When did the gay in you came out? How Did You Turn Gay? (compiled)

[upshot]

5 hours ago, Leanmeat said:

 

Seriosuly, if u enjoy guy sex so much from young, why did u even get married? Society pressure? And..can get hard w girls?

 

He enjoys it but that is not his core 'being' to be gay or that he feel gay or should be gay for what he does.

 

He just enjoy the sex for sex sake.. he relates everything sexually only. I see nothing wrong with that. No so long ago people were shock to find males wanting to marry and have sex with the same sex. heh.  So there is nothing strange or new about this. if he feels a male body is not different then a female sexually and get as much gratification from it.. He is doing no wrong here to himself nor does he live by the str8 code or gay code. He is NOT ALONE.

 

Granted not telling his spouse is not something that sit well with me but that's about loyalty and vow of love and all that sappy stuff hehehh    more than it is about him sticking a cock up his ass. But I am not to judge him for his marriage decision but more on the sole focus the he enjoys sex with both and find nothing wrong doing it. It's just sex. This has no bearing on being gay. If people can only equate male to male sex as being gay then you truly have no idea what being gay is mind, body and soul.

[Leanmeat]

2 minutes ago, upshot said:

 

He enjoys it but that is not his core 'being' to be gay or that he feel gay or should be gay for what he does.

 

He just enjoy the sex for sex sake.. he relates everything sexually only. I see nothing wrong with that. No so long ago people were shock to find males wanting to marry and have sex with the same sex. heh.  So there is nothing strange or new about this. if he feels a male body is not different then a female sexually and get as much gratification from it.. He is doing no wrong here to himself nor does he live by the str8 code or gay code. He is NOT ALONE.

 

Granted not telling his spouse is not something that sit well with me but that's about loyalty and vow of love and all that sappy stuff hehehh    more than it is about him sticking a cock up his ass. But I am not to judge him for his marriage decision but more on the sole focus the he enjoys sex with both and find nothing wrong doing it. It's just sex. This has no bearing on being gay. If people can only equate male to male sex as being gay then you truly have no idea what being gay is mind, body and soul.

 

I think u r reading too much into my question.

[cutejack]

2 hours ago, kimlo777 said:

Thanks cutejack.

 

No kimlo.y thank me? If time can be rewind back i would have got married too coz i love children especially boys.

U r lucky. 

[Leanmeat]

5 minutes ago, upshot said:

 

He enjoys it but that is not his core 'being' to be gay or that he feel gay or should be gay for what he does.

 

He just enjoy the sex for sex sake.. he relates everything sexually only. I see nothing wrong with that. No so long ago people were shock to find males wanting to marry and have sex with the same sex. heh.  So there is nothing strange or new about this. if he feels a male body is not different then a female sexually and get as much gratification from it.. He is doing no wrong here to himself nor does he live by the str8 code or gay code. He is NOT ALONE.

 

Granted not telling his spouse is not something that sit well with me but that's about loyalty and vow of love and all that sappy stuff hehehh    more than it is about him sticking a cock up his ass. But I am not to judge him for his marriage decision but more on the sole focus the he enjoys sex with both and find nothing wrong doing it. It's just sex. This has no bearing on being gay. If people can only equate male to male sex as being gay then you truly have no idea what being gay is mind, body and soul.

 

I dun suppose i said anything that he did something wrong or that he cheated a woman's feeling or what. 

 

what u just said reminds me of some freaking tops who can't wait to tell u they are top when u ask is only if they have a nice butt. Like as if I ask abt butt means i wanna fuck them?

[upshot]

2 hours ago, Leanmeat said:

 

I think u r reading too much into my question.

Maybe I should clarifying I deflected off your remark and was NOT directed at you as per say. But you do outline some of the rather unbalance view that tend to see things too much from one point without trying to balance that off. I have no chip on my shoulder nor do I have any bad intention to you or anyone who thinks the way you think.

[Guest guest]

I always felt different from others since young. During adolescence, I fantasized about other men, but I read that it was a phase. I even saw a Taiwanese show which said that once you get married you will turn straight. I kept hoping one day I will become normal. But it never did. Now in my late 30s, I have resigned myself to the aimless life of a closeted gay man. Everyday, I have to battle feelings of inadequacy being different from the straight people around me. If I had a choice, I do not want to be gay.

[kimlo777]

12 hours ago, upshot said:

 

He enjoys it but that is not his core 'being' to be gay or that he feel gay or should be gay for what he does.

 

He just enjoy the sex for sex sake.. he relates everything sexually only. I see nothing wrong with that. No so long ago people were shock to find males wanting to marry and have sex with the same sex. heh.  So there is nothing strange or new about this. if he feels a male body is not different then a female sexually and get as much gratification from it.. He is doing no wrong here to himself nor does he live by the str8 code or gay code. He is NOT ALONE.

 

Granted not telling his spouse is not something that sit well with me but that's about loyalty and vow of love and all that sappy stuff hehehh    more than it is about him sticking a cock up his ass. But I am not to judge him for his marriage decision but more on the sole focus the he enjoys sex with both and find nothing wrong doing it. It's just sex. This has no bearing on being gay. If people can only equate male to male sex as being gay then you truly have no idea what being gay is mind, body and soul.

Actually my dear upshot, to me sex with men is not just sexual gratification.  It goes beyond that.  Through my 48 years of active msm living, I've had several romantic relationships with different men and believe me, we were deeply in love.  But all these had to stop once I got married.  I am, in a way, tormented but my life still has to go on.  It is never easy - I don't know what I'd call it, be it living a lie, or lying to my spouse etc, but it does trouble me now and then.  After all, I am human with a conscience but my physical needs cannot be denied either.

[Guest Hot Swimmer]

16 minutes ago, kimlo777 said:

Actually my dear upshot, to me sex with men is not just sexual gratification.  It goes beyond that.  Through my 48 years of active msm living, I've had several romantic relationships with different men and believe me, we were deeply in love.  But all these had to stop once I got married.  I am, in a way, tormented but my life still has to go on.  It is never easy - I don't know what I'd call it, be it living a lie, or lying to my spouse etc, but it does trouble me now and then.  After all, I am human with a conscience but my physical needs cannot be denied either.

Hi Kimlo. I wonder are you a bi? If gay then how did you marry to your Wife and have a Son?

[cutejack]

1 hour ago, kimlo777 said:

Actually my dear upshot, to me sex with men is not just sexual gratification.  It goes beyond that.  Through my 48 years of active msm living, I've had several romantic relationships with different men and believe me, we were deeply in love.  But all these had to stop once I got married.  I am, in a way, tormented but my life still has to go on.  It is never easy - I don't know what I'd call it, be it living a lie, or lying to my spouse etc, but it does trouble me now and then.  After all, I am human with a conscience but my physical needs cannot be denied either.

R u divorced or still with yr wife? Sorry for being too str8 fwd.

Edited September 19, 2017 by cutejack

[Guest Naturalist]

I think turned gay when dad's sperm met mom's egg.

[kimlo777]

12 hours ago, cutejack said:

R u divorced or still with yr wife? Sorry for being too str8 fwd.

still with my wife.

[kimlo777]

13 hours ago, Guest Hot Swimmer said:

Hi Kimlo. I wonder are you a bi? If gay then how did you marry to your Wife and have a Son?

i don't really care for labels so i am what you think i am.

[Veldez]

I turn gay cause I felt in fantasy with my secondary school operation manager but we got never had chance to play 

[contraithichcontrai]

I turned gay when a boy at swimming pool kept molesting me. I didn't dare to re act but let him touch over my body. I even felt somehow excited. 

[Guest johnsonklt]

On 17/09/2017 at 8:20 AM, Guest Ict said:

 

Maybe he's in this BW forum, try connecting him for a rendezvous ICT.

 

wow  lovely  &  wonderful,   

hope that can happen

hahahahahahaha     

[chinesesam]

I'm not gay, consider myself bi cause i'm still very interested in having fun with female. I turned bi few years ago when i was watching Japanese porn at my buddy house together with his gf. They were heavily engaged & i was watch them doing it live, got very aroused & pulled down my jeans & started jerking off. His gf told my buddy she would like to give me a blowjob while getting nailed by my buddy but felt shy so requested me to be blindfolded. I was so excited, enjoying the suck. I was being sucked like 15 minutes then i heard her gf coughed, sounds like a distance away instead of down under me. I peeped  through the eye mask & saw my buddy is blowing me when his gf is watching us from the sofa, now I recalled the changed of feeling when I was sucked the first 5 minutes & the last 10 minutes, it was actually by his gf then changed to my buddy. I pulled off my eye mask & pushed my buddy away. I felt my dick went soft & the urge was gone but dick is still fully aroused. I asked then why, my buddy says it's a challenge between his gf & him & his gf says fun mah. I was a little angry with them & I walked towards her gf & demand for a blowjob till i cums as i'm really horny. Don't know how many minutes passed & i still didn't cums. We changed to 69 position & her pussy were sticky wet. We were eating each other & i saw my buddy was actually jerking off while watching us. I flip his gf over & told my buddy his gf will pay for it. His gf was giving him a blowjob while i was penetrating her. Her gf requested me to cums in my buddy mouth as it turn them on. I did as requested, it was the best feel i had. We continue this discreet relationship for almost two year till they broke off but my buddy & i had never had fun on our own. He's married now & not sure if he's still into this, we never talked abt this anymore. 

[Mique75ts]

I discovered I am a little different when I am in primary school.. Always admiring my cute classmate and always sneek peek at my next door neighbour handsome son. What a nice memory blast from the past.. Huhu 

 

[Mique75ts]

On 9/23/2017 at 4:14 PM, chinesesam said:

I'm not gay, consider myself bi cause i'm still very interested in having fun with female. I turned bi few years ago when i was watching Japanese porn at my buddy house together with his gf. They were heavily engaged & i was watch them doing it live, got very aroused & pulled down my jeans & started jerking off. His gf told my buddy she would like to give me a blowjob while getting nailed by my buddy but felt shy so requested me to be blindfolded. I was so excited, enjoying the suck. I was being sucked like 15 minutes then i heard her gf coughed, sounds like a distance away instead of down under me. I peeped  through the eye mask & saw my buddy is blowing me when his gf is watching us from the sofa, now I recalled the changed of feeling when I was sucked the first 5 minutes & the last 10 minutes, it was actually by his gf then changed to my buddy. I pulled off my eye mask & pushed my buddy away. I felt my dick went soft & the urge was gone but dick is still fully aroused. I asked then why, my buddy says it's a challenge between his gf & him & his gf says fun mah. I was a little angry with them & I walked towards her gf & demand for a blowjob till i cums as i'm really horny. Don't know how many minutes passed & i still didn't cums. We changed to 69 position & her pussy were sticky wet. We were eating each other & i saw my buddy was actually jerking off while watching us. I flip his gf over & told my buddy his gf will pay for it. His gf was giving him a blowjob while i was penetrating her. Her gf requested me to cums in my buddy mouth as it turn them on. I did as requested, it was the best feel i had. We continue this discreet relationship for almost two year till they broke off but my buddy & i had never had fun on our own. He's married now & not sure if he's still into this, we never talked abt this anymore. 

Yur buddy is having a cuckolding behaviour and maybe if he is active now this may escalate to having a swingers lifestyle 

[Kkklaus]

I grew up lacking my brother's love. He neglected me and threw me aside. Growing up, I craved for a brother's affection and it slowly grew into a long for man's love. I don't hate my Brother, neither do I hate being gay. I'm just happy that I fully understand myself right now instead of being in denial

[MurphyL]

On 9/18/2017 at 5:02 PM, kimlo777 said:

Guys - now that I have bared my soul to all of you. Please don't flame me hor.  Rather it would be nice to have some gay friends who can understand and sympathise with me and continue to screw me lah!

I hear you bro. We all have different priorities and life choices to make. The way you made your choice and set priorities are up to you, and should only be concerned by you only, as you are the one who bares the consequences of each choice to make.

 

Being gay, like man is always very difficult because it is a minority group. I can imagine being gay and married will add an extra level of difficulties, more like suppressing your truthself.

 

we are all hear to support you sir! Well done in taking a great balance in life.

[Guest Puppy Lover]

I turned gay because my JC classmate cum best friend once whispered into my ear: “I will marry you if you’re a girl.” when we were on bed in chalet. He hugged me to sleep while I was having an erection. I felt that I was in love. 

[cutejack]

18 minutes ago, Guest Puppy Lover said:

I turned gay because my JC classmate cum best friend once whispered into my ear: “I will marry you if you’re a girl.” when we were on bed in chalet. He hugged me to sleep while I was having an erection. I felt that I was in love. 

Hug only?

[fab]

3 hours ago, Guest Puppy Lover said:

I turned gay because my JC classmate cum best friend once whispered into my ear: “I will marry you if you’re a girl.” when we were on bed in chalet. He hugged me to sleep while I was having an erection. I felt that I was in love. 

 

U don't turn gay, u realized u r gay.

 

Orientation is not a choice. We don't hear straights saying that they choose to be straights.

[lightsmith32]

Seduced into it. Loving it.

[Guest concern]

Aiyo,just go for occasional public swimming.Soaping and watering for hours in the bathroom will know already.

[bmrg]

Didn't recall "turning" gay. So far I have always been repulsed by the bare bodies of the opposite sex.

 

Realised I am gay along the way from since I was 9, where I would get unusually excited seeing certain male classmates and teachers.

[Guest guestsober]

Watching porn may help establishing your blowing mind with a sensual jumps.Especially the bisexual whom go for both holes pretending to be one pure sexual solely to each gender.

[Guest Guest]

2 hours ago, bmrg said:

Didn't recall "turning" gay. So far I have always been repulsed by the bare bodies of the opposite sex.

 

Realised I am gay along the way from since I was 9, where I would get unusually excited seeing certain male classmates and teachers.

I love to look at topless guys even when i was in primary school, does it turn me into gay? Even now when i look at hot nice topless guys picture, sometimes i will get hard or my dick is wet with precum.

[Guest Guest]

I always wonder if a gay get married to a girl, how could the guy's dick got hard when he fuck the girl?

[MurphyL]

What happened if you go to a beach? There are so many shirtless guy there would you be severely dehydrated by excessive precum releases? Haaaa!

[Guest Guest]

6 minutes ago, MurphyL said:

What happened if you go to a beach? There are so many shirtless guy there would you be severely dehydrated by excessive precum releases? Haaaa!

Would not dehydrated but confirmed my dick would be super wet with precum.

[Guest sucks]

Looking live topless is a start to this world of gaydar.Either an uncle of neighbour refusing to wear a shirt while gardening is the culprit to led astray.Therefore starting to flip magazine for hairy uncle is the next step on masturbating skill.Like when young you don't know when to feel horny,so will tends to find all sorts of fantasy.Some may even go for animals which i did before when in sec sch.There was this cat which have one longan size on its tail carassing on me when i was in the playground alone.I started to touch the longan with finger and finds the cat like it and carass me more by turning left and right.That time i still don't know is a male cat but just find it intresting though i know for human.i was in sec 1 then.

[bmrg]

3 hours ago, Guest Guest said:

I love to look at topless guys even when i was in primary school, does it turn me into gay? Even now when i look at hot nice topless guys picture, sometimes i will get hard or my dick is wet with precum.

 

If you are stimulated looking at topless guys, chances are you are already gay in the first place.

 

The act of liking topless guys didn't turn you gay, it is because you are gay that you like topless guys (or bisexual if you have a thing for girls too).

[lovehandle]

On ‎8‎/‎10‎/‎2017 at 12:50 PM, Guest Puppy Lover said:

I turned gay because my JC classmate cum best friend once whispered into my ear: “I will marry you if you’re a girl.” when we were on bed in chalet. He hugged me to sleep while I was having an erection. I felt that I was in love. 

wow, I miss a cuddle for decades

 

topless shdnt affect me , but with them sticking out their underwear , that might make my eyeballs move

51 minutes ago, bmrg said:

 

If you are stimulated looking at topless guys, chances are you are already gay in the first place.

 

The act of liking topless guys didn't turn you gay, it is because you are gay that you like topless guys (or bisexual if you have a thing for girls too).

 

[Guest Neh Neh]

4 hours ago, Guest Guest said:

I always wonder if a gay get married to a girl, how could the guy's dick got hard when he fuck the girl?

Some sporty ladies have big bone and look like a guy. May be those gays get married to a "guy look-alike" lady and when turn off the light in bed room, the pussy is more or less the same as man hole except it may not be that tight. The difference is there is no stick to hold when fucking the hole. But that may make it up by holding a vibrator haha... lol

[lovehandle]

this will give some leads?

 

[Guest Guest]

14 hours ago, bmrg said:

 

If you are stimulated looking at topless guys, chances are you are already gay in the first place.

 

The act of liking topless guys didn't turn you gay, it is because you are gay that you like topless guys (or bisexual if you have a thing for girls too).

Actual fact i am more attracted and turn on by looking at topless guy, esp those fit bod rather than their dick area. Does this mean i am also gay in the first place?

[Lovepanties]

Realized I was bi after seeing an erect cock leaking pre cum....and I got hard myself...

[Guest 小底迪]

I was 10 then and attending swimming lesson in the public pool. I was curious and attracted to those 大葛格 and their monster snakes。

 

 

 

 

[Guest 龙龙抬阿狗]

[Guest Guest]

On 11 October 2017 at 4:52 PM, Guest 小底迪 said:

I was 10 then and attending swimming lesson in the public pool. I was curious and attracted to those 大葛格 and their monster snakes。

 

 

I can get hard when i look at such topless picture!

[Guest Not Traitstray]

There wasn't one specific thing that led me to acknowledge my orientation. It was more like a series of steps over about 10 years.

 

My first kiss with a boy who was not a family member came at the end of primary one. A boy who was a good friend during the school term was moving back to Malaysia. I visited him to say goodbye, and he kissed me and said he will miss me and hoped we would meet again in the future, and also always dreamed that we would get married someday. I told him he is weird and two men cannot get married but I would never forget his friendship and thanked him for always studying and playing with me. Didn't think much about it at the time. Just sad he was leaving.

 

Between primary two and primary three, I started playing with a neighborhood boy who was a year younger than me, and attended a different school. He always liked to talk about things like different cartoon designs on our underwear and said he liked to pee in public without getting caught. Needless to say he sometimes tempted me into peeing somewhere with him so he could look at my underwear, dick, and ass. He would also touch my dick or ass sometimes before we pulled our pants back up. I can't remember if I could already get erections because of it.

 

The first time I remember getting erect was the net summer. Me and three other friends were playing alone at the playground of the local secondary school. Later a boy I think was going into secondary two came by and joined us. He made small talk about school and games but soon asked what kind of underwear we wore. He said he never wore cartoon designs anymore because his brother claimed continuing to wear them would keep his dick small. Later we all pissed on a wall together and I was so hard my piss sprayed on the wall above our head level.

 

I didn't start wanking until near the end of secondary two. The first few times I would think of girls, but started to lose interest, and needed more stimulation to stay hard until shooting. But when I would think about changing clothes in the locker room or seeing guys bodies at the swimming pool, I would get extremely turned on, shoot, get erect again, and shoot again. I felt ashamed about these thoughts, however, and told myself it was just a weird fantasy because I would never really do sexual things with other boys. That would obviously change eventually.

 

Between secondary four and poly one, I tutored a boy from Hong Kong, who loved talking about sexual topics after our sessions were finished. Near the end of our arrangement, he went into such topics again, and asked me what I thought about gay. I said I know people say it is wrong but it is not my business if two men decide they love each other and want to be together without hurting anybody else. He was shocked by my answer but then asked what I think about two buddies wanking together. I said I guess it's okay if they are comfortable with each other.

 

This led to us wanking together, kissing, sucking each other, and fucking each other. After that, for me, there was no turning back.

[Guest Mazikeen]

I remember when I was about 12 years old, I would be visiting at my grandfather's house in Little India. Those pre war old colonial shophouses, very near to New World hotel that collapsed.  At times, we will stay over as there are prayers that conducted thru till past midnight.  As kids, we will always look forward meeting our cousins..as all gathered. You know, those Teochew old times where they conduct a lot of prayers for some occasions. 

 

A few shops away, there Is one blacksmith shop.  Those days these blacksmith will take orders from fabricating knives, metal rods etc.  The owner of this shop is a old man if I am not wrong in his fifties, white headed and blading.   We used to play hide and seek and at times I will hide in his shop and my cousins will never find me, cause they were too scared to go into his shop. You know, blacksmith shop are always black, filthy and dirty and the man had a menacing looks.  He did not mind me, as a young boy entering his shop or at times out of curiosity, I will go to his shop and look around, asking those young silly questions like what are those tools he was making for.  At times he will answer, in Chinese and mixed Hokkien, at times he kept to himself. He has a wife, always in cheongsam and I always greet her whenever I see her and she will give me sweets or candies.  They have no children thou.  

 

The day it happened, and I will not forget till today.  I was staying over the weekend at my grandfathers place, my parents decided to go home and left me there to stay over and will pick me the next day.  I guess that was an excused for not having me around so that they will have their private time together.  My cousins all went back leaving only my youngest aunty who stays with my grandfather, my grandmother and myself.  After dinner, I was out exploring the vicinity again.  Those people during these era will know Little India is a place of mess during the eighties.  There were many drunkard lying around even along those pathways.  I was bit afraid to venture out too far and at the age of 12, is vulnerable.  So I walked back and ended up in front of the blacksmith shop.  Just as the uncle was about to close, he saw me and smile at me, gesturing me to come into his shop.  His smile I would not forget, wryly.  For the first time I was feeling afraid but at the same time was curious.  Then, I saw, as he was standing behind closed doors, with only opening in the middle, he was stroking himself though his pants. He whipped out his cock and I saw a huge purple knob, he kept gesturing me to come near the door.  I was afraid but then I feel hot and curious at that age, was keen to explore my sexuality. 

 

As I was near the door, my eyes kept looking at his cock, he opened the door and quickly pulled me in.  Once inside he quickly closed and locked the door and he hugged me.  I remembered telling him to stop, but he didn't.  He told me in Chinese telling me not to be afraid as no one's at home.  He turned me around and pulled my hands to place on his cock asking me to touch him gently.  Afraid that he will scold me I just did what I was told.  He started to touch me on my groin and that was the first time I was being touch there other than my mum who bathe me when I was younger.  My small little penis grew, other than every morning I felt this sensation, in auto mode.  He pulled down my shorts and commented something I can't really remembered, something like hairless in Chinese and not circumcised. When he forcefully pulled back my foreskin, I felt pain, but surprising when he poured some water over it, and start to gently rub over the head, I felt a different sensation, those first time high sensation.  I remembered that was the first time I saw my penis head, red, sensitive and throbbing.  After about 5 mins I start to leaking very clear liquid and the first time of cuming, and its was his turn and he ask me to lie down on the straw mattress, he come over me and masturbate himself and cum over my privates.

 

This is how my life as a gay started and from then I always visit him whenever I was at my grandfather's place.  If his wife is around, he will make those small naughty suggestions like he will ask me to stand behind the cupboard that blocking his wife but he could see her while she watching those drama serials behind, gesturing me to pull down my shorts as he wanted to see it.  This went on for 1 year over till my visit to my grandfather's became lesser and we have to evicted the place as the govt is taking over the land to build commercial or housing projects.

 

Thanks for reading my story, and its true.. my real life's dark past.....

[Guest Tan Man]

So sorry for those of you who were forced into your first gay experiences by older men who were basically child molesters. It would have been so much more normal for you if these things had happened naturally through curious exploration with a schoolmate or fellow neighborhood boy.

[Guest Mazikeen]

Yes, I lived with my past haunting me, after the incident, I still visit his shop, probably I am into the stage of puberty and curiosity, and did he taught me a few things like how to stroke myself.  He never really abused me but before I was turning 14 years yrs old, the last few visitation, he did teach me how to blow him and his hands led to further like tickling the outside of my arsehole.  That was the first cock I had in my mouth. I remember the first time he ask me to BJ on him, he made me sit on the tool machine, with my shorts off and one legged up, blowing him and with him stroking me and finger the outside of my hole. Thinking back, I didn't think much at that time instead I was feeling very high9.

[Guest Cuzz]

I know many posters have pointed out that the title of this thread is erroneous -- since most guys simply acknowledge our orientation at some point -- as opposed to 'turning gay' like the title is phrased. But in cases where children or teenagers are molested by disgusting older men -- I do believe such incidents can cause them to 'turn gay' -- whereas they probably would have grown up to be straight if not for those immoral pedophiles robbing them of their innocence.

 

Mazikeen, you wrote that your past has haunted you before, but I hope you are okay now, and happy with the good things you have been able to do in your life, despite the unfair way in which your sexuality was awakened. I consider myself lucky that my formative sexual experiences took place with boys from my relative age range, and always feel sorry for anybody who was molested by older men, because their natural destiny was selfishly stolen out from them.

[Shoo]

On 9/18/2017 at 9:51 AM, kimlo777 said:

I believe firmly that I am born the way I am.  From a very young age I was attracted to other men's penises - just love the sight of it and how from its flaccid state it can slowly grow larger and become firmly erect.  It was just so fascinating.  Then I had the chance to hold one in my tiny hands and from then, I just love the feel of a blood-engorged cock in my hand.  Then I was taught to stroke it and marvelled at how it would twitch in my hands and eventually shoot out sperm.  I was immediately addicted to the scent of sperm and a few weeks later swallowed my first dose of sperm and love it too.  Then from giving handjob, I graduated to sucking cock until when I was 12 or thereabout, I was finally deflowered by a school teacher.  It felt painful but the strange thing is I wanted it to happen again so I kept visiting that teacher at his flat and on each visit he would lead me to his bedroom and fuck me senseless.  That was almost 50 years ago and I still love getting fucked.  Does that make me gay?  On the other hand, I am happily married and have a grown up married son and a happy grandfather.

and I want to meet u gramps.

[Guest Mazikeen]

7 hours ago, Guest Cuzz said:

 

Mazikeen, you wrote that your past has haunted you before, but I hope you are okay now, and happy with the good things you have been able to do in your life, despite the unfair way in which your sexuality was awakened. I consider myself lucky that my formative sexual experiences took place with boys from my relative age range, and always feel sorry for anybody who was molested by older men, because their natural destiny was selfishly stolen out from them.

 

Yes, I started with the wrong foot during puberty, thorough these years from enlisting to army, young adulthood and now in my forties, I did struggled to find my identity. Even to visiting prostitutes during those army days, as urged on together with my platoon mates, and at that point I do not want my real identity to be exposed, or may I say I am trying to turn back to straight. I did try to court girls during my uni days but then I found out that the other side of me still awaiting to be unleash. 

 

When I started travelling, mostly to Europe countries for work trips, and oh my, the culture over there changed me totally. You meet really PLU gay men, LGBT, old, young etc and it's so different from our part of world we are in now.

[fab]

4 hours ago, Guest Mazikeen said:

 

Yes, I started with the wrong foot during puberty, thorough these years from enlisting to army, young adulthood and now in my forties, I did struggled to find my identity. Even to visiting prostitutes during those army days, as urged on together with my platoon mates, and at that point I do not want my real identity to be exposed, or may I say I am trying to turn back to straight. I did try to court girls during my uni days but then I found out that the other side of me still awaiting to be unleash. 

 

When I started travelling, mostly to Europe countries for work trips, and oh my, the culture over there changed me totally. You meet really PLU gay men, LGBT, old, young etc and it's so different from our part of world we are in now.

 

Pls define wrong.

[Guest GayEyeSee]

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