my heart will melt, I like to look into his eyes when he talk to me, I can feel my heart beats “Bi Po Bi Po” haha! Just couldn’t control this kind of feeling although we meet up on and off but I really don’t mind! To me he is the one! I really love you David! Really! But I am sorry I got no courage to tell you because I know you are never into guys. Hehe anyway it was a great day! I will keep your smile my mind every time when I feel bad I will take it out and everything will be okay Good Night!

 

28 Oct 2010

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01 Nov 2010

 

Good news good news!! Today the school has announced that I will be the President of School of (cannot say)! Today is really an awesome day! The result of my hard work and should keep it up! Haha! My friend went to celebrate with me too! But I also hope that David can celebrate this moment together with me too! If David you where here Anyway I will do my best de! Jia you!

 

 

01 Nov 2010

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06 Nov 2010

 

WooHoo! Today I enjoyed myself so much together with David! It’s an Awesome Day! We laugh so much, we joke so much! How I wish every day will be the same, just to see your smile I can tell from his eyes and the smile that shows from his face, he’s also having a great day! My eyes just couldn’t get away from you! If the lyric from “Carpenters - Close to you” ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFx-5PGLgb4 ) is true, then that person will be you! You are just perfect, even if there is a mistake, in my eyes they are still perfect! Thank you David, thank you for appearing in my life, thanks for giving me a meaningful life! Because of you I know what is Love and I really Love you Thanks for making this day happening, I really appreciate it! I don’t know when will be the next day we seeing each another again but you inside my heart, there is a place just for you. Oh and one last thing! Today we took a photo together! This is the first time we take a photo together! I’m so over joyed and I even printed out the photo so that I can put it inside my wallet! Haha this is my little secret! I hope that this day will come, the both of us can take photo everyday!

 

 

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11 Nov 2010

 

Today is Thursday le! I still remember 5 days ago we both go out together, all the things that happen even into the very details of hat we’ve done together! It’s such a nice and sweet moment and only must be with you then can have this kind of feeling and emotion! I really miss you so much, I really wish that everyday I can see you! I even thought of our future if we both were together! Haha! Both of us sitting on a white sofa watching our favorite show, with you by my side. It’s just that simple and beautiful. This is also one of the reason why I am so motivate to keep this dream and believe in it. I always think that as long I don’t change my mind one day you will understand why I am doing this. I really believe one day we can be together. You are the only one I am walling to wait for, I don’t know how you think about me, maybe I am just a simple friend of yours but I also know that everyone start from friend! I am sorry that I don’t have the courage to tell you how I feel, I scare one day you will avoid me. If that’s the case I rather everything don’t change, just remain like this. If one day we are really together, I will pass this Diary to you and no longer how I feel, it will be how WE feel! Hehe love you so much David!

 

 

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18 Dec 2010

 

One month have passed, quiet a number of things happened. I am getting used of my role in school as a president, still there are many challenges I have to over come. So really have to Jia You liao! “The power of spoken words”, I always apply this what ever I do and always believe things can be done, maybe it’s because of this I am who I am today. I will keep on doing this and believe in things that I am doing. And of course I hope this are able to help in my relationship as well ^^ Also because of these I keep having the believe that we still got chance! So I will keep doing what ever I am doing, just to keep connected with you. Yup I called him yesterday and we spoke on the phone for so long! His voice is most beautiful music I’ve ever heard! This music can calm me down and sometime can drive me crazy! Every time I listen to this music will have different experience! He is the album and I am interested to listen even if there is only one song! This song to me is “every song”. Sometime I will dream of us, side by side on the beach seeing the sunrises. We don’t have to say a single a word, just by looking at each another eyes we can clearly read each another mind. Can you read my mind by looking into my eyes David?

 

 

 

18 Dec 2010

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01 Jan 2011

 

2010 have come to an end, let’s welcome 2011! Today suppose to be a happy day where by many people will celebrate this special day. Maybe today is not for me, didn’t have a chance to celebrate this special day with you.

 

 

02 Jan 2011

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12 Jan 2011

 

 

Recently many things happen in school, just found out that a few of them putting poison, they are unhappy of me posting on my own FB that I am the president. Come On la! I post things on my own FB page 干你们屁事啊! If don’t like then come replace me la, you think my role so easy ah, if is not me and my team you guys can enjoy all the events etc? Even if you guys don’t like and what can you do? If cannot then go Suck Thumb! loLs! Class event also do until so Jia Lat end up also me and my friends help u all clean backside! 没有那么大的头 就不要带那么大的帽子! zZzz..

 

Haiz don’t let this kind of thing affect my day! Haha! Anyway I feel so much better after talking this over the phone with David. He really helped me a lot. He courage me to move on and don’t listen to them too much, he said he always believe in me. At that moment I feel so touch, I will do eve better de! At the end of the conversation I said “Hi 5” to him and he reply me with a “Piap” (the sound effect when u clap your hand. Haha! It’s a bit funny and I laughed at it also. It’s always good to see your SMS David! 我真的无药可救了. Your exam coming soon so must Jia You do your best!

 

 

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13 Jan 2011

 

Although now is only Jan but I’ve already start planning for his Birthday! Still got 6 months to go but I like to plain ahead, I don’t like last min! I hope I can be the first person to wish him Happy Birthday face to face, I don’t know if by then I will have the courage but I still plain first! Maybe by then I find an opportunity leh? Hehe. I’m still thinking of what to get for him on that special day! Maybe I can do something.

 

 

13 Jan 2011

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25 Jan 2011

 

Today I’ve finally make a big step to David, I really scare to do this but if I really have to have our own tomorrow I need to let him know about the real me. This is the first time I open to him, I told him that I’m Gay, I also don’t know where this courage come from but I just did. After I told him, I am so scare that he will stop contacting me, when I was waiting for him reply my heart beats really fast and I’ve start to regret by telling him about this. He’s reply was shocking to me! He said he don’t mind at all! Instate he’s happy of me being honest. I suddenly feel that the big stone that burden is gone! The feeling is very different now! 我很开心！

 

 

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29 Jan 2011

 

Chinese New Year is coming soon! It’s time to send some New Year Cards out which I have already did few days ago! Something I wasn’t expected happen, I saw a SMS from David because he have receive the CNY card, he is the only one who send me this message, now I think back, at that moment I really stone for s awhile, it last for a few seconds and suddenly both side of my lips went up. I Smiled! And that last the whole day! 我觉得我是最幸福的人! 谢谢你让我那么幸福！ 谢谢你在我的脸上 放上开心的笑容。我觉得我已经离不开你了。我好开心认识你 除了谢谢我不知道该讲什么了。谢谢你！

 

 

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16 Feb 2011

 

 

Today I feel like Shit! Today I’m not myself! I’m speechless on myself and disappointed! Today David states changed! He was attached with a guy! I’m so regret that I didn’t tell him about my feeling! I don’t what to say anymore. Just SUCK…….

 

 

16 Feb 2011

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17 Feb 2011

 

 

I am not who I am today, I’m so tired didn’t manage to sleep since yesterday. I got no mood to go to school, still I drag my feet there just like a zombie. I’m very lost and I can’t focus in school. I’m feeling really bad it’s so hard to put on a smile. I somehow manage to survive today. I missed my bus, my bus stops and I don’t know what will happen next. I feeling happy yet sad. Why so? I am happy because David found the one he love the most and sad because he’s not me. I really can’t take it anymore! There are things I need to make sure of! I must make sure that the one he chooses is it really the best person for him. So once I reach home I ask him about it! Before I tell him how I feel about him, he tells me something. It’s a news, good and bad. The good news is he tells me that he’s not gay and that states is to test his other friends how they react to it, I suddenly feel that I cannot live without him, it’s too painful for me. Bad news is that he’s not gay, I really don’t know what to do. 是喜也是哀。

 

 

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11 March 2011

 

Today 11 March, I’m feeling sad due to the Tsunami attack. Many lives were gone and majority of them are still missing. It comes so fast just a blink of an eye the whole city was overwhelm by the seawater. According to the news, this Tsunami will move forward to Taiwan and more people will die. I really hope that this Tsunami will end asap! I will do prayer and hope lesser people in pain.

 

 

 

12 March 2011

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12 March 2011

 

While I was sleeping I feeling the vibration from my phone, I click to display the screen with my eyes half open. It was 6:15am, message from David. I was so worry and I quickly give him a call because ha have never SMS me at this time plus what has happen just now the Tsunami. Luckily nothing bad happen. Everyone on FB posting stuff saying the world are coming to the end, I turn on to YES 933 and many people start to treasure time with their love ones. I start to think what will I do if that day were to come? I will thank my family and friends and give them the best memory. I also want to spend one more day with David, I got so many so many things to tell him, I’ve never hold a guy’s hand and never had a chance to prepare a nice meal for him. You are so important to me. Now I only hope everything will be fine, idk will Tsunami come to Singapore or not I just hope all my loved ones will be safe. As long as they lived that’s all I ask for.

 

 

 

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23 March 2011

 

一波未平 一波又起, I’ve finally have the courage to hold onto my pen to write down the things I want to in my Diary. I am kind of lost for the past few days and I don’t know how to over come it. I tried to make myself busy, 小小的房间可以整理一天 好了再从头来过 就是不给我自己停下来。 I am happy for you David because you have found your other half, I saw your girlfriend on facebook and the both of you are very happy with each another. I then realize that there are something no matter how hard I try, can never fulfill. I also don’t know why, sometime I will think this way, if one day because of me you choose to walk this path will you be happy? Being one my us are not easy, even marriage can’t hold two person together what about us? Gay’s path are not easy to walk, people will look at us differently. I don’t know if I can manage this well but I will keep this secret to myself. You have already found the person to walk this journey with you, but I still hope that sometime when you are tired I can still be the Bus Stop for you to take a break sit down and relax.

 

 

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你好吗？希望现在的你是个开心快乐的人。我有好多话想告诉你，但是不能告诉你 所以我选择用写的方式。 你过得好吗？ 一切都顺利吗？ 有想过我吗？ 其实我很想你 每天都会想到你。 你的眼神 你的笑容 没有一天离开过我的脑海里。自从那天 知道你有了女朋友后 我都神不守舍 不知如何是好。我都告诉知己 自要你过得开心 在不在一起也无所谓。嘴里是呢么说 但心里真的是那样想的吗？ 我脑里想的都是你。 我不想那样 我又尝试的去忘记你 但每当我一闭上眼 脑里浮现的都是你， 一张一张和你一起度过的日子。时间虽短 却是我最难忘日子 回忆 那么的难忘。开心看到你的笑容 能爱到你是我觉得最快乐的事 也是最痛苦的悲。看到你开心就是我快乐的理由。

 

 

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21 April 2011

 

Today like any other day, I will send messages to encourage my family and friends. On 6pm, I received a SMS from David.

 

David: Wah CK! Your SMSs always encourage me at the most appropriate times. I had a presentation today Haha! And it went well (:

 

I am really touched and happy, he mention about “always” so does that mean every time? I think what I have done so far was not nothing. I am still able to contribute even though we are not side-by-side. I will still carry on to do what I think is right. Must Jia You okay! Will wait for your good news! (:

 

 

22 April 2011

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13 May 2011

 

I always feel that everything happen for a reason. Yesterday I SMS him and ask him whether is he free for meet up because I will be somewhere near his house to purchase something and we decided to meet up for dinner. As I was waiting for him, I receive another SMS from him saying that he’s stuck up with some problem and ask me if I am still there. I replied him that I have already left the place and ask him not to worry about it. I don’t want him to feel bad that I have to wait for him and end up he will have to rush and it’s not what I want. I also notice that sometimes when things doesn’t happen the way you plain, you have to make changes on yourself. It’s really time for me to change, I don’t know how long it will take but I have to move on.

 

 

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25 May 2011

 

This whole week was chaotic! Test, assignments and still got presentation to our Director tomorrow. Confident have liao but still have to make sure my other assignment are up there too. Recently I cone across this song, the song title is call 爱都是对的 by胡夏 （ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAFgV6GgbjU ）. Part of the lyric is really meaningful and it reflects on me a lot.

 

Lyric:

回憶是記者 它會挖出不為人知的寂寞 每一個人的以前 住在心裡 像事後的孤兒.

 

Suddenly my eyes start to wet again, I still remember how we meet. How Falcon meet Dragon on the “Penguin” from that Jetty. But all are past, I’ve told myself before as long as you are happy, I will be happy. Even if I have the courage now I will not say, I will not destroy your happiness and I cannot be the selfish one. I am sorry I did not tell you earlier. Because I am different from other, what you need is Coffee and I am just Tea, I can never be your first priority. I did try to my very best to forget everything but feeling is always there. Your smile is always there to encourage me. I will step back and swallow every single drop of my tear and move on!

 

 

26 May 2011

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The first phase of my Journey ends here, sometimes when I think about my past 那种傻傻的爱, it’s just that simple and also naïve. Now as we grow up, things become more complicated we kind of lost, what is love? Love is no longer you love me or I love you emotionally, the society change us to become someone who is very "physically materialistic". We believe what we see first then we choose weather to gain feeling with that person, isn’t true love should be the other way round? We usually compare who is better who is worse, what if we were given the best of the best? Is that really what we want? Is it really that important who is better then who? If we really love that person even a mistake on them can easily be a bonus to us, if we were look at things differently.

 

 

I also started the second phase of my journey, it’s call the “Last Page”

 

Last Page - http://www.blowingwind.org/forum/index.php?showtopic=52355

 

Thanks for your Support! See you at my "Last Page"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Thank you Manipulationz for your support! Today will be the last post of Me and David. If you are interested to know more come to see my "Last Page"! Once again thanks for your support and have a great day ahead! Cheers!

 

Last Page - http://www.blowingwind.org/forum/index.php?showtopic=52355

[justjk]

Hey Longpath, this thread is great !!

Thank you for sharing your stories with us .

[Longpath]

Hey Longpath, this thread is great !!

Thank you for sharing your stories with us .

 

Thank you for spending your time here (:

 

Have a great day ahead!