koganei83 Posted November 20, 2015 Report Share Posted November 20, 2015 i guess it is kind of pathetic that i am still evergreen at over 30. i dont think im hideous and i think my personality is ok to people who did not offend me. and i have got people confessing to me before. oh well... there is actually a long long story to it and yes, part of it definitely is because of being in the closet. not sure why i am typing this here but i have been having insomnia and part of it is because i am thinking i am slowly losing all my memories of past crushes and that is somehow sad. ok, getting depressing. maybe will tell my life story every little bit (if i still cant sleep everyday) just to vent and hope for imaginary audience. anyway, anyone else in the same situation like me? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yoyo74 Posted November 21, 2015 Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 If u need to say something just say it out lol, not worth getting insomnia and depression. But remember after u vent something in a public forum, u may get either positive or negative responce so just be ready for it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Guest Posted November 21, 2015 Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 Pardon me, 30 already is evergreen. Then 40 50? Supergreen and Ultragreen? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted November 21, 2015 Author Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 Pardon me, 30 already is evergreen. Then 40 50? Supergreen and Ultragreen? 50 is bare le... no more hairIf u need to say something just say it out lol, not worth getting insomnia and depression. But remember after u vent something in a public forum, u may get either positive or negative responce so just be ready for it. haha... it's more of lazy to type and to organize it so that it is coherent. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dankfq Posted November 21, 2015 Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 Pardon me, 30 already is evergreen. Then 40 50? Supergreen and Ultragreen? i think his "evergreen" means: never been in a relationship? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted November 21, 2015 Author Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 anyway, i had a crush on army sergeant for the longest time. i kind of think it is unhealthy and regret some of the things said because of what happened. I think he was my first real crush. And i think he knows (maybe because i cant help staring) because he had told me he wanted to 'do' me and i just did not want to say yes and then be ridiculed as gay. i do not think he is gay but i really really hope to have an answer. and i do know where is his fb profile but i just dont know should i add him? if i do, am i being pathetic and scary? if i dont, i guess i will never ever know the ans of why did he want to ridicule me or was he interested as well... life sucks when u are a coward and couldnt just YOLO. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blue Frog Posted November 21, 2015 Report Share Posted November 21, 2015 What exactly is " still evergreen at over 30 "??Or you actually mean "green"? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yoyo74 Posted November 22, 2015 Report Share Posted November 22, 2015 anyway, i had a crush on army sergeant for the longest time. i kind of think it is unhealthy and regret some of the things said because of what happened. I think he was my first real crush. And i think he knows (maybe because i cant help staring) because he had told me he wanted to 'do' me and i just did not want to say yes and then be ridiculed as gay. i do not think he is gay but i really really hope to have an answer. and i do know where is his fb profile but i just dont know should i add him? if i do, am i being pathetic and scary? if i dont, i guess i will never ever know the ans of why did he want to ridicule me or was he interested as well... life sucks when u are a coward and couldnt just YOLO.If u also like to do him than you should agree. If he turns out to be straight and tries to ridicule u than u can say its a joke since he is the one who started first. You can easily twist back your words since hes the one starting it. If he says hes testing u than u can also say the same back to him so he will never got chance to ridicule u. Btw today got YOLO run and its a shirtless run so if u want to train your bravery go on a shirtless run first lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 What exactly is " still evergreen at over 30 "??Or you actually mean "green"? means never been in a relationship pathetic i know Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 If u also like to do him than you should agree. If he turns out to be straight and tries to ridicule u than u can say its a joke since he is the one who started first. You can easily twist back your words since hes the one starting it. If he says hes testing u than u can also say the same back to him so he will never got chance to ridicule u. Btw today got YOLO run and its a shirtless run so if u want to train your bravery go on a shirtless run first lol. true, but it is a bit too late. i still kind of pin for him and i just feeling lonely... kind of sad. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wintersnow Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 start to be more activeget to know more people, engage in more activities and you should see some lighti knew of a few friends in your situations as well so dont give up. you are not alone Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 yah, i guess it is hard to come out and i am not sociable as well. wanted to join some events where i can meet more gay people but quite apprehensive. never really thought about going suana and such and in fact dont know how to.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wintersnow Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 u should join social events. really, although i had been single for years but i've met nice people during social events. there are a couple of them like bw anniversary etc...... you should try and who knows, you may meet someone you like Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 but then again, i also have low self-confidence and i guess i am also afraid of being shunned.... it is all my fault really Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wintersnow Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 (edited) its just a social event. you can always make more friends and get to know more people. no one will go there and ask you to be his bf right away. i mean if there is a particular guy that you like and would like to keep in contact, you can do so and who knows what can happen and develop in future. if nothing happens, you made a new friend i think by this time if you are still not doing anything then very soon you may not get anything anymore i am also beginning to worry about being alone and so on now but at least im trying to do something so at least if i dont have a partner for future, i would have a wider network of friends to be with Edited December 2, 2015 by wintersnow Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fab Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 Chastity is a virtue. Dont be ashame. Quote 鍾意就好，理佢男定女 never argue with the guests. let them bark all they want. 结缘不结怨 解怨不解缘 After I have said what I wanna say, I don't care what you say. 看穿不说穿 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
upshot Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 "Your age doesn’t define your maturity, your grades don’t define your intellect, and rumors don’t define who you are" Quote ** Comments are my opinions, same as yours. It's not a 'Be-All-and-End-All' view. Intent's to thought-provoke, validate, reiterate and yes, even correct. Opinion to consider but agree to disagree. I don't enjoy conflicted exchanges, empty bravado or egoistical chest pounding. It's never personal, tribalistic or with malice. Frank by nature, means, I never bend the truth. Views are to broaden understanding - Updated: Nov 2021. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
darkflame Posted December 2, 2015 Report Share Posted December 2, 2015 (edited) The first thing I don't get is how evergreen is defined.Green as in a green horn?As some phrase it, "Life begins at 30." Edited December 2, 2015 by darkflame Quote I'm always running after you. You are my ideal. You are me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 3, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 3, 2015 The first thing I don't get is how evergreen is defined.Green as in a green horn?As some phrase it, "Life begins at 30." Evergreen – originating from the Traffic Light game usually played in tertiary institutions in Singapore, evergreen indicates a never-before-attached relationship status - See more at: https://scriggler.com/SharePost/Opinion?cash=0066aa01d8810dcc89ba6e0c54753652#sthash.Jih0AMcR.dpuf but i over 30... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wintersnow Posted December 3, 2015 Report Share Posted December 3, 2015 if the 83 denotes your year, you are only 32 this year i knew many guys even older than you are still single and had not given up hope. you are still young and not alone so stop being so negative Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Guest Posted December 3, 2015 Report Share Posted December 3, 2015 if the 83 denotes your year, you are only 32 this yeari knew many guys even older than you are still single and had not given up hope. you are still young and not alone so stop being so negativeMe! And I am not really ashamed or sad about it, haha. Once in a while may emo a bit but life still goes on. TS must be feeling down because he cannot be with the guy he has a crush on. Who has not experienced this before? I am sure most of us had. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FirsTimer Posted December 4, 2015 Report Share Posted December 4, 2015 Do well, you will get a wife and showcase us different life story some day Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 4, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 4, 2015 if the 83 denotes your year, you are only 32 this year i knew many guys even older than you are still single and had not given up hope. you are still young and not alone so stop being so negative yes, but i am just feeling very lonely all of a sudden... not sure why. i am pretty sure i am consider 'ancient' in this harsh gay world... =( Me! And I am not really ashamed or sad about it, haha. Once in a while may emo a bit but life still goes on.TS must be feeling down because he cannot be with the guy he has a crush on. Who has not experienced this before? I am sure most of us had. i guess so.... but it has been many years and i just suddenly feeling super emo all of a sudden... Do well, you will get a wife and showcase us different life story some day i wish but will not destroy another woman's life for my pseudo 'happiness' Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wintersnow Posted December 4, 2015 Report Share Posted December 4, 2015 i do get emo at times but soon after i will be back to reality cos that is not the end of the world. in my job, i see alot of single people living alone in sg be it old or middle age and it is probably a trend nothing to be ashame of or sad about being single Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Guest Posted December 5, 2015 Report Share Posted December 5, 2015 TS, take up a hobby to occupy your mind.And do some outdoor sports too, such as jogging and swimming. They will help to lift up your spirit when you are feeling down.Do not let yourself sink deeper into self-pity. It may lead to depression.Btw, 40 is the new 30 and 30 is the new 20! You are not that old dude.Cheers! :-) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FirsTimer Posted December 5, 2015 Report Share Posted December 5, 2015 yes, but i am just feeling very lonely all of a sudden... not sure why. i am pretty sure i am consider 'ancient' in this harsh gay world... =(i guess so.... but it has been many years and i just suddenly feeling super emo all of a sudden... i wish but will not destroy another woman's life for my pseudo 'happiness'Happiness is emanate from you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koganei83 Posted December 5, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 5, 2015 thanks all i know i should be able to find my own happiness but i just suddenly so afraid of loneliness and dying without friends now... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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